Just A Wedding

Chapter 70

I stood up from this sofa walking towards the window in this room. This window is very long and wide. It consists of two lined sections, separated only by wooden window frames. I opened the wooden window and it didn't seem like the rain had stopped.

" Don't open the window and it's getting colder" Henry told me.

" I want to see the rain here" I replied as I sat in this large window. Look at everything from here. Looks darkly flickering lights from afar, in the residential area down there.

" The rain is getting heavier, with the car will be very difficult because of the winding road" said Henry. Both of Henry's hands put a triangular knitting scarf on my shoulder. And I accepted it the more I glued it to my body. Wearing this triangular scarf brings a bit of warmth to my body.

" Mr Arin, it must be cold. Come sit on the chair." Henry closed the window I opened and followed me from behind, stepping towards the sofa. Henry played his favorite songs on the piano. I just sit on this sofa hoping - please be anxious with the heavy rain that never subsides. I was really sleepy in this mood. Heavy rain, beautiful piano sound as a bedtime.

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," Ma'am Arin ! " Henry's soft voice and finger touch woke me up.

I wriggled to feel the joy of my slumbering, until - until I was not delirious or awake at all. Thavisa also did not whine about asking ASI, so also Tangguh must have slept because of the rain last night. I slept really well tonight.

I stopped squirming my body, because I felt this was not my room. This is not my room ! I turned my head, Henry...yeah, didn't the one who woke me up just now was Henry..... ? I'm still here at Villa Henry all night ! Leaving my children. I was in a hurry to get up to sit my own body from a lying position.

" Henry........,"

," Pray first. I'm going to take Brother Arin and explain everything to Madam Arin's family" Henry said, helping me get out of bed.

May I be honest, this time prayer is not solemn because my mind continues to be fixed on my children and worse, it turns out I stay here. I pray..... ? Yes my puerperium has run out since a week ago.

" Break breakfast first ! And drink the fruit juice I made ! " suggestion Henry.

" Henry. I want to go home,"

" At least drink the juice !"

I obeyed Henry's orders to drink mango mix fruit juice and dragon fruit made by Henry.

" Change clothes first. I can't see people who keep wearing the same clothes on different days. It gives off a scent that I don't like" Henry told me.

" I don't bring clothes" I replied half-jokingly at Henry.

," Alright, I don't have a girl outfit the size of Mbak Arin either. But Javier's wife's shirt might be enough with Mbak Arin,"

," Henry.I'm in a hurry,"

," I'll drop off and I'll explain everything. Mbak Arin's motorbike has been delivered with Mr. Sobri and Pak Ali." Mr. Sobri and Mr. Ali were officers who guarded Henry's villa and garden.

" When ? "

" Before I woke Ms. Arin," Henry replied with a smile. " Because I knew Ms. Arin wouldn't want me to drop off, I'm sorry if I was a little disrespectful,"

We were in Henry's car. The road was crowded with plantation workers and farmers who passed by.

" Didn't Madam Arin trust me ?" Henry asked me back.

" i...... Henry......,"

" Is that why Ms Arin left me ? Because Sister Arin never believed me ? Henry's eyes narrowed and frowned. It was as if a pile of wounds was there in his heart and it was very clear from the look of his fading eyes.

" Mr Arin never believed me ? "

," Henry is another. We are not meant to be fools. "

" It was not me who carried Mbak Arin to the room, Bu Siti and Bu Sri who moved Mbak Arin. I really didn't do anything to Ms Arin. I slept on the couch all night" Henry told me.

" Aahhhh said not a soul mate anymore. It hurt so bad I heard the word "not a match" ." Henry's hand hit the steering wheel.

" If not a match. Why am I not empowered to forget my feelings for Ms Arin ? "

" Henry..maybe it's a test" I said. If only I could say. I love Henry too. But let it all pass, I don't want to give any hope to Henry. I want to see Henry happy with another woman.

," If Ms. Arin had known, how would I have tried to forget Ms. Arin. Until I can be in a relationship with two women at the same time. All that to forget about Madam Arin. But still can't forget Ma'am Arin."

" I braided more than five times in almost three years. How petty I am.........,"

," Of all those women, I just hugged and touched my lips, because I couldn't do more than that. My desire was gone when Madam Arin's face appeared, and what I hugged was not Mbak Arin." Henry's voice stammered with eyes increasingly filled with tears. Henry turned to me for a moment then returned to the front focusing on the path we were going through.

" That's how crazy I love you, Ma'am. I don't know how to get rid of my candour on Ma'am Arin,"

," Henry.please I can't be with you anymore" I said looking at Henry from the side. Henry's cheeks were already drained by his tears. I pulled my body together so I could see and look at Henry. How this handsome young man before me was struck down by a deep sense of love and that made his heart wound. All because of me. Because of the magnitude of his love and guilt for me.

" I can't keep changing partners. How many hearts will be hurt because of me ? How much more sinful am I ? So I decided that I should be alone now and pray if there is a miracle. I wish that one miracle had happened to us. So we can be together."

" I really wish there was a miracle for us. But, I ask Ms. Arin to pray the same as me. To make our purpose happen." Henry lowered his left hand which was holding the steering wheel. Wanted to reach my hand, but he stopped and went back to the wheel again.

" I want to hold your hand Ma'am. But there's no way, if I do it for sure I'll do more than hold Arin's hands."

Henry's tears were falling. L'm......I'm the same. My tears raced down from the surface of my eyeball.

" I really want to hug you, Ma'am. O God give me strength and faith" cried Henry hard and slashed. I'm sobbing with all of Henry's pronunciation. How it hurts my heart to see Henry with his wounds. The wounds I caused.

" Henry.sorry. I made you like this. I'm sorry, I'm so guilty of you,"

" I love you so much, Ma'am. Why doesn't Arin trust me. Had Arin's early days had a high level of trust in me, we wouldn't have been as separated as we are now,"

," sorry........Henrys.......I'm sorry,"

Seriate.......