Blue Berets

26. Raihan Confession

Raihan walked out of the hotel and chose to sit on one of the benches in the park. He felt his body currently feel heavy. When Kirana again mentioned about her condition somehow there was a painful pulse in her heart. She knew Kirana was innocent, but she was also unable to lie to herself about her wishes. Naturally a man expects his wife's virginity on their first night, Raihan is also the same.

Raihan only suppressed that desire in order not to hurt his wife. Raihan had already chosen Kirana, so he had to accept all the consequences. He has also been asked dozens of times by his parents, by his parents-in-law, and especially by Adnan Dzaki who currently serves as his brother-in-law. Raihan answered yes. He had already accepted Kirana, so he had to harbour that wish as soon as possible.

“Yes Allah.., may Your servant be strong in the face of all Your trials. Give her patience and fortitude so that I can give her strength. I love him, and I want him. I want the girl named Kirana Dwi Dhanastri who is now my wife can rise again to look at her future, Raihan's inner” while looking at the vast expanse of clear sky with white clouds decorating her.

...***...

After Raihan left the room, Kirana stepped inside the bathroom. He didn't forget to lock the door like Raihan's message. Some time Kirana was crying under the water from the shower. Kirana really can't forgive herself. Many people may say that it was not because of his fault, but Kirana herself knew that he was guilty.

If at that time he forced Keenan to pick him up, or he was not afraid to contact Bang Adnan that terrible thing would not happen to him. Keenan would also not leave from his side. His heart also did not need to be raging like this.

“Abang, How should Kirana? Maafin Kirana Bang,” said Kirana who began to fall down.

...***...

“Hallo Nan? Why phone?” raihan asked Adnan who suddenly contacted him..

“Ndon't know all of a sudden both of you're thinking. How's Kirana? He's fine, right?”

“The other person took a shower,” Raihan said a little lie.

“He didn't cry right?”

“He cried,” Inner Raihan. “Ngak. He's taking a shower and I want to be sure to eat all the way. You don't have to worry. He is fine,” Raihan said. He was forced to lie to his brother-in-law because Raihan suspected Adnan's behavior. It was like there was a secret that was gnawing at his heart and it had to do with Kirana. Raihan did not want to force her to tell him what happened, but he also did not want Adnan to keep the guilt feeling continuously.

After her phone was turned off, Raihan walked back into the room. As he had just said, Raihan first knocked on the door and called out to Kirana who was still inside doing nothing. Kirana opened the door and forced a smile to welcome her husband.

“Nih, I bought strawberry milk for you,” said Raihan handed me a bag of crackles containing several boxes of milk.

“Yes Bang much very?”

“You just put it in the refrigerator to cool,” replied Raihan.

Kirana put the milk box into a small refrigerator that became one of the room facilities. He left two boxes of milk for her and Bang Raihan. Kirana and Raihan are currently doing the same. Unfold the top of the packaging, then scissor it. The two did not drink the milk using a straw taped to the back of the packaging but took a sip.

Kirana smiled as well as Raihan. They have long been aware of this funny habit. If people generally drink milk or drinks in packs using straws, Raihan and Kirana do not. Both of them did not wait for the drink to walk in through the narrow gap of the straw. They prefer to swallow it. Both assume if drinking it to meet the oral cavity will get the maximum pleasure from the taste.

“Bang, today where are we going?” ask Kirana.

“Today there is no special agenda anyway. Mostly after this we have lunch at the restaurant below all the streets around here. Not far from this hotel there is a green rice field. Brother want to take you there, want?” ask Raihan.

“Mau Bang. I like it, I haven't seen rice fields in a long time, ” said Kirana.

“Such a city you are like,” Raihan said.

“Yes because Kirana from childhood never came out of the city of Bang. Even if you go to the beach, to Kaliurang, farthest to the grandfather's house,” said Kirana.

“If you are different Dek, Brother from small has often moved around. Even Abang was once at a point where Abang did not want to have friends because it is useless also have friends anyway later Abang will go too,” Raihan confided.

“Abang will tell you. You want to know what you're gonna tell me about. But now get ready first yuk. Very roomer brother,” said Raihan made Kirana immediately ready and followed Bang Raihan who was ready first.

...***...

When Raihan and Kirana finished eating, cloudy clouds flocked and immediately dropped quite heavy rain. Kirana immediately frowned, because she had failed to walk in the rice field. Not because he did not want to be exposed to water, but he was lazy to scrape let alone he only brought one shoe and one sandal only.

Finally Raihan and Kirana could only pull a chair and sit staring at the rain from the glass of their hotel room. Kirana had made two warm cups of coffee for him and Raihan then sat down to chat. Kirana and Raihan were just talking about trivial things, but over time they began to talk about the past of both. Kirana did not tell much about her past because Raihan already knew about Kirana not only from Adnan's story but also he saw for himself.

“If Brother himself has a former no?” ask Kirana.

“No.”

“Yang actually Bang? Pity very,” ledek Kirana.

“Eh Brother really looks rich people lie? You were the first for my brother. Although I admit you are not my first love but you are the last for my brother,” said Raihan.

“Gombal ih,” says Kirana. He went back to drinking his coffee and covered his face with a glass to hide the hue on his face.

“Truly yes, don't believe it much anyway.”

“Continue his first love Whose brother?” ask Kirana.

“Mama.”

“Yang really why the hell Bang. Time Mom,” protest Kirana.

“Bene. Your first last mother. I swear there will be no other woman besides you,” replied Raihan.

Kirana stopped laughing. He smiled and thanked Raihan. Kirana did not think that the man she had only known as her brother's friend would end up loving her and be her husband now. Kirana also thanked him for the millions of understandings he gave Kirana that were full of flaws.

“Abang..., can Kirana know since when do you like Kirana?” ask Kirana.

“Since we camped a few years ago. Maybe you still remember, you once confided with you about liking people again. Yes, that person is you actually,” replied Raihan.

“So the reason you didn't say it wasn't because you were scared?”

“Not. Brother keeps the taste that you have so that you do not hurt many people. But God brought you to my brother, didn't He? Although we must feel bitter first but you believe that in the future we will be happy. After all you also said right, there will be no sweetness if we do not have a bitter taste,” said Raihan.

“Why do you believe the same words Kirana?”

“Because your words are different from the words of people out there. Your words are beautiful but they are not fabricated. Simple but directly in your heart. You also believe because you always hold your word. You are a firm and strong-minded woman that is why you can like you,” said Raihan who for the first time expressed his feelings with the real one.

“Please Yes Bang already love Kirana,” said Kirana.

“Sama-sama darling. Brother also thanks because you want to accept Brother,” said Raihan embraced by Kirana.