Miss To Move Diary

The truth revealed

Today I forced myself to work. Although my body is not fully fit and it does not make me undo the intention to work.

There is not much to do today, my job is a little helped by the intern. I just need to check out some of the work that's been put together by a friend. Checking the travel schedule of fellow protocol partners to accompany superiors to the event both their location in the office area, and out.

I copied his notes into my personal schedule. To make it easier to schedule my daily activities. Because I had to work out my schedule so as not to clash with my other activities.

Although I like to follow the activities of both art and reunion, gather with serior, share experiences and input, but I do not want all of that to be a hindrance in office affairs. I must be wise to divide my time, for this is my world.

My head started to get heavy, once I massaged my nose, I started to feel nauseous.

I came out of the room, looking for a female toilet.

It turned out that Brother Teguh noticed earlier. Something was wrong, he approached me. And at the same time Eva was also present,.

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I sat in the canteen with Eva and Brother Teguh.

"Where? Do you feel better?" Brother Teguh looks worried.

"What the hell, brother." My answer.

This afternoon I ordered peanut sauce sago noodles with a spicy taste in a little vegetable kale and cucumber pieces with slices of green pepper on it. Not forgetting the corn juice.

Usually I order the same brother Ijha who lives not far from my house. He used the Delivery system, which I just had to wait at home.

It's just, he uses fern vegetables and the sauce is more spicy, eating while warm is delicious. hmmm,, yummy.... 😙

Sis Teguh ordered the same menu as me, just the way she ate was a little different. Kak Teguh poured sweet soy sauce and without topping sliced cayenne pepper on it.

Eva was most different, she ordered extra sweet soy sauce chicken noodles and orange ice. Eva can't eat spicy food.

"Can you take a road like that?" Ask Mr. Teguh arrived.

"How do you mean?" I saw Brother Teguh looking at me and Eva alternately.

Eva did the same.

"Yaaaaa, my presence is not in want, hiks huaaa😭 nyam nyam, huaaa😭 nyam nyam, huaaa😭😭 " Say Eva while devouring her food.

"But how else, I'm eating." Connect Eva.

Me and Brother Teguh stared at Eva, emphasizing something I already understood that Brother Teguh wanted to talk to me about something four ears. But Eva's presence instead makes her have to be silenced.

But anyway I can't bear to kick Eva who is still cool feeding the pet in her stomach.

And I don't have to leave him alone here either.

"Okay, okay, Yevn, where are your earphones, here I disco while eating, so you can talk as you like without me hearing." Eva pushed for a reasonable idea.

"Oh, yeah, this."

I handed over the earphones that Eva put on with the henchmen and looked sincere with her suffering this afternoon.

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"So, why are you ovdos?" Sis Teguh started to core.

I'm still thinking, how could he know about this. Aren't my office mates in the news that I'm anemic.

"Don't ask me how I know this." He said it again, as if he had just looked up and read my mind.

"Hmm, I'm afraid, brother, I'm a khilaf,,,,"

"Is it because of your engagement to Mr. Kavin?"

I was wide-eyed by the words of Brother Teguh, I must not underestimate his presence. Brother Teguh continues to confuse me with questions that invite a thousand questions for me.

"What do others also know, who am I engaged to?" My toot.

Sis Teguh just laughed at the question I asked.

"I know not, because Desi's brother still asks who the man who is your choice. Hmm, so he really stole your heart?"

"Come, brother, I just go with the flow," I replied lazily.

Eva is still cool listening to music in my opinion, and still enjoying her food that is still half left.

"What if I loved you, would you do the same? Trying to kill yourself?"

Eva's hand stopped right after Teguh's sister finished her sentence. I saw the look on Eva's face reaching for her glass.

I turned my gaze toward the man I thought was this big brother.

"Hahaha, brother is just kidding, don't you think."

"Ah, brother scares me. Hehe." I laughed stiffly, though,,

"Surely want to propose to you."

Jerry's words came back. I grabbed my drink trying to get rid of my nervousness.

"Listen, Yevn, but really, I do like you, even intending to propose. But I was late, I was too afraid to convey my intentions, I was thinking too much. I know you and your family well, especially Vhen. I also know how you judge me, look at me and think of me. I'm your co-worker, more specifically I think of you as a big brother to you. That sets me apart from the rest. I used to think of you as a partner, a special junior with all your talents. But every time I'm with you my feelings get happier, there's a sense of pride to be beside you. I kept trying to understand my feelings, convince myself, what exactly I wanted. Until I realized that I had fallen for you, I saw you more than a sister or a colleague."

My heart beats at a rate, pumping at a max speed. I can't hold Saliva.

His words struck me and stabbed me many times. It hurt, every word he said seemed to skin me.

"I've expressed my intentions to Jerry, no one knows your engagement, until I was really shocked when Missi announced your status in your room. I'm sure no one thought before. Even now I still don't expect. Until I found out you were doing that ridiculous experiment, I realized that you already belonged to someone else. Hahaha, how come I only realized when you had attempted suicide? that's why you, you're not ready for a change in yourself, you're still dependent on the deceased. I know it's not easy."

I forget about my surroundings, I ignore everything, every word Teguh does not want me to miss. I kept listening to Teguh who kept talking. It seemed like he had gathered his hard-earned courage. I understand that, just like old brother Arfan expressed his feelings for me.

My heart continued to beat rapidly, very quickly, sweat continued to drench my palms. My tongue can't speak, my mind is dead in the face of the great wall that closes all my streets. My brain tells me to be a listener.

"I'm done eating... Have you guys finished the meeting? My head was charred, my brain had melted from the thump of this deafening music of mine.... I'm sud,,,,,"

Sis Teguh held Eva's hand so as not to release the earphones in her hand earlier.

Eva intercepted the sculpting, while Teguh's sister looked at me who was startled by her quick actions restraining Eva.

"I really love you." Said Brother Teguh staring fixedly at me.

Then Brother Teguh asked Eva to remain silent so as not to open the tool that closes her ear hole. Sis Teguh bribed Eva with a bowl of ice cream. Eva's face is clearly back in series as if forgetting her suffering.

"I don't want to know how you feel about Mr. Kavin. I'm just saying everything I've wanted to say for a long time. Although now it feels too late, but loving without asking for rewards is really love, right? As you have done all this time, love the man named Arfan even though you know he is gone. I don't know who's luckier or losers between me and you. If you love a man you can't reach and you see again, while I love and can only see a woman who lives with the man she has chosen."

I'm getting claustrophobic with the words that Teguh's leg stuck on me. Every word can paralyze me.

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"I'm done, thank God, delicious and full, are you done?" Eva is back.

Until Teguh raised her thumb towards Eva, indicating that Eva was allowed to remove her earphones.

I still looked towards Teguh's sister who busied herself by responding to Eva's rant. I knew it was a distraction from the tense situation that was going on between us.

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Connect,,,,,,

The author starts planning a party (Event to be held. Limited edition)