Miss To Move Diary
The Missing of a Love
Eva is now officially engaged. Even his marriage has been postponed several times for several reasons.
One by one people near me started to leave.
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Sis, did I miss you?
No, I never stopped missing you.
More and more days,
Every day, that longing is always passionate, filling every cavity of my life.
It didn't take me long to get to know you.
It didn't take me long to reject you, haha.😢
You are in my life when I fight to survive.
When I started to be fragile.
When despair began to approach me.
When I hate myself who is loved by everyone.
When I feel useless and can't do anything.
You are in my life,
when everything feels empty, empty.
My life is meaningless.
The pain in Idap made me unable to see anyone.
The taste bit, twisted, stabbed me viciously.
People see me broken.
Me, me,
a girl with no future.
Then you are present,
Present brings light and coolness.
I was scared, though,
fear that you are present carries a wound in my life.
How can you see me who almost lives in the shadows, blurred and shapeless again.
The pain keeps eating away at me. But you keep going, and,,
Stretched out my hands, clasped me and brought me dream painting.
You brought me with all my hopes and dreams.
Painting a smile on my face, then the laughter started to sound.
Sis, sis,
You express your feelings, you,
You said you wanted to, though,
building the ark of love with all hope.
Weave love and together step in search of His Ridho.
God gave me a chance,
fulfill our desire to have each other's sense of it.
You are now a lover, now,
Reminds me to always pray,
He kicked me with a love letter from God.
Ar Rahman is heard.
God loves me more,
born into my family today,
to bring people who have always loved me,
God loves me more,
By bringing you into my life,
move your heart to love me,,
You touched my yam with your palm, you,
To recite the love that made my heart tremble.
You're perfect, brother,
You're so perfect, and I'm happy,,
That day, you came in your white shirt,
your sleeves you roll up to your elbows,
Your hair and face are wet with ablution water,
Sis, sis,
You call my name binti my father's name,
'uhibbuki fillah' sentence that is always ringing even today.
Sentences that were instantly locked in this heart.
Everything is ready, already,
You and I are counting the days together.
The day the universe will rise,
The day that you and I will have the title husband and wife,
Crushed,
crumpled,
That's how I feel, that's how,
This pain is much more painful than the illness I have.
Sickness, it was the result of my waiting.
my heart stopped beating, immediately,
I want to roar, scream as loud as possible,
but noiseless.
I wanted to cry, but there were no tears.
All numb brother,
I'm silent about my pain.
My heart is broken, broken and not even formed.
You left me with wounds, leaving me with wounds,
go with my perfectly formed hopes and love.
You left with a hope that is now in vain.
Allahu akbar,
My crying just can't stop.
I have survived two years with longing.
I stood staring at the vast sea,
Barefooted on the wave broom,
I stared blankly, empty,
My tears greeted the beach and melted with the waves.
Arfan Hadi Al Ghifary,
the man who will be husband,
but it stops because God loves you more.
God take care of you there,
Guarding our love in His way,
Rabbi,,
The true owner of love,
Brother Arfan, I,
I still love you, though,
Loving you with a full miss.
Uhibbuka....
It's been a hard day without you,
even now Dad's gone, too,
You can see how fragile this girl is,
You can see how many lies I've created,
I'm not okay, though,
I'm longing for the very, very, very,,
I miss, though,
Allah Akbar.....
Oh, my God,,, that's, uh,,,,
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Some days I was quarantined for music rehearsals to prepare for the music festival.
Instructor, brother Aries is a talented and extraordinary man and many want 🙊.
The first day, where all my comrades from various regions gathered.
Kak Aries asked what musical instruments we can play in addition to the choice of musical instruments that we choose to play on the stage of art.
They all answered, one by one, and so did I. He also asked about the vocal abilities of all the participants.
Until the desire of the committee and crew involved. That there'll be one night of 'likes' parties'.
The committee raided each chieftain from each sub-district.
All the participants were enthusiastic about this crazy idea. I obviously objected, because something obviously upset me.
How could my duet opponent be an ice. Who would want a duet with a cold person. How could an ice man be on the art stage.
And I finally decided on the bodo with this crazy duet of ideas.
It would be better to focus on my appearance, especially music.
One night, I performed a violin fight with my piano partner on stage.
Bang Vhen is not here tonight because Aisyah's sister is sick.
Eva's out and tonight's not following me. 🙊😅
Not playing the theme that night ruined me again.
Once off the stage I immediately looked for a hiding place, away from the crowd.
I cried as I would, alone.
sitting under a tree across the parking lot.
The longing was spilled by crying, and I could not contain it.
I let go of all of it without my being able to hold it.
Until his steps stopped in front of me.
I saw his face staring at me.
He grabbed my yam, pulled into his chest.
I'm crying more and more.
He didn't say a word. Letting me cry until I wet the clothes he was wearing.
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