Blue Berets

12. Conditions That Start to Improve

Kirana is now repatriated. He was considered cured by doctors, but he still had to do therapy with a psychiatrist. For a time, Kirana's room area and the 2nd floor were off limits for anyone but Mama to visit. This morning Lucy and Ningrum had a chance to meet Kirana but Kirana did not respond to anything said by the two men. Only Mama who he responded, it was also he always said if his body was dirty and wanted to take a bath.

Just a little bit off guard, Mama will see Kirana flushing her body with water so swiftly. On both of Kirana's hands and feet were also many scratches she had made herself. Kirana always says her body is dirty and she always scratches her whole body as if trying to remove the stains on her body.

If Kirana is relapsing and Adnan hears about it, she will definitely come back crying. For him the perpetrator of the abuse was sentenced to death even though it would have no impact. His only brother's life had already been shattered into pieces and his future was melted into dust. Even Adnan saw for himself not only Kirana who tried to survive, but Keenan was also the same.

Yesterday afternoon after the shift, Adnan tried to come to Keenan who always locked himself in his room without doing anything exactly as people lost their minds.

“Keenan horrified me. If you say Kirana got rich gini because of elo? Lo says you don't pantes guard Kirana, so be the man who deserves her. Be strong, be better. You're Kirana's fiancee, you'll soon marry Kirana. You have to be strong for Kirana. Make yourself too,” said Adnan who managed to get Keenan attention.

Keenan cried, Adnan was able to see clearly the description of Keenan's tears in freefall soaked her cheeks, “I will not pantes so her husband Bang,” she said.

“Lo why the hell?! Heh. You promised to take care of Kirana no matter what happens. Where do you keep that promise Keenan?” adnan said he was still trying to contain his emotions.

“I'm too much of a jerk to Kirana Bang, I won't pantes to be her husband. I'm a jerk, I'm not a becus, I can't, I'm a coward,” Keenan said back in tears.

Adnan is equally sad. If asked, he would answer if he could not. She is forced to look at her sister's condition, which is supposed to be happy waiting for her wedding date, which suddenly changes 180 degrees.

“Astaghfirullah Kirana's. Oh my God dear don't!” yelled, Mom, I don't know what happened.

Adnan has not heeded Mama's ban, he immediately went up to the second floor and ran into Kirana's room. She sees Mama trying to hold Kirana's hand which starts to randomly cut her long hair with scissors. Adnan immediately jumped into Kirana's arms, trying to snatch the scissors from her sister's hand. No matter her hand was already injured and shed a lot of blood from being scratched by the scissors, she still tried to stop her sister.

“Kirana aware Dek, this Brother is no one else!” adnan's snarl made Kirana stop.

“Abang..,” call it. This time his eyes filled up a little. He was able to see Kirana starting to recognize him again.

“Iya this deck Brother,” says Adnan.

“Abang..!” Kirana immediately hugged her brother tightly and cried as hard as she could. Adnan who was hugged by his sister was so possessive to cry. “This is your fear Kirana? Until your body shakes so hard. Sorry Abang dek, sorry Brother can not take care of you properly,” said Adnan can be heard by Mama and Papa who have been standing in the doorway since.

Adnan came back crying to see Kirana's haircut strewn across the floor. Kirana's hair was already torn irregularly. Kirana was still crying in her arms, even when Adnan managed to put her on the bed, Kirana was unwilling to let go of Adnan's hand. He kept asking his brother to stay with him.

“Abang, some days do not need to work first. Brother keep adek at home, your cut letter so Papa who takes care,” said Papa who can only stand in the doorway because he did not dare to approach.

Adnan nodded, “thank Pa,” he said. One tear escaped again seeing Kirana again tightened her hand.

Since then Adnan himself helped Kirana therapy. Occasionally he would take his sister out of the house, set foot on the garden rocks in their yard, then take a walk around the complex together. Sometimes Adnan would bring Kirana to say hello to the cute, big samoyed dog that was kept by one of their neighbors.

