Blue Berets

64. Afraid to Break Up

Not a week has passed, but somehow Kirana's heart has been crushed. His days were filled with waiting and his heart was claustrophobic with longing. Before leaving, Galih approached him and told him not to send a message. Galih asks Kirana to email her whenever she wants to tell a story. It was because Galih and Kirana knew that a short message would never give enough space to tell a story.

Their introductions may not be as romantic as other couples. The introduction was too ordinary to be said to be a sweet destiny, but through a brief introduction at the rames rice stall in front of the Amira music tutoring venue it was enough to grow the seeds of love in the hearts of both.

Galih's decision to choose Kirana was also not passed easily. She realized that Kirana was not a girl. She was a widow, had one child with the status of still deeply in love with her late husband. Although Galih does not know for sure what it feels like to be left behind, but by looking at his best friend, he, Keenan who failed to move on Galih little understand if the pain of loss is as much as we lose all hope in life.

Quite a number of questions were thrown in his heart since his meeting with Kirana. A minute he was happy, a minute later he could be so doubtful whether he should express his feelings or just end up being an acquaintance. Until at one time he was given the opportunity to be called with a call that he thought was so special. “Papa Galih” every time he heard the little girl calling him with a big smile and face sumringah Galih got such great happiness.

There was a point in his heart that reminded him of the past. Where she desperately wants to call her late father the same way Amira did. She misses her Papa just as Amira always misses her Papa. Starting from his desire to get to know Kirana further he even got something bigger.

Galih is always afraid of commitment, she is afraid of getting married and having children just because she does not want to end up like her father. He himself realized he was not a person who easily held back emotions. But only with her staring at the face of a woman does she want to give her everything she has. Responsibility, affection, protection not only for Kirana but also for her little girl. Until he finally made the decision to express his feelings to Kirana and ask her to accept him.

That night Kirana sent him an email. The woman recounted all her heartbreak in long sentences filled with longing. She said not a week had passed but her heart was already claustrophobic about meeting her. He also asked when Galih was coming back and when they could meet again. Galih only smiled when reading the email from his lover, the feeling awaited by someone during life he had never felt. Never had he felt awaited even by his own family.

“I've read your email. Tomorrow, Friday at 15:45 at the airport. Pick me up yes, take Amira with you,” reply Galih via short message. He deliberately sent a short message because he knew at this hour Kirana must be busy sitting behind the cashier table or in the kitchen making orders for customers. He wanted his message to be read immediately so he decided to reply with a short message.

“Kutunggu a, 15.45 hours at the airport,” reply Kirana makes Galih smile back expands.

“Yaah the kingpin asymil senyom teroz,” ledek Aksara who was wearing back his uniform after flushing his body with water in the bathroom.

“Kaya has never been in love aja lo,” replied Galih.

“Kaya believe in love aja lo,” says Aksara.

“Love is not learned, but understood. 18 years I know Kaori, during that also I learned what love is. For this one, I disagree with you. It is not love that causes people to act silly because from what I understand love is not to drop but to build us into a better person. That's what you need to understand whether your feelings are really love or just interested,” said Aksara.

“Means lo?”

“Gini sob, I don't want to make you confused but I just want to say I know Kirana as long as rich I know my wife. Although not close but I know a little Kirana like what. He is so, from the school era there are also many people who are interested in him. Even though she has a boyfriend, it still does not count how many of her friends express her same feelings. Even after her marriage Kirana remained the same, she remained attractive. His nature is open-minded, and different from most girls always make men curious about him. I just don't want aja elo was only interested to know the contents of the book, not because elo want to read it to the end,” said Aksara.

“Ne do not know Le, I am also still confused. But every time he lost his way, he always came and came back making me sure that this feeling is not just interested,” said Galih.

“The decision remains the same elo because elo will undergo. But Inget yes, learn slowly. Don't squirm. The problem is we never know what the ending will be, yes if you are really the same as him. If it turns out over time you do not find a match and choose to separate not only the same elo of Kirana who is broken, but your beloved little daughter will also be broken. His heart is still innocent you know it is still very fragile, so you have to be careful. Lo trauma is the same as love, so do not make Amira experience the same thing,” said Aksara advising.

“Insyaallah. I'll take your words. But I ask help yes Sa, as a more experienced in terms of love you have to ingetin me maybe I misstep,” said Galih.

“Pasti.”

Aksara forced her smile. Along the way they returned to the Aksara seminar, looking at his best friend's back. He didn't lie about knowing Kirana. He lied about one thing. He knows that Kirana and Keenan is an unfinished story and he is afraid that his best friend will be caught up in the endless maelstrom.

The characters are not stupid. He may not be as sensitive as his father or as concerned as his mother, but the clever Aksara observes around. He always knew what was going on around him, he easily put the pieces of the puzzle together into a whole story. All this time he just kept quiet because he knew there was already Bang Adnan who helped Kirana and Keenan but if it had started to concern his best friend this one seems Aksara had to interfere a little.

Aksara knows Galih's background including the torture he received from his extended family. Galih hopes and dreams about a harmonious household and a warm family are indeed big. But why should Kirana give you hope. Why should that girl be the answer. Aksara simply did not want to, if Kirana knew the truth about Keenan's feelings, she would leave Galih and prefer Keenan. He doesn't want Galih to break again.