Just A Wedding

chapter 9

The atmosphere of this beautiful and beautiful cafe. Unable to offer warmth to me because of Ravi's mas story. Ravi is still trying to convince me by repeating the story. His family owed a debt of gratitude to the family of the woman named Hanin and is now his wife. Why did Ravi have to marry Hanin ? Hanin is pregnant with her lover but her lover dies before the wedding. Hanin's family who had to close the disgrace with the only way married to Ravi mas. The divorce agreement when Hanin's son was born. I just kept quiet trying to control my emotions, my crumbling feeling. I turned my gaze to look at the rose which strands by strands of petals were released due to the wind. Now just leave the flower stems. God is my picture now. I went through my blooming days with the man now in front of me. Until the flowers that should have been picked when her beauty is now over the bloom period, the fragrant period, the period of her seedling . Now I'm like that, a rose that only has a flower stem left. Who will take ? Who will pick when the blooms are up because of time, because of age ?

" That's enough, go home take good care of your wife ! " my door to Ravi

I tried to stare at Ravi with tears. Let him know I'm very disappointed. Let him know I'm hurt so much. Let him know I'm trying to stand on my own. Let him know I'm trying hard with everyone. Let him know I don't want to be with him anymore. I looked at him very deeply trying to penetrate the light brown Ravi mas netra so that it was clearly visible lines - the cornea of his eye. My face is clearly visible in the cornea of his eye. Netra Mas Ravi as if to convince me or just lie to me I can not conclude. Just a blank look of eyes as if tired with all.

" Rin, didn't you promise to understand my situation, no matter what ? I ask you to prove all that ! " mas Ravi's quiet voice trembled asking for what I had promised him.

" I will not promise that it is like this, "I answered tightly and kept staring at Netra mas Ravi.

So too did Ravi keep looking at me with a clear face, he said.

" No. I don't want us to separate. We keep going as usual. Hanin's problem, I take it as our test. We're not cheating on Rin, Hanin's the third one among us. If we are strong, we can still be together." Mas Ravi's slow but stressed voice still can't make me say yes to Mas Ravi's wishes. Because I don't trust him anymore. I will never believe again.

" Have you been satisfied talking ? If you are satisfied, please leave me. I want to be alone first" I asked expectantly to Ravi to understand me.

Mas Ravi just fell silent not moving a bit, even though I asked him to go home many times. As if - would consider my request to go home, just like the request of a child who has no benefit.

I changed my sitting position from sitting cross-legged, sitting down crouching hugging my own two feet. Drown my face between my legs. I cried so much - it didn't matter if people were looking at me. I want to scream to God. How did my seven years go to waste ? How did my seven-year-old just disappear ? If could. Please, give me back my wasted seven years. Seven years in vain, I waited for the man in front of me.

Mas Ravi shifted trying to align his seat with mine. I reflexively shifted away from her there was a feeling of reluctance to be around her. Men who easily create alibis for the sake of family, for the sake of return, to cover up family disgrace. Is there still a story like Siti Nurbaya ?

" Go...... go....... I do not want to be near you," without looking at Ravi, I signaled with my hand.

" No Rin, I stay here until you calm down. Finish your crying first, so you can let go of your anger, then we go home," Mas Ravi still tried to persuade me patiently.

" I want to be here. Sana's coming home to watch your wife" I rambled in my reply to Ravi.

Mas Ravi immediately exclaimed and raised his voice, "Don't bring others into our problems."

" Other people how ? She's your wife, not someone else," as if I don't want to lose, I raised my voice.

" Temporary wife.

I clap her hands with both hands

" It's still your wife, you already have a wedding book."

" Yes.but a year away from changing the divorce book," it seems like trying to be funny so I can smile.

" You guys have been married. Did you guys just go through the first night ? I don't know why that question came out.

The first night is not very identical with marriage. Stupidly I shouldn't have asked the answers I already knew.

Mas Ravi was surprised by my question without waiting for a second to answer what I asked.

" Rin, I'm just doing my duty. It's because Hanin asked for it, not me who started it,"

" Oh so your wife asked and Mas Ravi willingly did," the more I stirred with the wish of my knowledge.

" Rin, it's not necessary to discuss the problem I'm more dizzy," said Mas Ravi while leaning his head on the Gazebo. Mas Ravi seemed tired of this fight.

" I'm more dizzy, not Mas Ravi,"

Ravi's not mine anymore. I still hope Mas Ravi just married no more, even though I was very disappointed. I wish that Ravi's mas doesn't belong to Hanin completely, but everything I have to swallow. Mas Ravi is completely Hanin's, there's nothing left for me. I wish that Ravi would be holy to me and I would be foolish to wish that to the man beside me

" Rin, please understand me, I'm a normal man. Rin, please don't be in trouble. It's enough that I'm married to a woman I don't love and have a child that isn't mine, "he asked with my eyes looking at me.

" Tell it like that to your wife ! not me. Married a woman who does not love him, but can Ravi sleep with her ? Go home ! mas Ravi's wife waits for the third third night fourth !

my eyes blazed - the cobar stared at the netra of Mas Ravi.

Ravi looked at me.

" Rin, don't be jealous like that, I can't see you like this" exclaimed Mas Ravi with a glare and pity to see me.

" Yes I'm jealous..very......"

I moved from my seat. Grabbing the bag next to me and walking as if there was no Ravi mas sitting here. I just passed it. Walk quickly towards my motorbike which is parked neatly with other motorcycles. Mas Ravi followed me from behind with his steps trying to walk next to me. Ravi accidentally nudged my arm. I who was like a child when hostile to clean up immediately by shaking - shake my hand on my arm that was accidentally nudged mas Ravi.

" I don't want to come into contact with men who have betrayed." I cried because I was reluctant to come into contact with Mas Ravi.

" Rin, you........"

Mas Ravi pulled me holding both of my arms with both of his hands. Feeling we were noticed Ravi took off his grip.

" If there aren't many people I've kissed you" he chirped as he walked next to me.

" Just kiss your wife until she's satisfied ! "

I was satisfied that the word came out of my mouth. Not as a commandment but as a curse.

" Rin......." Mas Ravi sighed trying to hold back his anger at me.

" I'm still a girl even though I'm old. I'll find the virgin to start with too. Not with people's husbands," again I deliberately upset mas Ravi.

" Rin.... don't make me jealous," Mas Ravi's face as if to say he doesn't want to be blamed on this matter.

I don't care what Ravi says. As soon as I got on the bike I got on and turned on my motor matic

" Rin.... Are you sure to go home ? I know you must be sick," Mas Ravi tried to hold me by holding the wheel of my bike.

" Depart or I'll take the angkot home ! Will Ravi take this bike again ? Just take it ! " I roughly said to Ravi and got off the bike.

Mas Ravi grabbed my hand and said,

" No. That's not what I mean. Come on, if you want to go home, I'll control you from behind."

" It's up to you. I didn't ask for it," shrugged and left I just put my bike on.

Oh Allah. Somewhat long ago seen Ravi's car behind me tailing continues until I'm in front of the house. I didn't look at him when I entered my yard. I just parked in the yard and hope Mas Ravi will leave soon.

seriate...............