Blue Berets

61. Dad To Amira

The two shifted to the square of kidul which is famous as a paradise of street food. Garih buy some kind of snacks. Starting from meatballs skewers, grilled corn, batagor, even he also bought dimsum and takoyaki. While Kirana only bought tempura and a large glass of iced tea.

“Eat it together yes, if aa alone will not run out,” said Galih made Kirana snort.

“Then you know why buy a lot?” ask Kirana.

“Yes you don't want,” replied Galih cuek. He started biting the corn. Previously he had already cut the corn in half and given Kirana a bigger share.

Kirana looked timid, but her mouth still did not stop eating. The two were sitting on the grass while enjoying the variety of snacks they bought. Galih chokes and unknowingly grabs Kirana's iced tea and drinks it from the same straw as Kirana, making Kirana even more clumsy.

Kirana increasingly did not dare to look into the eyes of Galih who was focusing on her food. Kirana only dared to glance occasionally because she was happy to see Galih eating. Slowly Kirana dared to look at Galih and even locked her eyes.

“That's really great to see,” said Galih.

“Aa if you eat again make people who see drooling. Looks like a really good meal,” said Kirana.

“Aa right since childhood does like to eat and according to aa the best way to enjoy food is when the taste meets the mouth and the spice can feel perfectly. So aa if you eat fast, because once a bribe must meet the entire oral cavity,” said Galih.

“Everyone always has their own way of enjoying food, but seeing the way aa eats definitely makes the cook happy,” said Kirana.

“Sometimes something for aa ya neng. Aa want to mengerasain your cooking,” said Galih.

“Insyaallah yes, or what tomorrow? Usually Bang Adnan bring stock, if I want to make something I keep dropping it to Abang,” said Kirana.

“Hmm, how about you drive him Ki? If you want to deliver to headquarters before 6 am,” ask for Galih.

“Why is it once a morning?”

“Aa will leave for mabes to follow the diklat for 1 week,” said Galih.

“Oh...,” said Kirana with a somewhat sad look.

“Later after aa home we meet again yes,” take Galih but Kirana did not answer.

“Why? Neng object same job aa ya?” ask Galih.

“No, I'm just nostalgic again. My dad is a brimob too. In the past, every time Papa would be assigned out, Bang Adnan and I would definitely drive Papa all the way to the headquarters and wave at the truck that took Papa off. At that time Mama often put on a sad face, as well as Lucy every dropping off Bang Adnan on duty. not to think about it, I will hear the saying goodbye again and this time the saying is addressed to me,” Kirana said.

“That's one of the reasons why aa is afraid to approach women. Because work does not benefit a relationship what else gets to a serious level. Explaining to couples is easy, but in children it must be difficult half to die,” said Galih.

“First I instead like little children, I am only sympathetic to small people who know nothing but are often forced to understand the condition of both parents. I was born into a family that was not okay. Papa is actually a TNI, one of the team leaders. In an assignment, Papa failed the mission and ended with the death of 5 of the 8 team members on duty. Since that incident Papa decided to take off his uniform.”

“After Papa came out of the union, my Papa changed a lot. He used to say rude, raging, and even beat me and my mother. There was not much understanding of the meaning of sacrifice. I just know that Papa is outrageous, a jerk, and cruel without seeing why Papa could be like that. I used to persuade Mom to leave Papa, but she always refused. Even to her last breath she always mentioned Papa's name. Since then I have hated love. Because I think love will only make people stupid.”

“But I can not deny, I sympathize with children who never ask to be born but arbitrarily used as a tool ‘pemasuas’ ambitions of his parents. There are children who are forced to come with their parents busking in the streets, or children who do not know what is wrong to be an emotional outlet of their parents who are fighting. Those poor kids were never given a choice. Though aa understand very well actually all you want is affection from both parents. Enough as a backup, give a hug, and motivation for him can be strong to live life. That's why I like children and tend to be close to them because through the smile on that innocent face I feel calm. It feels the same as I am overflowing with affection,” said Galih with a sad look.

“Sorry, I hurt your heart. Sorry, I shouldn't have asked,” Kirana said regretting her question.

“For the second reason, because I like you Kirana. Not wrong, I tried to get along with Amira did have certain intentions. If it's not wrong we first met at the supermarket right? Accidentally clutching the same apple and then I helped you with the groceries. It's a good thing I'm a cop, so it's not weird that I'm helping you. After all, that is the basic task of a brigade, helping fellow humans. You don't know, when my heart was beating so tight just because it saw your smile and Amira who was chatting,” said Galih.

“Means aa?”

“Aa likes same neng Kirana. But just liked. Aa doesn't want to get to love. Because aa does not want us to sacrifice each other and hurt ourselves just because of each other,” said Galih.

“I also don't believe in love if I want to know. Actually, my heart has been anchored 2 times. The first one chose to leave, he said he didn't want me to end up with a jerk like him and asked me to find a replacement that was much better than him. The second, Father Amira. Bang Raihan also left me. Refusing treatment was only for the sake of keeping me in a coma. By reason of love they both left me, saying stupid excuses that ended up hurting everyone. Since then I no longer believe the same love a,” replied Kirana.

“Aa won't invite you to play love, it's ABG's toy. Aa just wants us to get acquainted and get closer before we can share our lives with each other. Aa learned to know yourself and you learned to know aa, even if neng Kirana wants,” said Galih.

“Kirana already does not dare to bet on an unsecured promise like this a, sorry.”

“Aa will not make promises. What you ask for is not your heart let alone your future, aa just ask for a chance. The opportunity to get to know you more deeply, the opportunity to be a father to Amira and if possible I want to ask for a chance to be able to live life with you,” said Galih.

“Aa, too soon aa talk so. Yes, if aa can end until it is finished, if aa also goes then how will I explain to Amira? He was very sensitive, always using his feelings and heart every time he did something. She is fragile and easily hurt, imagining Amira grieving that I was not able to,” Kirana said.

“Then I will change my request. As long as I know you and Amira I have never heard that little girl tell me about her Papa,”, said Galih.

“He hates his Papa, considers Bang Raihan so hearty to leave me and Amira alone,” cut Kirana with a sad face.

“Now ask you for a chance. I'll make Amira love her Papa. I will make Amira proud of the person who gave her life and happiness. Later, after aa succeeded, then aa will come again to you to collect answers,” said Galih so confidently.

“With one condition...,” says Kirana.

“Mention.”

“If until my son is hurt, there will never be a second chance,” replied Kirana.

“Deal.”