Without feeling a month has passed, Kirana can be a little activity. He was no longer afraid to go alone. Although he was not able to get out of the house alone, but he was not just sitting quietly in the room.

Coincidentally today, Papa is having a guest. The one who visited was Raihan's family. Papa Raihan and Papa Adnan a generation in akpol first. They were friends, although they were separated for so long, but in the end they were able to work under the same command in the mapolda. After almost 30 years of his separation, today he both meet again that's why the two stopped by the house.

Kirana is unaware of the whereabouts of Papa and his guest. He was still enjoying walking from the front of the refrigerator carrying a snack and a box of milk. His intention was that he would sit in front of the tv but once he saw who was sitting on the living room sofa, Kirana immediately rewinded. Moreover, as soon as they looked at Kirana, she immediately ran up to her room.

“That was your daughter?” ask Raihan's father.

“Iya. Sorry yes, he had a little trauma and is still in therapy,” Papa replied.

“Raihan told me about it. I'm so sad to hear it.”

“Keep sir, now how is the condition? Is she okay?” ask Mama Raihan this time.

“With you so too?” ask Papa Raihan.

“Ya same. No matter how much I am with my daughter, she will not be able to approach me. Only his brother can,” Papa said.

“At least there is his Brother Sir, he is not alone. Hopefully your daughter can be healed soon.”

“Aamiin, thank you for praying mbak,” Papa said.

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Adnan not only helped therapy for Kirana, but he also asked Keenan's parents to help Keenan as well. Father and Mother received both his intentions. Every few days, Adnan will take the time to come to Keenan's house either to accompany him to tell stories or listen to every complaint. Keenan immediately resigned from his job because his condition did not allow him to work again. So every day he just does anything in his room.

“Nak Adnan, Mommy wants to ask your consideration,” said Mommy.

“What's Mother?”

“Father and Mother intend to cancel the marriage of Keenan and Kirana,” said Mother.

Adnan expected it. Keenan and Kirana's psychic condition will not allow them to be together again. In addition to Kirana who is scared close to men, Keenan is also afraid to approach Kirana. It is not good to force what is already impossible.

“Just do it Mother, if it is the best for both of them. But, if possible I want to offer something to Keenan,” said Adnan.

“What?” ask Mommy.

“There is a reception of Bunda police members, if Mother deigns Adnan can help Keenan be better. Either Mother will assume what my intentions are, but I think with the experience she has if she can get back up, she will be able to become a better person again. I want to help him get better,” said Adnan.

“Mother is not sure son, the police education as far as Mommy is too hard to be accepted by Keenan. Mommy will not have the heart to see it,” said Mother.

“Mother, Keenan is a boy. One day he will be a husband, a father to his children. Sooner or later he should be able to stand on his own two feet. Sorry Mommy, but there is no harm in Mommy considering it,” said Adnan.

“Mother...,” said Keenan who walked out of the room.

“What's the son?”

“Bang Adnan Deals..”.

“Why?”

“Keenan wants,” said.

“Do not be rash Keenan, you do not know what you say,” said Mother.

“Bang Adnan is right. I also realized if I continued like this I wouldn't be a better person. The situation that Kirana and I are in is out of my control but I'm sure if I become a cop I can save more women out there. I want to be able to punish all the depraved men out there,” Keenan said.

“You remember about Kirana?” adnan Gumam.

“Obviously I remember Bang. He became like this because of my failure to look after him. Sorry Bang, I agree with Father and Mother's decision to cancel my marriage with your sister. You can tell Kirana that I threw it away. Let her be hurt and hate me, that way she will be able to look into her future with another man who is much more deserving of her,” Keenan said.

Adnan made silent a thousand languages. Didn't think Keenan could pay this much attention to his sister. He was even still thinking about his sister's future when he himself could barely get up. Adnan is aware of how much love Keenan has for his sister, but he is also unable to say anything.