Blue Berets

95. Sorry from Mama

Kirana eventually tries to get close to Mama Hasna again. If it wasn't for the nightmares that haunted her and Galih every night, Kirana wouldn't have forced Mama Hasna to accept them either. Kirana understands how sick a mother is left by her son. Raihan Dhananjaya is his only child.

Bang Raihan once told Kirana, if Mama had complications until forced to do the removal of the uterus shortly after giving birth to Raihan bang. That's why no matter how much Mama Hasna wants to have another child, it will not be possible.

Kirana tonight came with Galih and Amira. Mama is still in the hospital and her condition continues to weaken after a doctor's diagnosis states a blockage of blood vessels in the brain. Not only was Mama in shock, obviously everyone was in shock. How Mama felt the same way as Bang Raihan used to feel.

“You sure you want to go inside Ki?” ask Papa who is in front of Mama's room to meet Kirana who came with Amira and Galih.

“Such a Pa, Kirana wants to be with Mama,” says Kirana.

“Your condition is no longer good, dear. Last afternoon the doctor took action and Mama is still unconscious now. If you want to meet Mama can, but good Amira let Papa ya. Because Papa is sure you don't want to cry in front of your daughter,” Papa said.

“Let Amira be with me only,” says Galih.

Papa shook his head, “No boy, you accompany Kirana.”

“Mama..., Amira wants to be with Mama,” said the little one.

“Kak, same Akung for a moment. Mama wants to see Uti. Uti is sick and Ami is still small and easily sick so Ami just wait outside. Ami knows the pain is not good, right?” Kirana tried to give her daughter some understanding.

“Mi, briefly the same Akung yes. Papa Sama will not take long,” said Galih.

Papa asked Amira to go out. With the lure of buying ice cream at the minimarket near the entrance, Papa managed to take Amira away from his wife's room.

Kirana started to step inside along with Galih who preferred to quietly stand by the door. She doesn't want to get close and interrupt Kirana's moment with her former mother-in-law. He just stood inside as he made sure Kirana would be okay. Galih was afraid that Kirana who was not physically so healthy suddenly fainted or suffocated from crying.

Galih looked straight at Kirana who was sitting beside Mama slowly. Her stomach had started to grow and block her movement, plus the scar of a caesarean section when she gave birth to Amira must have felt uncomfortable. Galih only frowned as Kirana attempted to sit on the small chair provided.

“Mama..., this is Kirana Ma,” said.

This is certainly not Galih who can afford it. He suddenly remembered his mother. He had seen one similar sight when his mother lay sick on the bed with an oxygen hose in her nose and an infusion through the back of her hand.

Galih had also done the same thing as Kirana did today. Grasping Mama's hand, then putting it on her cheek. Feeling the warmth of a mother's hand even though it is no longer as warm as before.

“Galih..”.

The rubble is getting hallucinating. He decided to sit down and try to concentrate. Eliminate all his thoughts. His right hand grabbed the tabloid that was somehow lying just like that on a small glass table in front of him. He opened it up and read anything hoping that the voice would no longer be heard.

“Mama? Mama is not papa, right?” tanya Kirana made Galih aware of her daydream.

“Aa, help me call the doctor,” he said.

Galih immediately stepped out to call the doctor leaving Kirana who was still trying to catch whether Mama was really awake or in pain. Mama stuttered like she wanted to say something but was unable to, her hand also tightly grasped Kirana's hand and her eyes seemed to describe something that Kirana herself was eager to know what it meant.

“Mother's condition improves, so for a while there's nothing to worry about. We will observe the development of the Mother for a few more days and if her condition continues to improve Mother can return home,” explained the doctor.

“Alhamdulillah, thank God Mama is fine,” Kirana said.

Galih continues to be with Kirana, the difference is that she is currently outside the room and sends Kirana to Papa. Instead of holding Amira who was getting tired, he occasionally got up and took small walks so that Amira still felt comfortable despite falling asleep in a sling.

“Kirana..,” call Mama.

“Ya Ma?”

“Kirana...”.

“Iya Mama, this is Kirana,” Kirana said.

Collapsed is Kirana's defensive wall. He began to shed tears and lay his head on the shoulder of Mama who was in a half-sitting position. Kirana cried as well as Mama who ventured to stroke Kirana's hand that continued to hold her.

“Kirana, sorry Mama nak,” says Mama.

“Ngak Ma, don't apologize dong.”

“Mama wrong, reasonable Mama apologized. Mama is afraid Raihan will punish Mama if Mama does not get your forgiveness,” Mama said again.

“Mama said what the hell, Mama will not follow Abang Ma, Mama will be healthy really,” said Kirana.

“Stay sooner or later Mama will catch up with Raihan. The proud child of Mama is waiting for Mama,” said Mama.

“Mama don't tell me Kirana's scared.”

“Honey, where's your daughter and Raihan? Mama wants to see you,” ask Mama.

“There is a husband Kirana with. I'll call,” said Papa then walked out to take Amira and Galih in.

Get in the room. He still faithfully carried Amira who had fallen asleep. Mama slowly shifted her position so that there is enough space for Amira, “put her here son,” said Mama.

Slowly Galih put Amira to sleep. Whether consciously or not the child immediately hugged Mama Hasna. Like Amira's habit of sleeping, she also did it when the last time she met this Utinya she was frightened. He always said that uti Hasna was not his messenger.

“Unfortunately Uti, you are so beautiful,” said Mama Hasna.

“She looks a lot like her Papa Ma,” Kirana said, looking at Amira who finally slept so soundly.

“Nak, what's your name?” ask Mama this time to Galih.

“Galih Aunty, Galih Arsa,” replied Galih who honestly felt a great awkwardness now.

“Do not call aunty, just call Mama.”

“Iya.., Ma...,” Galih replied.

“Titip Kirana and Amira yes. Titip my grandson. Love her, Mama hope you will accept Amira even if soon you will have your own biological child.”

“Mama sure, I will take care of Amira like I keep my own flesh and blood,” said Galih.

“Thank you, Mama owes you,” Mama said again.

Kirana didn't want to be invited back home last night. She kept insisting on accompanying Mama in the hospital. She was terrified by what Mom said last night. As a result, Galih accompanied Kirana there while Amira invited Papa Adnan to return home.

“Kirana..,” says Galih.

“Hmm?”

“Sholat first yuk, already adzan,” invite Galih to hear the dawn adhan.

“Aa just go first, pity Mama if no one accompanies.”

“You must be waiting for the doctor to come and tell you right? Kirana, you heard the doctor say last night. Mama is fine, so you don't have to worry too much. Pity your body,” said Galih.

“No papa a, I'm fine really,” Kirana again refused.