Blue Berets

51. Amira Dhananjaya Yumna

Kirana these few days was just daydreaming and kept closing the notes written by her husband. He finished reading some of the pieces. There it is written how Raihan first had a taste for her, also how Raihan can only hope in his destiny because he knows the fact that Kirana already belongs to someone else. Kirana only knows now if she is the figure of Raihan's first love. He also just knew now how Raihan always held the wound in his heart just to give happiness to Kirana.

“I told you not to make you feel guilty. I just want you to know that your happiness means more than my own life. Kirana, you once said that love can make someone stupid. It seems to be true. I was a fool for loving you. But, I am grateful that you gave this nobody a chance to have you.”

Kirana read the book piece by piece while holding back her tears she kept trying to finish the book. A book Raihan writes every day next to Kirana who is asleep in the ICU room.

"Ma, I actually bought a house for us to live in together. Little orange house. It's opposite your brother's house. I intentionally, because I know you won't be able to stay away from Adnan. After all, his wife is your best friend. At least you'll never feel alone and when I'm gone there will be someone to help you look after Amira."

"Kirana, I don't have much time so while I have time to tell you. Forget me Kirana. I will forget you after my death. I'm willing to marry again someday. My advice is to find someone different from me. Look for a man who won't do anything stupid like abandoning you. I know you will definitely be hurt, but for the sake of our daughter you should be able to get up. You should be able to look into your future. Just leave me. Because I'd be sadder to see you mourn my death than to see you remarry."

"I'll just send a message to the man who will marry you one day. Please take good care of this great woman. Whoever you are please accept Amira and love her like you love your own daughter. I won't demand much, as long as I know you love and love my two fairies I'll be fine. Hello yes, I am Raihan Dhananjaya. The son of a bitch who broke his promise to his wife. Don't be like me or I'll curse you in hell."

“Kirana, you have not forced to read everything at once,” said Lucy who approached Kirana while holding Amira.

“Cy, I want to carry Amira,” Kirana said.

“You strong?”

“Strength. I want to be strong. Bang Raihan also asked me to be strong for Amira. Lucy, I want to look at her face,” Kirana said.

Lucy slowly puts Amira in Kirana's lap. Both of his hands still helped Kirana support Amira's body which began to fat. Kirana was not strong enough to lift her and Amira fell down. When Kirana looked at the two beads of Amira's eyes, she cried. Lucy sees for herself Kirana's cries getting louder as Amira's tiny fingers grip Kirana's index finger.

“Sorot his eyes, Amira you know you look a lot like your Papa son,” Kirana said in between her tears.

“Not only his eyes, but also his smile. Only by one look can you tell if Amira is Raihan Dhananjaya's daughter. Your two in-laws handed Amira over to us for not being able to remember Bang Raihan's face in Amira. Bang Raihan even anticipates if you are unable to look at Amira because it is too similar to Bang Raihan has asked Bang Adnan to consider Amira as his daughter,” Lucy said.

“But Amira is my own flesh and blood Cy. Although I did not feel the pain of the struggle to give birth but I was still her biological mother. Don't take my daughter away,” Kirana said.

“I won't take her away Kirana and who says you're not fighting? The incision in your stomach hasn't even dried. When you move it still hurts, right? Either normal or caesar you keep fighting. Amira is yours, I'll just help take care of her. She's still your daughter. Kirana, I lost my son but I won't take him who is not my right. You don't have to worry,” said Lucy.

“Cy, I want to try hard. But I'm not sure I can live it alone. Don't stay with me Cy. I don't have anything now, me..”.

“I won't leave you no matter the reason Kirana. I know you're sick of this kind of promise but as long as I can breathe I won't leave you alone. Even if Bang Adnan forbids me it will still be with you,” Lucy said.

“I won't ban you two. Kirana is my sister Cy. If you refuse to get close to your own brother-in-law instead I will scold you later,” said Adnan who stood leaning against the door.

“Udahan read the book tomorrow again. Now you come with me yuk. Check up schedule Deck. Amira has to be immunized, right? We leave now, because after lunch I have to go back to the office,” said Adnan embraced by Kirana and Lucy.

They take Kirana to see her doctor first. Kirana was on X-ray today to see the wounds on her legs and head. Luckily Kirana did not have amnesia, only one ear had decreased function. He may also have problems with his body balance.

The doctor tries Kirana to walk with the help of a cane, but due to Kirana falling several times they finally give up. Adnan did not want to force his sister to undergo therapy that was too harsh. He is only committed even though long and the process is long, he will help his sister can run smoothly again.

“Bang, I want to consult with Amira's doctor first. Brother wait outside aja yes,” said Kirana with a somewhat timid face.

“Kirana come in with me. You wait outside,” said Lucy who seemed to understand what Kirana wanted.

After Amira was immunized and calmed down again, the two left the little one to Adnan who was waiting while sitting holding Amira in the waiting room. Kirana and Lucy return to the examination room because there are some things Kirana wants to ask not only related to Amira's health condition but also with her condition. After consulting, Kirana and Lucy also together buy some items at a babyshop.

“Eh we forgot to buy the milk Amira,” said Adnan so out of the babyshop.

“No papa, I will buy it in the mini market,” said Lucy.

“Kok in minimarket anyway, there is nothing big. It's a small one, it's not until a week is up. I want to work out you know, we just go back I buy it big cans all of you,” said Adnan.

“Ndon't need. From now on Amira will not be given formula milk again,” Lucy said to her husband.

“You mean?”

“Manya Amira is already healthy, why we buy formula milk if God already love the best milk in the world only for Amira,” said Lucy made Kirana who holds Amira in the back seat smile.

Adnan had seen his sister's reflection from the glass. He saw Kirana smiling as she held Amira who was awakened. There were no signs of rejection from Kirana, she even looked so in love with her daughter and Adnan could see it clearly from the smile that emanated on Kirana's sweet face.

“Bang, you don't have to worry. Bang Raihan's death won't bring me down. There is still Amira who strengthens me, besides through Amira I can still see Bang Raihan's face so clearly. I'll take care of Amira as best I can. With Amira alone I had enough. But Abang helpin yes, if I am one day tired again I send Amira to Abang,” said Kirana.

“When you need. Lucy and I will always be here. Just because help you take care of Amira I am the same Lucy when you have children too,” said Adnan.

“Aamiin Bang. Hopefully Brother and Lucy will have one soon too. Let brother Amira can have a playmate,” Kirana said as she patted the cool back of Amira looking at her Mom who had been smiling ever since.