Miss To Move Diary
Ar Rahman 2's
"Ana uhibbuki fillah," Arfan looked at me with a smile. His shady gaze that made anyone would feel peaceful.
His face looked tired, and there was a black line around his eyes.
His hands occasionally pressed against the base of his nose, he looked so tangled.
"Oh, brother brought you a new pasmina, let me wear it."
Said Mr. Arfan by removing a pasmina from a paperbag that had previously been placed on my bedside nightstand.
He unfolded the veil and closed my head which still kissed the pillow.
With this condition, I could see her eyes up close, puffy and wet. And indeed around his eyes were dark and marsupial. Did he not sleep?
She sat back in her chair next to my bed. Grabbed him my hand attached to the infusion hose.
"Aren't you tired of staying here? You've missed a lot of music practice. When's the move?" Brother Arfan keeps babbling beside me.
I just stared at him without a sound. I don't have the slightest energy just to make a sound.
But my heart was troubled to see the man beside me. My heart was filled with a great desire for him.
My eyes were hot, flowing through the edge of the teardrop. I saw the look on her face change, her hands rubbing my flowing tears.
"Anyway you, brother won't leave you."
He went into the bathroom and came out with his sleeves folded up to his elbows.
Hair and face with white skin, which is wet with ablution water.
He sat down next to me again, chanting basmalah and the love letter of God that was often read to me.
Ar rahmaan,, the,,
'allamal quran,,
His voice was very melodious, making the peace of the heart of every one who heard.
I was still lying on my bed, the walls of the room were all white, and the smell of medicine gushed through my nose.
Room Asoka number 402, my mother and father entered the room while brother Arfan was still chanting verse by verse. Dad patted Arfan's lower back, giving the man strength.
Dad, a, a,,
I saw my father looking at me sadly, but still showing his smile. It's like saying 'Dad here son, don't be weak.'
I wanted to touch Arfan's hand, and also hug him. But again I don't have the slightest energy. Maybe it's a treatment factor and the doctor just did it to me.
Until my mother's hand grabbed my cheek, and she kissed my forehead, it felt warm.
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I opened my eyes, the dim lights of the room revealed a violet wall, and a painting of breadfruit leaves on one of the walls of the room.
Something flowed and felt warm in the corner of my eye, which flowed through the end of my eye.
I dragged my body to the corner end of my bed, hugged my knees and my sobs were still heard. I cried loosely, then became a heartbreaking groan. My tears flowed unnoticed.
My cry grew louder, I covered my mouth with the pillow I held tightly.
It hurts, my heart hurts so much, that longing makes me sick even more.
Although met with her through a dream, did not reduce my sense of longing for her.
I can't even hug you anymore, though,,
Eva hugged me, tried to calm me down, and that didn't change anything.
The voice of brother Arfan chanting Surah Ar rahman still ringing in my ear, still reverberating in my mind.
Eva went out and entered with a bang Vhen, then on the tail of Aisyah's sister. Brother pulled me into his arms. But I can't ease my crying.
Now Brother Aisyah hugged me, embraced me, brother came out somewhere. Brother Aisyah kept training me to take up the privilege.
On the other hand, Eva was sculpting, I'm sure she felt a great fear.
Bang Vhen sat beside me, giving a glass to Brother Aisyah.
Brother rubbed my back, recited a verse and some prayers to me including the prayer of the prophet David.
"Why deck?" Bang Vhen still continued to gently rub my back. His voice was trembling with worry.
Eva starts acting strange, showing the other side.
Bang Vhen immediately asked Brother Aisyah to take Eva out of the room, and told Eva to drink water prepared by bang Vhen on the outside table.
I started to calm down, my crying subsided.
I hugged bang Vhen, remembering the dream I just had.
I told him about a dream that had happened two years ago. When I came into contact with the deceased.
"I'm not strong bang, miss it's still there,,"
"I still love him.."
I kept crying, until the sound of dawn reverberated.
Just yesterday I went home to my mother's house, and I took the time to visit Arfan's grave and to my father's grave.
"Uhibbuka fillah, brother Arfan, and longing is indeed very heavy,,,,,"
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I put out a list of work schedules in the office until the work schedule is out. Good, there is no hard schedule for the next week.
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"Assalamu'alaikum,, "Whoa someone who is already standing at the door of my room that is not closed.
"Wa'alaikumsalam, come in brother." I answered by throwing a smile at him.
Brother Teguh directly sat in front of me in a sideways position.
"Dream, a lot of work?" Ask her.
"Eh, no brother, just check the schedule for the next few days."
"Hm, I want permission to go home early today, brother." Saying again.
"Why? You're not healthy?" Brother Teguh looks worried.
"Oh, ga, no. I'm going to pounce, there's a wedding buddy today." I said frankly.
"Oh, yes gapapa, anyways this afternoon the schedule is empty right."
"Hmm, Yevn," Teguh looked doubtful.
"Actually," Again the sentence stopped, this time not because he intentionally, but because my phone suddenly rang.
I looked directly at the phone screen, though,
'Pole Man's'
I cringed in wonder and immediately picked up the phone.
"Assalamu'alaikum,,,,"
"....."
"You're going home to mama's?" Ask her.
"Yes." Yeah." Answer's short.
"What time?" Ask her again.
I glanced at the clock on the table that showed at 10:10.
I looked towards Brother Teguh who immediately returned to look at me.
",,grandpa," Mr. Kavin called me, because I didn't answer his question.
"It's out of the office." My answer.
"....."
"....."
I said goodbye to Brother Teguh after asking permission to go home early.
Eva's gonna take me home to change clothes and pick up a vehicle. Eva can't come along because of a job she can't leave behind.
I saw a car parked in my yard. Ice man's car, but no one.
"Weh, the poles are kidnapped times." Said Eva who also noticed.
I just didn't look at her silly words.
Anyhow there are humans who want to kidnap ice blocks.
"Udah?" I looked at the origin of the voice. Different things the same Eva who jumped and massaged the chest because of shock.
"Well?" My toot.
"Step," he answered.
"I'm going alone."
Eva looked at me and Mr. Kavin took turns.
"Well, start,, Mr. Kavin, Yevn, hmm, hand over, I'm going to the office, my job is stacked, huaaağŸ˜," Eva looks frustrated, I'm confused how she can stack office duties.
"Bye, assalamu'alaikum." Said Eva again sweetly and stepped away just like that.
I see Mr. Kavin, I obviously wouldn't win if I insisted on going alone.
I undo the intention of changing into a uniform, and get straight into his car.
Along the way I kept on thinking in my heart, calming my heart and my mind that was messed up lately.
Plus lately I've been sleep deprived, and I've finally fallen asleep with dhikr.
'Let me sleep, sleep in peace,,'
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