Miss To Move Diary

Nyuuuuut ,,, really.

How many days have the poles ignored me, even today I know he's been in the office and fieldwork surveys visited several places.

My meeting with Sri's sister was fruitless. I don't get much information.

'Why should I care about his abandonment?'

"Yevn, are you ready?" Ask Jerry sir to throw my daydream.

"Already sir? Leaving now?"

"Yes,"

I rushed to do my job that day. Sis Teguh behaved normally, although among us was unusual. I myself still feel awkward with him, but the presence of other colleagues makes everything okay.

"Why you?" Ask Sis Teguh in between work time.

"Ga why why sister." I answered and threw a smile reassuringly.

Sis Teguh just chuckled, as if something tickled his heart.

"Hey, the bride-to-be should enjoy, don't think much less depressed." Said Brother Teguh advising me.

"Yes" I answered briefly,

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I cupped both palms to my face, as soon as I prayed and prayed.

After tidying everything up, I opened the maroon-colored laptop. I open the image folder that displays a lot of arranged photos.

Her smile was very sweet, her face looked shady and earthy. My longing for him is very, very, today I can still see him even though only through a photo from a laptop.

Once you become the wife of another man, everything is bound to change. Tears trickled back, remembering the twists and turns I had faced and who would wait.

It feels heavy, God's destiny feels unfair to me, life like this makes me always shrouded in anxiety and worry.

When my phone rang, I immediately grabbed my phone while wiping my tears.

Pole Man

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"Hallo,,,"

[Assalamu.].

"Wa'alaikumsalam warahmatullah," I answered.

[How are you?]

"good. Pretty good."

[Hm.]

He started with his original attitude. Obviously I was just speechless confused not knowing how to. My mind was deadlocked.

[Yevn, yesterday's problem I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have been so hard. I'm just furious and can't accept the way you're dealing with Ozy at the risk of our relationship.] Polar human speech.

"Yes, I understand, I'm not supposed to make things worse, I'm wrong here, sorry. " My words are full of regrets.

[You are wrong.] His words annoyed me and did not accept.

[You're telling someone who's not who's trying to get into our relationship, even trying to destroy what I've built with great difficulty. I value you really have no intention to maintain this relationship, let alone to move forward together, you even say 'welcome' to him. We're not playing in this relationship, deck. I know you can't accept me yet, but this is no way.]

The pole thrust his sentence into a tube, making me silence a thousand languages. His words were not wrong, I had indeed made a fatal mistake, I was well aware of that.

I always act with my heart and put my mind aside. Making decisions without considering anything else. I was too selfish with all my will.

But my heart is right, I can not deny it is just carved the name of Arfan Hadi Al Ghifary. I can't lie to anyone how much my dear is still intact to another who has long left me with all the contents of the world.

"I'm sorry, sir. I'm really sorry." I'm lirih.

[Yes, rest, many things ahead.] Her speech.

[Assalamu'alaikum.] Connect again.

"Wa'alaikumsalam..." My answer.

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"So the ice pole called you?" Ask Eva this morning.

"Yes, it's out there, I'm still sleepy...." I said with a distinctive voice early in the morning and my eyes were not ready to look at the world.

"Aaaa,,,, wake up, I'm hungry, make breakfast." Whimper Eva.

Instead of answering or waking up, I covered my ears with a pillow.

As a result I immediately revolted away from Eva, to get down from the top of the bed how not, I was very uncomfortable in the hug.

"You're afraid of you, right, the hunt's up for it." Eva said triumphantly.

"Disease Vong, you're a snake demon. Look out for you deket deket, I don't want, already amused, I swear."

Eva pranked me even more, trying to get closer to me who was retreating and put up a leg ready to escape from the troubling snake demon.

"Age is not a barrier to expression"

Me and Eva got together. 😅🙊🙈

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"So, he started the phone first?" Eva asked as soon as she heard my story.

"Hmm," I nodded by devouring my sandwich.

"The iceberg melts too eventually." Eva said with a smile.

"But anywhere, you're still wrong weh. If I'm in his position, I've been ceburin you in the damang, cruel you weh." Connect again.

"Who said he was cruel to whom." I glanced at Eva, and passed into the kitchen to wash my dirty glass.

I went straight to the room to wear a pasmina hijab, because before breakfast I was already wearing a khaki combi batik office uniform, the lower end blazer model slanted slightly and to the side, who has a rope above the waist that I've tied.

Me and Eva left for the office early in the morning, as they were about to leave for the regional guesthouse.

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Time has shown daylight, the sun starts overhead, time zuhr will soon enter.

The pole sent me a message that's enough to make me dizzy instead of puffed up..

The meeting of two families will come soon to discuss and make decisions related to the time of marriage.

...Pole Man:...

"You're my family, the sooner the better."

...I:...

"Oh my own father, how?"

...Pole Man:...

"Faster than parents planned."

I'm pretty upset by the reply to the message from the polar man.

...Pole Man:...

"Before Ramadan."

Again I didn't reply to the polar message. I'm pretty stamped right now.

All mixed into one.

...Pole Man:...

"Hey, uh,

That's what I want, not a deal, the decision hasn't been taken, and it's all in your hands."

I'm not retaliating anymore.

...Pole Man:...

"There's a discussion, before parents meet, maybe you can think first, or maybe we can change our minds. Just like when we discussed the same Vhen and the others about the engagement. Let your heart be more steady and less anxious when parents are facing each other and making our wedding day schedule decisions."

...I:...

"Yes, thank you."

...Polar man:...

"Yes, calm your mind, calm your heart. Don't hunt, don't think too much."

The poles gave in, my head already hurting a lot. My heart is growing more and more troubled, to whom would I complain about this restlessness of heart?

I take my miss to the Lord's caress of love, I stir all my grief.