Miss To Move Diary

Revealing the Reality

As soon as the phone ended, there were a lot of messages coming in.

Especially darii,,, huh?? What made this woman send me so many messages?

I checked one by one the incoming messages, starting the message sent by bang Aye related to the song that was covered some time ago in the studio. He also invited me to gather again at his music studio. I started typing one letter at a time replying to messages from bang Aye, asking when would be a good time to get together.

I turned my right arm which was still hurting and felt heavy. Then check out the next message, which was my student alumnus first. I just smiled reading the greetings from my former students and a few sentences.

I kept opening message after message. Finish it until it's noiseless. Including the message of my Pole sir sent when the call via phone is underway.

"Good sleep, baby,,"

Reading it made my cheeks feel hot. Ah, the weather is too extreme, the heat is so scorching.

I continued scrolling to open the next message.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Yevn, are you busy? Can meet?"

"I tried calling your number earlier, but it was busy."

"Hmmm.."

"Have I ever made trouble with you?"

I read every message he sent in a row.

I don't know where this is going, but it doesn't seem easy.

What made Ozy send me messages like this.

I guessed nebak a long time ago. Eva's laughter shrieked, diverting my daydream. My stomach feels hungry to smell the fragrance from the gazebo where they serve various snacks and drinks. I approached to join them.

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This morning I left for the office early, because I will follow the apple routine at the beginning of the week.

My body still hurts when I take painkillers.

"How was yesterday's show?" Ask Mr. Teguh as we step into the office.

"Alhamdulillah, smoothly, but I'd rather take to the field with Jeroszt's team." I replied to Teguh's question.

Our steps are drifting,

"Oh, huh? Why?" Ask the strong man again.

"Do you have to include a reason?" I asked half a laugh.

"Just want to know, who knows the reason for aak...."

"Sister," I glanced at him.

I stopped at the door of my room.

"Ah yes, kidding." Said Brother Teguh laughing.

"Ready to the hall, there's a little directive from PR." Said Brother Teguh.

"Ready," I answered briefly before Brother Teguh passed away leaving me. I took my work notebook to bring to the meeting room.

My relationship problem with Brother Teguh, indeed I was a little awkward with him since the incident that day.

The Flasback

"Listen, Yevn, but really, I do like you, even intending to propose. But I was late, I was too afraid to convey my intentions, I was thinking too much. I know you and your family well, especially Vhen. I also know how you judge me, look at me and think of me. I'm your co-worker, more specifically I think of you as a big brother to you. That sets me apart from the rest. I used to think of you as a partner, a special junior with all your talents. But every time I'm with you my feelings get happier, there's a sense of pride to be beside you. I kept trying to understand my feelings, convince myself, what exactly I wanted. Until I realized that I had fallen for you, I saw you more than a sister or a colleague."

My heart beats at a rate, pumping at a max speed. I can't hold Saliva.

His words struck me and stabbed me many times. It hurt, every word he said seemed to skin me.

"I've expressed my intentions to Jerry, no one knows your engagement, until I was really shocked when Missi announced your status in your room. I'm sure no one thought before. Even now I still don't expect. Until I found out you were doing that ridiculous experiment, I realized that you already belonged to someone else. Hahaha, how come I only realized when you had attempted suicide? that's why you, you're not ready for a change in yourself, you're still dependent on the deceased. I know it's not easy."

I forget about my surroundings, I ignore everything, every word Teguh does not want me to miss. I kept listening to Teguh who kept talking. It seemed like he had gathered his hard-earned courage. I understand that, just like old brother Arfan expressed his feelings for me.

My heart continued to beat rapidly, very quickly, sweat continued to drench my palms. My tongue can't speak, my mind is dead in the face of the great wall that closes all my streets. My brain tells me to be a listener.

"I really love you." Said Brother Teguh staring fixedly at me.

Then Brother Teguh asked Eva to remain silent so as not to open the tool that closes her ear hole. Sis Teguh bribed Eva with a bowl of ice cream. Eva's face is clearly back in series as if forgetting her suffering.

"I don't want to know how you feel about Mr. Kavin. I'm just saying everything I've wanted to say for a long time. Although now it feels too late, but loving without asking for rewards is really love, right? As you have done all this time, love the man named Arfan even though you know he is gone. I don't know who's luckier or losers between me and you. If you love a man you can't reach and you see again, while I love and can only see a woman who lives with the man she has chosen."

I'm getting claustrophobic with the words that Teguh's leg stuck on me. Every word can paralyze me.

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"But on the other hand I was afraid, one by one you left me. I am enough with the love that God gives, by presenting the feeling of affection to the man who will be titled husband, even though now the farewell that befalls, God loves him more."

"I just want to love him for the rest of my life, improve myself, and be able to meet him with the permission of my Lord. And whoever has been written in the far reaches of Mahfudz as my soul mate in the world, I am sure it is the best that God has entrusted to me. I don't know who it is,,"

For a long time I stared at my empty fingers.

I still looked towards Teguh's sister who busied herself by responding to Eva's rant. I knew it was a distraction from the tense situation that was going on between us.

Off Flashback.

The meeting is over, I called the members who accompanied me yesterday on duty in mangrove ecotourism asking them to the chamber of treasurer to take the commission.

I passed to Desi's room.

As soon as opening the phone that vibrated earlier. It turns out that Sri from District X.

"...."

"Sorry, I was in a meeting so I couldn't pick up the phone." Mouthed.

"Oh, yes, brother sorry too. Are you busy now?" Ask her.

" Hmm, no, sister, the plan is also to go home early," I said.

"Well, I happen to be empty too, want to have lunch together? Someone wants an older brother gosipin" he said.

I laughed when I heard him talking to me. Even though I knew it was just a joke.

"It's about Roziana." Sister Sri's words interest me a little, considering the message Ozy sent me.

"Where if I prepare some of my work first, After Zuhur we meet."

I bid on him, actually this is a break in office hours, I plan to invite Mr. Desi for lunch and a little story on his behalf.

But I paused, I changed plans, chose to use the break to work and go home early.

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I finished some work, put together a schedule, made a departure list, wrote the results of yesterday's work report.

I leaned on the shoulder of the chair, unwinded after listening to the results of my work.

What happened to Ozy? What do you want to say, Sri?

I glanced at the clock wrapped around my wrist, at half-two. I called Sri to tell her that I was not carrying a vehicle. Finally Sri's sister will pick me up.

Connect,,,,,

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