Blue Berets

52. If Love Can Be What

“Amira darling, today Amira playing with Akung Uti first yes. Mama goes to work first, later when Mama has come home we play together again. Pinter yes Mama's child,” said Kirana to her daughter who was cool playing with finger food on a mattress that was deliberately held in front of the tv.

Amira follows Kirana and Lucy, who have walked to the door. His face was sad as if he did not want to be left, but what if Kirana did not go to work he would not be able to support his daughter. He also had to save up for the medical expenses of Amira who had a weak heart and needed extra care from a doctor.

“Honey, just a minute. Amira Sama Uti used to be at home. Mama not long anyway, after lunchtime Mama will come home,” said Kirana.

“Amira Uti's grandson, watch tv yuk. While mamam banana yes,” persuade his grandmother.

Fortunately Amira wanted to escape from her mother's arms and began to cool eating bananas with uti. Amira is now 8 months old. She had already started crawling around, and the most difficult thing was that whenever Mama Kirana and Mama Lucy were about to leave for work she would whine to come along. Sometimes if Mama Kirana is not busy and just needs to supervise the work of employees she will be invited, but lately Mama Kirana is busy.

Several months were not occupied making the house that Raihan bought for his small family began to break down. Adnan and Lucy persuaded Kirana to stay in the house, but Kirana refused. She did not want to live there alone and kept remembering her late husband. Kirana may be trying to be strong, but if she keeps quiet for a while she can hallucinate seeing her husband.

Right now Kirana decided to rent out the house. Raihan in his will also said that if all his assets would be handed over entirely to Kirana as one of his responsibilities as Amira's biological father. She wants that even though she is gone, Amira can still meet all her needs and Kirana helps to realize her husband's dream.

In addition to fixing the leaking tile, Kirana also repainted the small house. Especially in the near future, someone will rent it. He said the house would be rented to be the basecamp of a regional student community so Kirana slightly changed the shape of the house. He turned it into an open space concept and bought him a large table which he then placed close to the pantry.

“Kirana, I think this morning I should be absent from the cafe because there is a collection in the office. We replace yes,” said Lucy.

“Ok, but your show won't be until late afternoon, right? I'm at 1 there is an appointment with the tenant of the house, you know,” said Kirana.

“Not until. 11 Hours have arrived at the cafe,” said Lucy was embraced by Kirana.

“Kirana..., you are great anyway,” praise Lucy.

“You've talked about that every day Lucy. I'm bored with it,” Kirana said.

“But you are great. So single mom is not an easy thing but you can do it,” Lucy said.

“I'm not that good Cy. All this time, you were with Bang Adnan who helped me. In addition, I diem-diem also still often cry especially if you remember Bang Raihan,” said Kirana with a sad face.

“Ki, sorry I just wanted to ask. Are you thinking about getting married again? Or maybe reverse the same Keenan?”

“For marriage again I don't know, but make a reciprocal Keenan I'll say no. I don't care if he likes me or not, but he has no place in my heart. After all, several times hurt because men make me not believe in love again,” said Kirana.

“But of course. Depends intention. Again, I don't believe in love. I can support Amira with my own two hands and I am thankful enough. I would only consider remarrying if Amira asked. But even that the chances are small. Amira already has Papa Adnan, why did he ask Papa again,” replied Kirana.

“What I told you too. You're terrific. Often crying is not a sign that you are weak. When you cry, you show how strong you are. Because after crying your body will lighten up and make you step with greater expectations, right?” said Lucy.

“Kayak knows those words,” says Kirana.

“Ningrum who said when I fell really because I felt unloved by my parents,” said Lucy.

“Our time is still ABG labile,” Kirana added.

“I hope it will be until the time where the three of us can gather, picnic while bringing our own supplies and we share. Later the gathering time was me, you, and Ningrum were the same little family each. Let my son, your son, and his son Ningrum play together and be a friend also rich Mama,” said Kirana.

“Eh talked about that I used to imagine that later our husband is legitimate. Yes I imagined it first when you were still the same Keenan. I had thought that actually our soul mate is not far away very,” said Lucy.

“I know why you can imagine it. After all, the name of the soul mate we never know, it could be he is a person who is dragged by the universe to meet us, or he could just be our own friend or friend. You for example, who knows it turns out your soul mate is the brother of your best friend. I still remember very well that our days of High School you just met Bang Adnan has not blinked to see where after that you often really mode just to meet Bang Adnan even though just a minute,” Kirana said.

“Neventually is now a husband. Meet every day until I'm made bosen. PDKT time I do not know whose name is cranky especially until angry, if now there is aja that makes angry. Either the case of a wet towel placed on the bed or the kebonya Abang that is very difficult to build,” said Lucy.

“Bang Raihan is too. Bang Raihan it if take something is not closed again end. Either ketchup bottle, sausage, bath soap, parfume. If not to cause things, it is not papa but often makes problems. I don't know who spilled everywhere, make all macem dirty. Dizziness me. The worst thing about the Cy refrigerator, Bang Raihan forgot to close the refrigerator almost overnight. Fortunately, I woke up and took a drink in the kitchen if it had not been frozen Mama's kitchen,” said Kirana.

“Oh gosh don't-don't you like to leave the refrigerator is not closed tightly Bang Raihan too? Geez, I was angry with Bang Adnan because I thought that Brother was upset,” said Lucy.

“The two friends are indeed equally teledor Cy. You also know for yourself,” replied Kirana.

“But how else, no matter what settings...,”

“If we already love what we can do,” Kirana said following the sentence Lucy makes both laugh quite loosely.

Lucy was grateful that Kirana could slowly rise to her feet. He no longer talked about Bang Raihan in tears but in his laughter as well. Although it was a bit heartbreaking every time Kirana mentioned the name of the late Raihan even unconsciously. How else, Kirana wasn't lying about her feelings. She really loves her husband, in contrast to the assumption of people who say that Kirana only thanks Raihan who wants to accept him with an incomplete condition.