Love For The Actor

Do you want to kill yourself?

Farel accompanied me one day at home, those eyes never stopped looking at me watching me wherever I stepped making me so clumsy myself. I am his wife, but whenever he looks at me, I am always uncomfortable, I hope this heart can open and accept Farel as a husband, when night comes.

"Where are you going?" farel asked as I rushed.

"I want to sleep with my eyes"

Farel laughed, seeing me carry a pillow.

"I'm here to accompany Rin's sleep, why are you going to the room, eye?"

"He has no pity friends,” I said.

Farel stood up and closed the door

,"Sit down, stop being cold to me Rin, I'm so tired of seeing you always being cold and being so indifferent to me. Please set aside a little place in your heart for me. Alright I apologize for everything, my behavior from last time, until these few days”

"I'm fine"

"meaning?"

"Until now I can still survive”

"Then tomorrow?”

“Your sister told me, if you are getting married tomorrow, she asked me to leave your room, because it will be made a bridal room for you, I came out not just to avoid, but because told”

"I've already canceled it, then how about I get married tomorrow, do you agree?”

" I actually disagree, besides which woman wants to be in honey, what else is in a bunting like this. But I came back to the reality of life, I felt I had no right to forbid, because I did not like a man who broke a promise.

If you promise her to marry him do it and you also promise me to divorce me after giving birth, keep to it” too

" What should be long once the answer, can't you say’iya I want you …. Did you make an appointment with Virto?" We had another fight because he carried the name Virto.

"Why do you always carry her, I have not been with her since that day, how do I make promises with her, you yourself confiscate my cell phone and wallet, you treat me like a prisoner in your house.

I haven't told my kids for months"

"Virto has filed divorce papers, maybe in this month the decision of his trial is out, and they are no longer husband and wife later, he will be free, I fear he is insisting on divorce from Marisa because you”

'Why Mas Virto finally decided to divorce now, when he wanted to get a high promotion' I asked in my heart.

"I don't know about it.”I was acting normal in front of Farel.

"Yes, now you know, right, I'm sure he's waiting for you again, but I won't do that, I won't divorce you until whenever let's live like this until old”

"Do whatever you want me to do what I can do,” I said sit back.

"Stop overdramatizing Rin's situation, you who didn't open your heart, for the love I gave you, you just expect Virto's love, let alone the man soon to be a widower, I'm sure you're expecting it a lot ‘ right?”

"Love .. have you ever loved me? you never loved me Mr. Farel, I just wanted revenge"

"You're wrong Rin, misunderstandings always close your heart, the initial intention was to want revenge, but now no longer, you can't distinguish between love and revenge missions, I want you to give birth to my son, please understand,” Farel said in a clear voice.

Suddenly I rose in blood as he said that.

"You should be there when I need you, you should be there when I'm scared" I said, just this time, I cried with a raised voice in front of him.

Farel was silent when he saw me crying, because all this time, not once did I cry in front of him blatantly, but this time, everything was mixed together to make this heart feel burning.

"If you still hate me and want revenge, why don't you just kill me," I grabbed the scissors on the table.

Farel held my hand firmly and he threw the scissors.

"I'm sorry" she hugged me tightly. I can't stand the pressure of Marisa continuing to terrorize my life.

Farel led this body to lie down on the bed, his hands rubbing my head gently, instantly I felt my body lose strength during a fight with Farel. I fell asleep and when I woke up in the morning, Farel was no longer there.

‘Did she get married after we had a fight?’

Because Eyang said right today, the meeting of two large families both, to discuss about the continuation of Farel's relationship with his fiancee.

Maybe Farel and his father wanted to cancel the marriage, then what about the women, can they accept all Farel's decisions? The problem won't be that young, because there's a big family involved on both sides.

'Alright, marry instead of getting bigger, may you be happy' I said in my heart.

I came out of the room, the atmosphere of the mansion was very quiet, they must have gone to the big family meeting to both sides, I decided to take a walk around the mansion, for the first time, for the first time, I just found out Farel's house has a helicopter pad on the roof.

Standing on the rooftop floor enjoying such a beautiful and amazing view, I always felt calm while sitting at a height.

I sat on the sidelines, staring deep into the streets of Jakarta, wondering where my ex-husband's house, where my children are right now ..they must have missed me so much they must have been worried and disappointed in me, because I didn't send word to them, because it had been months while I was stuck in Farel's house confined and always lived in fear, can't do anything.

I feel so fed up with my life right now, I never imagined that I would lead such a miserable life like this.

But even though I was fed up with my life, there was no intention for me to commit suicide, I still wanted to see my children, when I woke up from a daydream, many people were screaming in the courtyard of Farel's house.

"What do you do, don't do it, pity the baby in your womb he doesn't know anything" Farel said, I didn't realize they were all home and gathered in the front yard shouting at me, telling me to come down.

"What's wrong with these people, who's suicidal" I said, mumbled in annoyance, calling me to jump off the top of the building, when I wanted to stand up they were screaming hysterically and making me confused.

But suddenly a man dragged from behind away from the edge."What the hell are you doing? why is your brain so damn bad!" farel was still wearing a suit.

"What's ..?” I said annoyed, leaving the compassionate Farel looking in shock.

"I canceled my marriage Rin.. I faced my ex-fiance's extended family to cancel our marriage, I just wanted you, Then why would you want to do that instead … when I choose you and believe in you" Farel said

"Who killed himself anyway, I just wanted to sit down …."

"What's? didn't you want to kill yourself?"

"Yes not .... for what? I don't want to be a kuntilanak kali,” I said annoyed.

One family considered suicide, because I was sitting on the roof building, but I had a habit of feeling comfortable and calm while sitting at height.

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