Love For The Actor

When the heart is hurt

PART 31'S

My heart is hurting

“Pak, I did what you asked and I have served the punishment you gave me, is it still lacking?” ask me in a weak voice, honestly my heart is very sad to talk about the baby I bear.

But I tried to be strong in front of Farel, even though this heart actually felt in the punctures of thousands of needles.

Farel was silent again, he sat staring blankly at the tree.

Not wanting to expect much from Farel, I chose to walk .

“Where are you going? beware these roads slippery”

“I will find a way to go home, if it works, even if the chances are small, because I do not know where the danger will come from,”I left Farel still sitting.

“Stay with me, I will protect you,”tujar Farel with pleading face.

“No, I will walk alone Pak”

“Don't be stubborn MOTHER RIRIN WULANDARI! This forest there are dangers everywhere!”

“Do you know my greatest danger? That's you!

A criminal who wants to destroy me.

You and your brother told him to.

So stop for the pretentious to care about me!

Do you know this wound on my arm, which did that thug, they beat me up your brother told them to.

Do you still deny not being involved …!?

just throw away your mask!” my cry furiously released the t-shirt he had tied under my stomach, throwing it at him.

I held my breath because this part of my stomach hurt so much, he saw it, but was afraid to come closer because he saw my anger.

“What should I say? so that you may believe.

I'm not involved Ririn, I'm not doing it,” Farel said in a desperate voice.

“You don't have to say anything, just shut up and leave me”

“It's still on the edge of Ririn forest, please don't be stubborn”

“Fuck you,” I said annoyed, then walked away from Farel

Walking slowly with one hand holding down the stomach which was very painful, Farel followed from behind.

“Do not like that pity him.” Farel held this hand again, then crouched down in front of me trying to tie the cloth back.

“Away from me!

I hate you!

I hate your sister!”

Ppb …!

I slapped him hard on the face, but, ignoring him, he continued to tie the cloth.

“This, use this if you are not satisfied,” said Farel gave a pen whose material is made of iron.

“Do not lure me, I can kill you later ..!”

“Do it.

Puncture here , if it makes you satisfied.”

Farel challenged me, he pointed my hand which was holding the pen towards the heart, my hand was shaking pressing down strongly, wanting it to feel like I was stabbing the heart to death.

But the shadow of my two sons made me stop him, I don't want to be a murderer.

“Do you want to make me a killer?”I threw the pen out of my hand.

“I want to prove to you that I'm not involved”

I ignored him and walked away from Farel who was still sitting, I bit my lower lip to endure the pain in this stomach, I brushed away the water from my eyes violently, I don't want to cry weakly in front of him.

I squeezed this part of my stomach, even though my heart was afraid that bad things would happen to her, but I had no other way, I was resigned if I had to lose it, I kept going.

‘Sorry son, if later I can't save you’ucap me in the heart.

But suddenly Farel was leaning on my body, lifting me up like a child, his face was angry.

“Release!

lower me!”

I said angry, he ignored it.

“Lepas ... release, don't be snobbed penduli” My hand hit and scratched his face, but he didn't pay attention to it I stopped because of fatigue and my stomach was getting sicker.

He let me down when he got to the side of the road, his body bathed in sweat, but not a single word of thanks came out of this mouth, I sat quietly on my back to Farel.

The road was very quiet, no one who passed by made me feel desperate, if I was asked to walk down the road again, I was sure I would not be strong anymore, I feel so thirsty.

My eyes glanced to the left right, until there was a small puddle beside the rice field, stretching out my hands to hold it.

But suddenly Farel slapped water in the palm of my hand

"Don't drink it, it's poisonous, it's freshly sprayed with pest poison, the water's bound to go"

"Hold on, soon there must be people passing by, wait here I will find clean water for you”

“No need, I'm not thirsty anymore,” I said refuse.

Farel sighed at my attitude, he ignored me and walked some distance, saw him go away wanting it to be like I drank the water beside the rice field earlier, my thirst made me want to die.

I was silent, trying to feel the sound of the little guy's heart in my stomach, I panicked, because suddenly his heartbeat stopped, my hands just kept on touching and rubbing this stomach.

“What happened, why not beat his heart again?” I panicked and my hands rubbed my stomach.

“It's okay, don't panic, he feels tired, hence the beat is weak, this drink.”

Farel suddenly came carrying water inside the taro leaves.

I don't care if it's water, or hippo urine, I'm so thirsty, I gulp it down, I forget to tell Farel, he just looks at me saying nothing.

After drinking, I sat down on a rock a little far from Farel. I know he's always watching me and always looking at me.

But I don't care about him, I only think about my fate and the fate of the baby I bear, I don't care about Farel's false concern.

Several times he tried to turn on his cellphone, just turned off again, from the morning his phone was dying from running out of power.

“Are you still strong to walk?” farel asked me.

“Do not mind me, if you want to go home first, I will wait here,” I said again refused.

Farel covered his face with both palms, his neck veins back against each other.

“I am tired, please do not make me more tired, people who are hungry and tired often have dark eyes,” said Farel in a soft voice but the meaning of the sentence is very deep, it sounds like a threat.

I chose silence, occasionally my hand stroked the stomach, finally it began to move. True said Farel, he was only tired because we walked far through the forest, even though half the journey Farel carried me.

“Hold, I'm sure you're a strong boy,”

my mumbling gently stroked her gently, she seemed to know what I was saying, she replied to me with a kick, though still slowly, but I could feel it.

The Farel T-shirt I was wearing could already be squeezed because it was soaked in sweat. Farel always glanced at what I was doing.

“Side, pity he was exposed to the sun directly,”ujar Farel pulled my hand behind him making his body block the reflection of the sun for me .

”Please don't protest, it's for her sake,’ she said as I turned down all her attention.

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