Blue Berets

42. Papa's Pride

“Den, work please proceed yes. You led the patrol, right?”

“Casual. But next week replacein yes,” replied Deden.

“Deal.”

“Ndan, where are you going?” this time it was Odi who asked.

“Please first lady,” replied Raihan who had already started his steps out of the workspace. Actually Raihan does not know where Kirana is, his phone is also lowbat so he tried his luck by going to the cafe looking for Kirana there. After parking the car in an empty place, Raihan stepped in but did not find Kirana anywhere.

“Mas Raihan? Find Mbak Kirana?” ask Dimas.

“Yes, the person here is not?”

“Iya Mas, just log in. It was in the staff room like checking weekly reports made by Silma,”, Dimas said.

Raihan walks into the staff room and finds Kirana sitting behind the desk she used to wear to finish her job. He looks busy, his clothes are messy and his hair is tied up. Instead of approaching, Raihan actually grabbed a cellphone and photographed the scene. According to Raihan, Kirana looks beautiful when she is busy with her work.

"Oh my goodness, why didn't you say that you were there?" ask Kirana.

Raihan walked over after sending a smile to his wife. Raihan sat in front of Kirana and then his hands raised to tidy up Kirana's hair behind his ears, “Turn you are again beautiful. You also want to enjoy your beauty,” said Raihan.

“Gombal deh,” replied Kirana who blushed shyly.

“Where is your condition? Already well? Still nauseous no?” tanya Raihan still stroked Kirana's hair.

“Udah is not Bang, but tomorrow morning may be nausea again,” lamented.

“Ngak papa, enjoyed both yes,” said Raihan.

“Iya Bang. If so Abang wait for me to settle the bag first,” said Kirana.

“Where to?”

“Back now?”

“Continue your work. Brother wait. All of you can eat here not?” ask Raihan.

“Bby Bang, can be very. Brother wants to eat what let Kirana who is ready,” said Kirana began to move from her seat.

“Spageti meatball, chicken pop large, vanilla latte equal green tea,” Raihan said.

“Many highly?”

“Kan for you too my dear,” said Raihan made Kirana smile again.

A year married to him made Kirana realize how good Raihan Dhananjaya was. He is a humanist and understanding leader. Raihan is so sweet, fun and funny. Sometimes Raihan tried to be funny even though he failed, but for Kirana it was more than enough. He can feel it for himself, how much effort Raihan to maintain the mood of his wife and it is enough to make Kirana happy.

As Kirana made Raihan's order, she continued to observe the condition of his wife's study. On the table there are photos of Ningrum, Lucy, and Kirana who if he does not remember wrongly taken at the grand opening cafe event this few years ago. Raihan observed Kirana's smiling face. She was so sweet with a wide smile revealing her neat rows of teeth. 

Raihan remembers that Kirana was not his, but he also remembers that he had always prayed for Kirana since the day he met her sister. He never prayed for Kirana to be his. He only asks that Kirana be given the best and be given happiness with anyone who will be with him later. That prayer until this moment is still spoken and he will continue to say to God. Not only Kirana, but her son. So that his two missionaries may continue to live in happiness.

Raihan continued to sit in front of Kirana, slowly feeding a spoonful into the mouth of Kirana who was still busy with her work. 30 minutes later, all the food she ordered was all gone. Raihan smiled because his wife did not realize that she had spent almost all her dinner, even though Kirana had never fiddled or asked for a portion of Raihan's meal. 

"My wife's friend" said Raihan.

"What?"

"You ate it up" he said, pointing the empty plate before him at Kirana.

"Geez, did I finish everything? Ih Bang really is that, so brother has not eaten? I made it again huh," Kirana said instantly in a panic.

"Abang has eaten with you. This we spend both of you alone who eat kok," said Raihan.

"Really?"

"Yes, really," Raihan said with a smile.

"Thank you Bang."

"Make?"

"Everything" Kirana said.

"Together," Raihan replied.

...***...

The night was getting late, Kirana beside him was also sound in her sleep. Raihan looked at Kirana's face which looked exhausted but was so peaceful in her sleep. As she stroked Kirana's head, Raihan recalled Kirana's words this morning. She says she doesn't like being restrained by Mama Hasna and Mama Cecil. She felt depressed and what she was doing was wrong in Mama's eyes.

It is undeniable that Kirana's mood is changing. For a moment he was happy, a moment sad, could also suddenly be angry. If he was distracted just a little, he could instantly badmood no matter he was laughing. Plus some time later Kirana was busy helping Adnan and Lucy at their wedding. Raihan stepped down from his bed, then sat down at his desk.

Raihan seems to be counting things and deciding things. He looked around his room. As he stepped out of the room to fetch the white water, he also continued to look at every corner of this house. The house he had occupied even since he had not been born. This house was built by Papa with hard work as capital to marry Mama 28 years ago. Although not long later they moved the island following Papa's official call, but this house still has a story.

Raihan recalled, when he was 5 years old he loved to climb the dining table in front of him. One time, he also fell and hit his head on the chair so hard that it bleed. My mom was panicking at that time. How not, the only child, the hero Mama can be injured because Mama is negligent to look after him. Mama cried and continued to grieve during the days Raihan was hospitalized. 

Raihan's daydreams continue to flow presenting a new figure in this house. Kirana Dwi Dhanastri, who was the first time to come here, looked clumsy to follow the steps of Mama wherever it was. Even when Mama is in the room, Kirana will just sit still on the sofa or do something that can kill time in the kitchen. Raihan smiled, his wife who was still frightened nearby has now turned 180 degrees.

In this kitchen he also received Kirana's first hug and in front of this black dispenser Raihan first fondled his wife. Since that night Kirana began to open up and accept herself. Though previously having a woman was just a wish for him. 

“Han? What are you doing there?” ask Papa who woke up.

“Eh Papa, another drink. Papa hasn't slept?”

“No, Papa is awake. Why are your faces so rich? I have a thought,” asked Papa.

“Ya that's Pa, still confused about how to do it,” Raihan said with a smile.

“Bingung ngadepi your moodyan wife? Naturally Han, during pregnancy she would experience a lot of changes not only in terms of physical but also of the heart. You are understanding, do not demand your wife too much. Pity him later depressed,” said Papa.

“Well that's him, actually that's too pressing it's even Mama,” Raihan said.

“You who love understanding to Mama, if Papa who talks yes mentally all. You talk to your mama slowly. Don't put too much weight on Kirana for this, it's.”

“Pa, sorry very much in advance. Raihan wants to ask Papa's opinion,” said Raihan.

“What?”

“I want Kirana to move house. I'm trying to buy a house. If there was only me with Kirana, but in a few months there will be a child born Raihan. Just like I always admired Papa, I also wanted to be that kind of figure for my son. All this time I felt I could not love the best for my small family,” said Raihan.

“If it's your decision, what do you say? You're the man who led his own family. Papa can't drive you this. It all depends on you now.”

“But Mama how?” ask Raihan.

“The Mama thing is Papa's business. Let Papa help you reassure your Mama. Your duties and responsibilities are only about Kirana and your children,” Papa said.

“Still yes Pa, but please keep it a secret first. Later Raihan himself will talk to Mama and Kirana. Later, if the atmosphere is cooler,” said Raihan.

“Papa is proud of you,” Papa said as he patted his son's shoulder.