Blue Berets

73. Explanation

After Galih got the story from Keenan, now it was Kirana's turn that he asked. He asks Kirana to wait for a moment because Galih intends to pick her up and invite her to chat. He just wanted to know if Kirana also still had the same feelings as Keenan or not. If so, Galih will try to sincerely release Kirana even though he himself can not accept it.

Galih did not come down because Kirana was currently standing in front of her cafe. Kirana was just about to say, she was just about to apologize but Galih had already asked her to shut up. Galih accidentally got into the ringroad and drove his car at a fairly high speed. He felt jealous, ears still hot after getting a statement from Keenan earlier.

“I'm not bothered by the fact that you and Keenan were once lovers. I just want to hear your honesty, do you still expect him to come back to you?” ask Galih.

Kirana was silent as well as Galih. Kirana was more than aware that the current Galih kept circling. If to go to his house he only needs to turn to the left, Galih deliberately turned to the right and made the route they went so much further.

“Your time is only as far as I go to your house Kirana, please answer my question. I'll take it whatever it is,” Galih said again.

“I've ever expected it a. But no longer after I married my husband, with Bang Raihan,” Kirana said.

“What makes you sure not to expect it again Ki? You love each other, right? Did he make a mistake that you ultimately decided to split up or..,”.

“He did nothing wrong. He only sacrificed,” Kirana said cutting off Galih's words.

“You mean?”

“If you still want to hear my story better aa stop the car first. The danger if aa keep driving because I believe aa will be surprised if you know the story,” said Kirana. Galih just said it. He was already consumed with curiosity and if he did not complete all his stories right now, he would not be able to do anything tomorrow.

“Tell me, slowly. Aa will not interrupt, will not answer, and will not be angry. Aa just wanted to hear, so that aa know if aa can still continue aa good intention to ask you or let you go back to your old lover,” said Galih.

“Keenan and I dated when we were in High School and continued while we were both students. Yes, yes, Keenan and I loved each other. We were already engaged when it was even a discussion about the date of the wedding was finalized,” heard the statement made Galih almost throw himself into the middle of the streets are quite crowded, but he had already promised that he would listen to Kirana's story from beginning to end.

“Unfortunately, there was one condition that made him choose to leave me. It's about my disgrace, my family's disgrace. Besides Papa, Mama, Brother, Lucy, my best friends Ningrum and Keenan, no one knows about this,” Kirana had stopped talking to prepare her heart to convey her dark past to the man she had received as her future husband.

“Do not tell me if it does not need to be told. It's your disgrace, your husband doesn't even need to know,” Galih said in a quiet voice. She just couldn't bear it if Kirana had to open her dark side just to convince herself.

“No, aa should know. I was raped once. Because of the rape, my body was damaged, and I had a considerable amount of mental trauma. A lot of things that scared me, especially because of Keenan's absence when I needed so much,” said Kirana now began to shed tears. Fortunately in Galih's car there is a small tissue box but at least he can give it to Kirana.

“He left me, I once forced Brother to tell me everything, and Brother said Keenan left because he felt unable to protect me. He said he let me go just so I could get the best. I tried my hardest to restore my confidence, I was crushed and barely held on. If it wasn't for Bang Raihan coming and hugging me, holding my hand and promising to be with me until my last breath I wouldn't have been able to last until this second,” Kirana said.

“Therefore you also love your husband so much, right?”

Kirana nodded, “but in fact Bang Raihan also reneged on his promise. Keenan sacrificed his feelings for me, Bang Raihan also sacrificed his life just to be with me for a little while. They're stupid I think a, they're making too many promises. In the name of love they hurt themselves,” Kirana said again. He was already unable to continue his story as it started sobbing.

“If aa asks why I chose aa, the answer is simple. Because aa was the first man to ask for an opportunity instead of giving an appointment. Not only do I not believe in a love, but I also can not believe in anyone's promises, even promises spoken by my own father and brother,” Kirana said.

“There are no sincere men in the eyes of the traumatized woman, sorry I have treated you like before,” said Galih instead apologizing to Kirana.

“Aa no need to continue aa intention. Aa can go. Let me explain to Amira, she must understand.”

“Don't say anything to Amira first. Give a time, aa will decide as soon as possible,” said Galih making Kirana nod.

Galih returns Kirana. The speed of the car is not like before. He even walked quite slowly, was on the left lane and several times get a horn because it is considered to inhibit the speed of other vehicles.

Once at Kirana's residence, she asked Kirana to wipe her tears first. He had expected that his little girl would come to welcome the arrival of Galih who for several weeks routinely picked up Kirana from the cafe.

“Papa..,” call Amira once the gate is open.

“Hi sweet boy, have been waiting for ya. Amira has eaten yet?” tanya Galih, as usual, carried Amira into the house.

“Already. Just waiting for Papa to read Celita. Bial Amila is not a big dream,” said Amira.

“Ok, Papa read the story about the deer and the wolf,” said Galih.

“There is such a celita?”

“There. Kan Papa made it,” said Galih.

“Ok, if Papa made Amila want to dengal.”

Galih is still doing what she used to do to Amira. Help her brush her teeth, then read her a bedtime story. But for tonight, before he read the story he first say goodbye to Amira, “Amira.., tomorrow Amira brush her teeth with Mama yes, after that sleep hug Mama. Papa can't come, because Papa has to work,” said Galih.

“Again?” amira asked with a sad look on her face.

“Amira, did Mama say. Papa's a cop, a peacekeeper. If anyone is fighting, Papa should help,” Kirana said.

“But are they not tired of being transparent? Poor Papa so can't go home,” said Amira.

“They don't fight anymore, but Papa still has to make sure they don't fight anymore. Lagian Papa is not tired, because every time Papa comes home Amira always welcomes Papa with a smile,” said Galih.

“Yaudah deh, but promise yes Papa segela go home,” said Amira again.

This time Galih just nodded. Kirana even saw her own nod so doubtful and filled with uncertainty. In Kirana's heart gave her fate. He only thought about strengthening himself immediately if later Galih chose to leave, so that he could strengthen Amira as well.