Miss To Move Diary

Die off?

I opened my eyes slowly, twitching a few times as I felt glare at the heat of the day.

The engine was still on, the steering wheel was empty, I was alone in the car.

I put my eyes out of the car, it's in my mom's house. So I've been sleeping during the trip. My sleep was really uninterrupted. I don't even know when I got home.

These few days, I did not get enough sleep, even though I tried to melt my eyes in my most comfortable place, the room. But it was just a waste. I even use sleeping pills, because my body needs sleep anyway to absorb new energy.

Where are the polar humans?

I shut off the engine and got out of the car. My eyes are still watching around, where's that ice block?

"Well, already awake, gih wash your face, directly pray zuhur, do not delay." Mom said as she passed me by the door.

"Mama," I kissed the back of your hand.

Mama is ready to go.

"No one wakes up, Yevn. Time in the barin girls sleep in the car, if anyone nyelikan how?" I put on a pouty face.

"Where there are people willing to take risks in the lion, nyelik you make a big loss the company kidnap an."

A male voice suddenly appeared from behind. Who's the man if not bang Vhen.

I gave a death glance to bang Vhen, a glance that made the passing mosquitoes to die. 😅😂

"Bareng aja ma, waitin Yevn, just wait a long time." Whiney.

"Hmm, after my mom there, mom was waiting for Ani."

Mama said while pointing at Ani's mother who was walking towards the mother's house.

Bu Ani is a neighbor and a close friend of my mother.

"Yevn prayed first, it's past his hour..." I hurriedly ran to the room to clean up and perform the prayer zuhur.

"Abang wait Yevn yah." My peek.

"Son, brother wants to date with brother Aisyah, when you ngintilin mulu." Bang Vhen I can still hear his voice.

Not yet had time to enter the room, I was shocked by the figure of a man whose hair was still wet.

Like his he just finished praying, his hair still leaves the rest of the ablution water.

I ran back to my room after my steps stopped in front of the freezer.

It turned out that he 'passenger' prayed, and let me fall asleep in the car, not even waking me up.

(Select, the Yevn is using someone. 😅😅

Basically I am difficult to make in wakein if you are asleep, if anyone yells pocong or kunti as well, I stay asleep and will not realize🙈🙊😅😂😂)

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I came out of the room while putting up the needle hijab, because it was so hunted, did not want to stay bang Vhen.

But all I saw on the porch was mama and the polar man. Bang Vhen was right with his intention to make a pair with brother Aisyah.

"Mr, don't you go? your friend might be there." I asked Mr. Kavin.

He just smiled without saying a word, irritating and upsetting me. Sorry I have a sweet face to him, but I have acted in front of my mom.

Up there, me, mama and Mount Fuji in winter picked the table. Someone touched the ridge, I turned my head and it turned out to be Brother Sri who was looking for an empty bench.

Mr. Kavin offered to join us, I agreed, asked him to join, but he refused because they were in company. Maybe because Sri was reluctant to join among us, plus there was a prospective in-law of her boss.

I slightly lowered my head, pretending to play mobile phone, even though I only dodged the same employee Pak Kavin.

Someone greeted me.

"Hey, Yevn." I'm turning. Right, the voice belongs to him.

"Hi, Ozy, new nyampe huh?" I asked a little nervous, afraid my relationship and Mr. Kavin spread.

"Yes, it's very hot, I'm sitting here, yes" he said, which is still an empty seat.

"Yes, gapapa, just sit down." My speech.

Mr. Kavin looked at me, with aaaannn,,, what is it, hellooww, I am not a viewer who can read the hand line, what else is the face line. Except fine line lines on the face, and braided lines due to aging and increasing age. hehehe😅😅.

"Please, sir," Ozy greeted the ice block, which was only coldly countered by him.

Mama, still cool with a friend who is next to her stool, after returning a greeting from Ozy.

"You will go home later, mama with Usayi ma'am, want to see the sick mama, Ani ma'am also come." Mama said to me.

Mr. Kavin may have heard, too, because he agreed with my mother's words.

Mom left us.

I saw Ozy who was busy playing mobile phones and occasionally greeting friends she knew.

"Udah?" Ask the Pole who looks no longer at home. Maybe he doesn't like the hustle and bustle at the party.

"Hm, yes." My answer. He immediately stood up, Ozy suddenly saw it.

"You two together?" Ask.

"Heh,? Coincidentally, I met, after all this is my village, Mr. Kavin with my brother, so I could be together." My answer is wrong.

"Ooo, yes, yes, heart yes." Ozy said, I don't seem to hesitate with my words.

I got up after Mr. Kavin who was waiting not far from the table where Ozy was living alone. I actually don't feel like I can leave him. But because I can no longer be thrown questions that trap me.

Seen by the girls who looked towards the polar man, there was even something I heard praising his good looks.

Where's the good looks? I just saw it as usual, but they were busy whispering whispering in awe.

I walked with Mr. Kavin on the pelamine stage to congratulate him.

"Well both of you, don't look at your brother anymore."

I looked back, bang Vhen teased me, next to her sister Aisyah laughed sweetly. I was just pouting, showing annoyance at staying away going out with them.

"Goodbye, dear, yes," my cheeks and the cheeks of Zura the bride collided, and,,

"Oiy, corona," said bang Vhen jokingly, Zura and the groom just laughed.

"Eh, how do you get my boss's stuff?" Whisper Zura who pulled my hand so I could stand beside her. //This is it, the bride still had time to gossip.

"Ah, it just so happens that there are two of you, my brother-in-law is there too." Ngeles. Luck is still on my side to find the right place.

"Ih, lie to you yeah, don't don't that my mom said you're fiancee, same boss I was times, right." Zura started to pull the secret root that I was trying to close.

"What?" Ngeles.

"It's my boss, your heart, a lot of ngincer tuh."

"Ngada ngada lu Ra, dah lah, the bride can not gossip, ntar bentan."

I congratulated the couple, and headed to the car park.

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I'm getting frustrated, my life's gone awry. Being the partner of someone I don't love, makes me keep putting down things I don't understand.

It became harder and harder for me to melt my eyes, longing took over all my feelings. The guilt of the deceased for this decision, made me even more depressed.

I even got my heart just with the help of sleeping pills.

I looked at the medicine with the dose I asked for in the dosing carefully. I took out all the pills from inside the bottle. I can't think clearly anymore. Raging, Until my eyes darken, the mind asks me to finish this feeling of longing.

My heart was beating with pain, my breath was snapped and it was painful, my throat was hot, my head was starting to ache and heavy. Pain,,,

Until I no longer hear the noise of my feelings.

Sister, sister,

I'll meet him,,, I'll,,

This is all I think about, though,,

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My head hurts, my body feels very weak. I opened my eyes slowly because my head was so heavy.

All white, am I dead?

Where's daddy? where is Brother Arfan?

My head hurts so much, I touched my head.

I'm wearing a breathing apparatus.

Visible transparent hose with a needle stuck on the wrist and clear water flowing through a drip tube hanging on the iron pole beside the bed.

Am I still dreaming? The same dream?

Where's Brother Arfan? Where's dad? Why isn't Arfan here reading God's love letter?

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Seriate.....