Just A Wedding

chapter 33

More than a month after my return from Mr. Satrio's house. This time I visited her house again. That's because I was picked up by Mr. Sumadi. By phone, Mr. Satrio asked me to come to his house because there was an event. He wants to eat with me. I asked him for a weekend at his house. I fulfilled his request for permission on Friday and Saturday. At work, I entered five working days. Each employee is given one day off with a schedule that has been arranged. It just so happens that this week is my day off on Sunday.

After my return. We rarely communicate as necessary. Unlike newlyweds in general who may be every day maybe even every hour to give word. Not so with me and Mr. Satrio. Mr. Satrio asked me occasionally. There are no stale bases in his wa message. There is no specific call for me. It is natural to say - he said

" have you reached home ?"

" I have a show"

Very flat, isn't it ? that is the answer I gave him.

" Yes "

" Heart - heart"

I also have no desire to start sending messages to him. Somehow there was a reluctance in my heart to bring myself closer to him, even though we were married. Maybe because I already know the answer. I'm not what he wants. I am not a woman in his heart and mind. And I, have no desire to fight for myself to be the one Mr. Satrio loves. Maybe because I've been trained not to wish on anyone. I was hoping but neglected. I had a dream but never realized. Now I want to live an ordinary life by living what is there. I have no plans to file for divorce with Mr. Satrio. Yep.......Back to myself. I am embarrassed if I get divorced. What do Ravi and Henry say ? They have banned me and asked me to cancel this marriage.What do my father and brothers say ? What my neighbors and friends say. I left myself for a moment in the mud, as long as I didn't drown. Mingkin is also because of Mr. Satrio's sentence. We just got married, and he promised to let me go, if I'd met someone who might love me someday. I trust Mr. Satrio with his promise because I know. In Mr. Satrio's heart I never existed. In Mr. Satrio's heart was filled with a name, and it wasn't me.

Don't forget I'm wearing the jewelry he gave me. Everything I wear from necklaces, bracelets, rings and earrings. As a sign of gratitude to him. I want to make him happy too. I just found out from Mr. Sumadi, today is Mr. Satrio's birthday. The jewelry given by Mr. Satrio may not be expensive just gold jewelry in general. But the shape that looks beautiful makes me feel happy. My hair is as long as the waist I tie normally and maybe to make it easier for him if I wear the earrings too.

Honest in my heart there is actually a feeling of was. Afraid that Asri will also come. But I'm tinged with my doubt. There is no way Asri will come. Isn't there a father and mother of Mr Satrio who really hate mbak Asri ?

In the afternoon when I got to his house. The warm welcome from my in-laws looks real. They hugged and kissed my cheeks. I also hugged my mother-in-law and kissed the back of her hand.

This dinner is held at home. Nothing special. Why was I asked to come ? From my conversation with Mr. Satrio before dinner. His father and mother always asked why I never came ? He wanted me to be present on his son's birthday.

" kids..... Arin. quit your job"

" It is not good that husband and wife live separately"

Miss Elly asked in the middle of this dinner

" Arin still has a mother's contract waiting for the contract to expire"

" Lo work at the store warehouse there is also a contract. I guess it's just in factories or in private offices"

" I..iya mom is there," I answered nervously for fear of being discovered that I lied.

It's not that I don't want to live with Mr. Satrio. It was Mr. Satrio's attitude that made me make this decision. But that's all I'm answering in my heart. Without being able to throw it out on Miss Elly my mother-in-law.

" Son's son Arin.This is Satrio's cure from his wound"

" The medicine must be close"

" Don't be like Asri how many times you've cheated"

I just listened to my mother-in-law. The atmosphere of this very stiff dinner was clearly visible. Adry who usually rame with his babble. Tonight just shut up like it wasn't the Adry I knew.

" Oma. Don't spoil the dinner"

I was shocked and looked at Adrian. The quiet Adrian this time spoke.

" Yes the life that hurt my boys" fiercely infuriated Ms. Elly. It was seen that he harbored excessive grudges and anger - excess

" Oma. His voice began to rise

" Didn't you see your papa who got sick because of your mama"

" Ibu..........."

" Ommaaaa....."

Mr. Satrio, Adrian and Mr. Hardian almost simultaneously.

" Oma"

" I and Adry would not exist, if papa and mama were not married," The voice was firm but still calm again hurled Adrian to Omanya.

" Your father if you obey Oma. Not going to marry a woman has no shame" said Bu Elly after hearing Adrian's answer.

" Mom don't reveal my past. There's Dik Arin"

Mr. Satrio who was sitting next to me turned his head and held my hand. I smiled at him signaling that I was okay not to be distracted by their intense conversation.

" Oma. Don't talk like that. We are children - mama's children are also sad to see mama ninggalin papa"

Adrian's stifled and trembling voice was very clearly heard. In my heart, I was so impressed with Adrian. However bad, the actions of Asri his biological mother. He still defended firmly and did not care who his interlocutor was. But his attitude that shows concern for mbak Asri his biological mother. Makes me aware. Cold attitude and assume as if I did not exist. Is it because he does not want his mother's position replaced by me ? But why is it that when there's no one he's also so good to me ? What does that mean ? Is he actually laughing and happy to see me crying and suffering because Mr Satrio's real attitude doesn't care about me ? He also knew very well I called Henry back then. But not to tell Mr. Satrio. Aaaaaahhhh..........I got confused myself with Adrian's attitude and intentions which I couldn't guess.

I used to be at Satrio's house for almost a week. Adry is the loudest voice. But this time Adrian was the hard one. His tone was very firm. His strong and cold face line showed his dislike with the words of his grandmother. His thick and black eyebrows furrowed and became one. We all fell silent. Although Adrian is still young, his leadership aura is very strong. His firm and cold attitude also made his grandmother speechless without saying anything else.

This clumsy atmosphere continued until the parents of Mr. Satrio came home. We drove the two of them to a car parked in the yard.

" Oma,"

Adrian's soft and low voice is very soft. Then Adrian hugged and kissed Bu Elly's forehead many times.

" Oma also apologizes dear"

" I'm sorry Oma hasn't forgiven my mother for hurting Oma's son"

" Yes Oma, Adrian understood"

seriate...........