Manira /Damar Scouts

Episode 43

Short episode version of the novel “Senandung HOMESU under the Broken Moon Wings”

Damar Jurors

By: Elmira Arasy Rahman

Episode 43

Gibran was confused as to what to answer.

“Am I a good person?”

Gibran is still confused as to what to say.

“I'm not beautiful, not a good person and not smart. But why do I always prettier and hurt so many people,” said Manira, sad.

Every day Manira feels guilty and feels like a cruel person. But he himself could do nothing. He really could not open his heart to other men. Even thinking about it, he couldn't. He always said

“Stop, stop setting me up with others,”

But my mom and dad always do it and make Manira feel difficult. Making Manira always commit the same sin and the same again is hurting and disappointing many people with his rejection. Manira's heart is always broken and getting broken every time she has to hurt someone else like this. Manira is too kind, her heart is too soft. It could not be the slightest bit that he hurt others, but circumstances forced him to always do just that. Manira tears more out not because he misses his lover but more because of regret and feel guilty about this kind of problem.

“What did he do that made you unable to forget him?”

“Only that?”

“I don't know, why do I love her so much?” Manira crying.

“Because you are stupid,”

“I just want to love him. It doesn't matter if he still loves me or not. I just wanted to wait for him, no matter if he would come back or not. I just want to remember him, no matter if he still remembers me or not. I just want to love her. Till death I will continue to love her and will never replace her with anyone,”

Gibran was stunned to hear the determination of Manira's heart. He saw his sincerity and loyalty. He could not believe that someone loved him so deeply that he sacrificed everything. Earlier, he saw the stains of Juragan Damar and Ratmi's love. Now little by little the stain is being blotted out by Manira who proves that genuine love is still there.

Gibran was saddened to see Manira continue to suffer in his waiting. He goes to the mirror, dissolves in the sincerity of Manira's feelings. But a moment later she wiped her tears and tried to come back strong. He realized that he should not get caught up in such feelings. A feeling that can kill anyone. He did not want to die in it and he did not want Manira to experience it either.

“I told you, love is unbelievable. He is a selfish person who is only selfish. Love always plays with human feelings but can never give a solution, ” Gibran replied once again showing his anger over those feelings.

Gibran's answer makes Manira even more convinced that Gibran also has a serious problem about love that makes him as devastated as he is now. Manira feels that Gibran is more desperate than her to make her have no purpose in life and no longer believe in love. Rather than worry about her, Manira worries more about Gibran. For some reason, he seemed to forget the problem and discuss the Gibran problem which he thought was more serious because it had made Gibran worse than him.

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