Blue Berets

76. Contrition

After escorting Ms Ratna to her son's house, Galih returned to the base. He headed straight to the mess and remained there until nightfall. He was still reluctant to meet with Keenan, so before his friend returned to Galih's room he left first. He chose to sleep in the mosque, covered in prayer mats and sarongs.

Mr. Aji had just finished the maghrib prayer when he realized the existence of Galih curled up in the corner of the mosque. Mr. Aji approached Galih and slowly woke up the sleeping Galih with a considerable amount of sweat.

“It is you rather than sleeping here mending sleep in the place of Mr. yuk,” invite Mr. Aji.

Galih is still trying to collect his consciousness but suddenly he says, “Pak, anterin to dong.” station

“Where to?”

“You meet Mama,” replied Galih whether consciously or not he said so.

“Hus. Ngaur. Naw. You go home with Father. Find because you even want to go back to Bandung everything. Nek there is nothing on the road njuk your father can be finished with Mother, you know.”

“But I miss Mama, Sir,” Galih said again.

“Ngene iki nek you maghrib-maghrib sleeping. I'll talk about it."

Keenan heard what his best friend said. He had just taken ablution and was just about to pray when Keenan heard Mr. Aji trying to persuade Galih to come home with him.

In this headquarters who does not know Galih's close to one of the higher-ups. Even familiar, if Galih will always ask for advice to Pak Aji and his wife when he is deadlocked or feeling something. After all, Galih and Aksara had been close friends ever since the two were still in the academy.

Keenan only let out a breath that felt so heavy. It had been two nights since Galih had not returned to her room and she had barely even revealed the trunk of her nose. A script that just happened to finish his work found Keenan sitting alone under a tree near the headquarters of Gegana. Feeling a little familiar with the matter, he took the initiative closer.

“Lo left Galih already kayak left girlfriend lo go far,” said Aksara.

“Kok lo clock like this is still here Le? How do you do it?”

“There is Mother at home. My mom has just come from Jakarta. My wife is not at home. Said my body odor made him nauseous,” said Aksara.

“The name is also pregnant women. That's not it, a lot of it wants.”

“Tap.”

“Sa..,”

“Hmm?”

“According to you how should I?”

“Soal Galih or about Kirana?” ask Aksara directly at the point.

“Two....,” says Keenan.

“Actually Kee, you already have no hope to be back with Kirana. It doesn't matter how much you are with him, but you never let go of his hand. You've already thrown him away. At least that's what Kirana knows. His heart is no longer for you. But for her husband, Bang Raihan. And now comes one innocent figure who knows nothing about love expressing feelings to him. Kirana has chosen and elo is not even in the choice,” Aksara said without filtering her words.

“But I am also powerless. Though for years I have felt heartache seeing the smile of Kirana who had me so have Bang Raihan and now have Galih. Logically, I should hate him. But I can't. I like him even more,” said Keenan.

“Nothing wrong with feeling. But if the feeling is not coupled with the same logic. Yeah gini so, you know for yourself. I told you Kee, you only have two choices. Between you being selfish by asking Kirana back to elo but losing her smile or you sincerely Kirana for Galih but you can still see she is happy. Mainin your logic here. If you really love I am sure you will not choose the first choice,” said Aksara.

Keenan. He began to feel guilty and began to feel responsible for the things that were happening. As a result Keenan decided to immediately meet Kirana to finish something.

Keenan came to the cafe and immediately met Kirana who looked sad standing while arranging clean glasses on the shelf. As soon as he saw Keenan coming before him, Kirana thoughtlessly slapped the man and her tears just spilled out.

“What are you doing here?” ask Kirana.

“Ki me..,”

“Not enough have you ruined my life? Twice Keenan. Twice you ruined my life. Firstly, when I had high hopes for you you just left for the silliest reason and now that I've met the man I accepted as my husband you've come back to mess things up,” said Kirana already did not filter her words.

“I'm here to apologize Kirana, I want to take responsibility for what I've done to you,” Keenan said.

“Take responsibility? In what way? Can you get Bang Raihan back here? Can you give me back all my happiness you've taken away?”

“But if I don't go you won't have Amira either. Kirana, I'm sorry I had to say something like this to keep you quiet. Please listen to me. I will not demand you back from me. I will also not interfere in your relationship with Galih. I still love you Kirana, but I won't be selfish and ask you to be mine. I know my mistake was too fatal,” Keenan said.

“Kirana, I just want you to know that the decision to leave you is not easily taken. I'm traumatized, I have the same inner wounds as you. When I couldn't even hear your name let alone your face, that's why I left you. I purposely did all this just so you could forget me and live better,”.

“Padala before you promised to get through everything with me no matter what. That's why I hate you Keenan. At that time I was also the same fall, when I really needed you to be by my side. Isn't it actually deep in your heart that you also want me by your side? Don't you always expect me to be okay? You know I can get through it all if I'm with you but you chose to leave instead. Sorry Kee, I can't forgive you,” Kirana said.

“No problem. You don't have to forgive me. But at least I want to hear you're happy with Galih. I saw how broken he was without you. He was exactly like you at the time. Hopeless, he has no purpose. I will accept whatever punishment you and Galih have given me. If you two ask me to leave I will, because I don't want to see one more person ruined because of my stupidity,” Keenan said.

“Then get rid of your feelings for me,” Kirana said.

“For that one...,” Keenan fell silent. He was unable to answer yes because he himself found it difficult to do so all along.

“You think keeping my flavor with you will make Galih be with me? You realize Kee, all this time you vent about your heartbreak is the same who? Just like you do not want Galih to fall, she must also think the same,” said Kirana began to vent her emotions.

“I've tried Kirana, for years I tried to remove you from my heart but I couldn't.”

“That's because you never tried to open your heart,” Kirana's answer left Keenan dumbfounded. He never thought that Kirana would answer that.

“Last advice from me, open your heart and let the woman who was destined for you enter your heart. I'm sure you're not stupid to just realize Ningrum likes you,” Kirana continued.

“You mean you mate me with Ningrum?”

“Ngak. I'm just saying, there are a lot of women out there who are much better than me and much better suited to you. If indeed Ningrum is the best pursued him, but if not you should at least apologize for ever making him misunderstand to be away from his friends. I miss Ningrum, and only with your help can I meet her again,” Kirana said making Keenan speechless.