Just A Wedding

Special Episode 6

I sat down waiting for the food vendor to pack the racing carts that Mr. Satrio ordered over the phone. This racing lontong restaurant is a subscription of Pak Satrio starting when he was not married. So already know the taste and portion of Mr. Satrio. We promised to meet for lunch at Mr Satrio's office, because Mr Satrio couldn't go out for lunch.

In front of me sat a husband and wife who were fighting not loud but heard by me.

" I still love my ex-wife why don't you like it ? Have we divorced yet ? " Said the man to the woman in front of him who was holding back crying so as not to spill on his cheek.

" Not brother ! pity our son, I'm fine - did brother Rinto not give me money. I work, I can make my own money. I'm fine - if Kak Rinto rarely visits my house, as long as we don't get divorced,"

Initially I ignored their quarrel, I prefer to post for batik sales wrote on Instagram mine. But this feeling shook with the woman's sentence earlier. I looked up at the woman's face. Beautiful, young and wearing official clothes like a karyawati in a company.

I wanted to run and hug him. Saying and encouraging to him. Can ! you can survive ! Only you choose your survival ! Survive with your partner or survive alone with your child !

A few months ago my position was exactly like that of a woman. Being hurt, reviled, not even materially endowed. Fighting for ourselves and our children. A few months ago I was like that woman. If I were to describe it with words that are not worth hearing. " Mung dadi lumah - lumahane wae". I was only used as a bed warmer when our husband was angry with his loved ones. It takes only biological desire, without knowing and understanding our feelings,"

It is not that we are not loved by our spouses, or our husbands. Still we are loved only in different doses and at the wrong time. We become his partner when our partner still loves his most beautiful ex. Isn't the most painful thing after divorce is that we still love our partner even though we are divorced ?

But why do I stick with a husband who even looks one eye at me ? That only compares me to my previous partner. Because I believe in the power of prayer. I came to understand why my mother did not divorce my father even though from decades of marriage only at the beginning of marriage he was happy. Because my mother always told us. And maybe that's what's embedded in my heart and also my brother Ayunda. " Inbrayan weigh will be kaluan nambal." If I mean maybe like this. In the household than we look for a new one we better fix first with our current partner."

If you ask me what I'm staying for, maybe that's the answer. I believe that one day the heart of man will change because God is turning the heart upside down. I am sure that one day as hard as any heart that hates will surely melt and love, because our manufacturing process is also because of mutual love and a form of outpouring of affection.

No ! The words don't stop there. " Menawi kumpatmu nyanggupi gudone ing household. Naliko Ora can afford to delehen wae." If I mean. If your place (your heart) is able to live the temptations of the household live ! If you can't put it, leave it !

" Mergo kuwi your ordeal, wes part teapot uripmu," (Therefore your ordeal has become part of your life story ).

Kabeh menungso wes duwe lakon Dewe - Dewe. Kito mung sak Dermo. (Every human being has his own story - alone, we just live life).

If I don't stick around and choose someone else as my partner. The test will remain the same property (economy ) third person, the family of our spouse or from our own family, only the packaging is different.

Why do I survive, because I believe I can change Mr. Satrio's heart to survive with me in building a household. Because I believe love comes because we're used to having our partner.

I also don't know how much my husband Mr. Satrio loves me. When I asked Mr. Satrio, he always returned me with the same question.

" Did you love me ? Do you still remember Asri ? "

" Do you love me too ? Can you forget Henry ? "

Even if we are both honest, there is still a feeling of love for each other's ex-partners. But all that is defeated with the same desire, building a family together, raising children and the desire to be happy even though not with the people we love.

I'm sure a bond involving feelings will definitely improve. Because I believe pity is more than love. If we feel sorry for our partner. We will not turn away, we will not be able to hurt our partner. Right now my relationship with Mr. Satrio begins with pity. He pityes me who has suffered a lot because of his attitude and behavior to me. I pity Mr. Satrio for his deep heartache with his past. I feel sorry for Mr. Satrio because he is a hard worker who does not have time to relax even to make him happy.

I'm sure there are still many Arin-Arin out there who suffer even more than I do. Who only survive in the household for the sake of their children. Those who are willing to sacrifice their happiness just want to see their children grow up well with the care of their biological parents. Who survived with the household because it became the foundation of his family economically.

I am sure that everyone is born with a good heart, and the soul loves him very highly. If I can honestly write Mr. Satrio's attitude to me. I admit Mr. Satrio's labile attitude that sometimes makes me not strong with all. I believe our every attitude and action is affected by exogenous and endogenous pressures. Likewise, Mr. Satrio, if the exogenous pressure is very strong, Mr. Satrio was rude to me. He himself had to fight for it, to survive the pressure - the pressure from outside himself. Pressure Mbak Asri who wants to have Pak Satrio completely. Survived the pressure of her mother wanting to remarry and build a new household. Between surviving with a partner and a child's devotion to his mother. So the rush to get married again without realizing his actions can break someone's heart, can make someone not believe in the institution of marriage. But if his actions are driven by himself, he acts as if I am everything to Mr. Satrio.

Yuk......Arin - Arin's spirit is like mine. I'm sure you're a great, strong woman. God chose you to live this life in a winding way so that we are closer to Him. Because God believes we are strong and can live this ordeal.

May the story of Arin be the same spirit and feeling of fate. That you're not the only one living a life like this. There are many Arin who keep their story neatly closed, can only hum in prayer and cry noiseless at night.

Readers who have finished writing this novel. Thank you for your support, likes and comments.

The author has prepared a new novel, but is still studying the character and the problem.

Ian Veneration as Satrio Adi Panengah

Pan zi Jian as Henry Winata

For Visual Arin, Author is still missing. Arin faces are generally Indonesian women, sweet and slightly brownish skinned.

Greetings to dear readers.

Finished........