Blue Berets

16. Heart Choice

After being quiet and drowning in each other's daydreams, Raihan ventured to talk. Actually the purpose is certain, the reason he took Kirana for a walk today is to express his feelings for Kirana, but somehow his courage just disappeared now.

“Kirana..., Brother want to say something can?” ask Raihan.

“Leave just say Bang, why?” Kirana.

“Dek, do you think if there is a man who came to you and expressed his feelings how would you?” ask Raihan.

“Aduh.., why do you have to ask that. Stupid you Raihan..., stupid,” Inner Raihan immediately regretted his words earlier.

“Abang again has a crush on girls huh?” ask Kirana.

“Iya.., that person is you,” Inner Raihan. “Iya. Brother again likes girls but brother is confused how to express it,” said Raihan.

“Depends on Brother's intentions only. If you're sure of the girl, yes Brother said. If you later think first people you know,” said Kirana.

“Means that your Confess brother will not be angry?” ask Raihan.

“Mean Brother?”

“Abang likes you Dek, Bang Raihan likes Dek Kirana,” said Raihan finally managed to express his feelings.

“Bang.., but Kirana right..”

“Abang tofu. But you can't resist your desire to take care of you. Brother sincerely loves you,” said Raihan.

“Bang, sorry. Not that Kirana wants to refuse but Kirana does not want to accept anyone.”

“Abang understands. But if you let me help you forget Keenan. Brother wants to help you rise from your slump. Let's just say Abang did this for Abang's own pride,” Raihan said.

“Abang will not invite you to date. Let you decide what our relationship will be like in the future. Don't just because your brother you accept Brother. Whatever your decision will be, I promise your brother and brother's friendship will still be fine. Both of us will not be affected by your decision even though you will reject Abang.”

...***...

Since coming home this afternoon, Kirana had only been silent in her room. He didn't want to go out even just answering later when Papa invited him to dinner together. Bang Adnan had not yet returned when only his brother could persuade Kirana. Mom and Dad were unable to persuade the girl. More precisely Papa and Mama never dared to force anything more on Kirana.

“Assalamualaikum..,” greet Adnan who just returned from his job.

“Alhamdulillah you go home. Bang, Kirana in the room from this afternoon there was no sound. Try you check your adek afraid Mama she's why,” said Mama.

“But still alive right?” ask Adnan lightly while picking fried tofu on the table.

Plakk

“You are! Mom is serious and you are joking. Not really you too long,” said Mama.

“Sorry Mama joked, that Kirana will not be okay. He just wants to accept Raihan or not,” said Adnan.

“Raihan? Raihan son of Nandar?” this time, Papa asked.

“Why not just welcome. His son is good, his family is good too. If he is the incumbent Om Nandar Papa same Mama will not worry he is hurt in his new family,” said Papa made the expression of Adnan more flat.

“Papa forgot ya conditions Kirana rich what? Love the space Pa let him dare first,” said Adnan.

“You till when? Your sister's age is enough. Eh you are too, if your sister is constantly being groomed when do you want to get married ha? Papa's friends are sepantaran mostly already carrying grandchildren. Realize you are a boy, the eldest son of Papa,” said Papa.

Adnan just walked up. He would start arguing again with Papa and his mother if he continued to be there. What Papa said is true. If Kirana does not immediately have a partner Adnan will not be able to continue his own life. Adnan has already promised not to get married if Kirana is not happy. At least he had to make sure his sister was okay.

Adnan went inside his room only to take off his uniform and take a shower, then immediately to Kirana's room which was clearly in a heavy uproar after being shot all of a sudden. Raihan also asked who was impatient. I told you later, still hush.

“Ki?” call Adnan while knocking on the door.

“Come on Bang, unlocked,” he replied from the inside.

“Well, the monkey was upset,” said Adnan while turning on Kirana's room lamp.

Kirana closed her eyes in shock at the sudden bright light. Adnan asks Kirana to shift her seat so she can sit on Kirana's pink bed. She sits next to her sister who continues to play the ring that Adnan realizes is her engagement ring with Keenan. There was a fine incision in Adnan's heart as his sister stared at the ring with a half-dreaming look.

“Bang I was confused,” Kirana said without looking at her brother. His gaze was still fixed on the ring in his hand.

“If you ask for advice from people surely everything will ask you to receive Raihan,” said Adnan.

“But it's not that easy Bang,” said Kirana.

“Indeed it is not easy to accept new people in your life even though in the heart is still engraved the name of others. But if you want to try to open yourself up, you are sure that there will be great happiness waiting for you in front there,” said Adnan.

“But Bang, after being hurt by Keenan in such a way I can no longer trust the same promise of men. My whole life I have prepared to be with him, but he suddenly left so even without saying goodbye,” said Kirana.

Adnan's heart was back in pain. Kirana does not know about Keenan's mental state that was shaken and she also does not understand if the man did not leave her. He only sacrificed his feelings for Kirana to live better without him.

On the one hand, Adnan instead of helping him asked Kirana to accept others. Honestly, Adnan felt he was so evil to his own sister. But Adnan was also helpless. Thought's dead-end. If Adnan had told the truth now, it would have meant nothing. Kirana and Keenan had gone too far to be reunited. Moreover, Adnan knows if Keenan now has a new life.

“Dek.., sorry Brother yes,” Inner Adnan.

Adnan clasped Kirana's hand, he tried to strengthen his sister who was confused how to.

“Bang, do you think that I received Bang Raihan when I still have not forgotten Keenan wrong?” ask Kirana.

“Wrong, but didn't Raihan say he'd help you erase your past?”

“Continue according to Brother how? I'm not good at rejecting people as good as Bang Raihan. I'm not whole, it's a fact of Bang and not necessarily there will be other men who want to be like me besides Bang Raihan. I also know about the commitment of a brother who does not want to get married if I am not happy,” said Kirana.

“Do not sacrifice yourself for others Deck, Brother does not want you.

“Ngak Bang. I chose to do it. So let me do it. God willing I am strong, but I promise you that Kirana needs you will always be there for Kirana. One day later if you are married Brother still want to hear the story of Kirana?” ask Kirana.

“Pasti.”