Aretta & Secrets

Stalkers

I saw the Lord Pacing back and forth during the lesson. He taught me the material I had learned and managed to keep me out of focus in his class. Today he seems very excited to explain the ins and outs of biology that he has never done before. But still it didn't work to interest me.

When the class was finally over, I tried to rush quickly to get out of the class and try to be the first to come out. And somehow, every time I wanted to move fast, there was always a barrier that made my movements slow down. The day incident that made my movements slow down was my bag strap stuck to the leg of the chair.

I bent my body to release it as quickly as possible, but unfortunately my movements were not fast enough. I felt like I was being played with by the circumstances, even on my birthday the bully still had the strength to approach me.

"Aretta!" her voice called out to me loudly as I attached my backpack to my shoulder, "she said you didn't like me but why did you slow down my class with the cheap acting that other girls used to do?" he said mockingly while pointing at my backpack.

I ignored him and immediately stepped towards the door. I really hope that my good attitude makes him give up and leave, because to hope that he no longer bothers me is impossible. I seemed destined to suffer and get distracted wherever I was.

But it's not that easy. He came closer to the door and held my arm when I was about to come out while slamming my body into his chest. He also held the door open to prevent it from opening wider. I became very resentful of myself at that time for being stuck back in the same situation and with the same people. I'm like a stupid donkey who keeps getting into the same hole.

And damn again, why should at a time when the humans are no longer out there. That guy is too smart and I can't deny it. He can read and assess situations that make him always safe when committing abuse. He also did not allow emotions to overwhelm him when he acted.

"I think you should run." He said while slipping his one hand to my neck. He did say that, but it was certain that he would not let me be free that easily. The gentle rubbing of her hands made me nauseous.

I can't get lulled. So when the focus was on my neck, I immediately used the opportunity to push the door. That lustful look of an eye was still clearly glistening in my memory. The man may have acted that way because the woman left, but it seems that the other mistress of hers is not as easy as Jessica when she wants to get in touch.

I'm thinking back to the message Jessica sent. He warned. That memory managed to increase my courage so that I could break away easily from the disturbance of Lord. Fortunately this time my bag was not involved and this time the Lord let me go.

I ran hard, but when I got to the corner, I ventured to push on. I looked at the Lord who was still standing there with a gaze that was still fixed on me. The man grinned with a glint in his eyes.

That eye glint was the same glint I had seen last night from my bedroom window. I looked back to the front, turned the corner and subconsciously bumped into someone to leave me lying on the floor. Laughter forces me to look at her. That's Aidan. He chuckles amusedly because of my stupid actions.

"Ngapain is running all over," he reprimanded. I actually wanted to smile stupidly but because of Lord God earlier, I could only smile half-heartedly.

But he seems to be able to read my strange gurgle. I really can't make a show in front of Aidan. The man looked at me fixedly and immediately asked, "Why?" he said, extending a hand to help me stand up. I grabbed her hand while enjoying the warmth that was emanating from her palm. My feelings have changed for the better. That man had an amazing effect on changing my mood. Every time he met her, somehow all those bad feelings evaporated away unceremoniously.

"No why. Just a little worried about tomorrow's exam." I lied and turned my face away and wished she hadn't seen it. The man is too sensitive and will definitely be caught immediately if he notices me.

"Not to worry. Remember I'll always be ready to help you." He grinned at me and automatically made me smile. But he scrunched his face again, "I'll help everyone, but don't ask me about math, yeah."

"You don't look good at math either" I sneered.

He shook his head in disagreement with my statement, "You're wrong. I can do math, but I'm not smart enough. Forget about the exam, I'd like to ask you about...." He was silent then put his finger under his chin, stroking it slowly as if it were hard.

"Ah... Brithday happy!" He almost shouted. A mischievous flash flashed in his eyes. Fortunately in this corridor there was no one else so I did not feel ashamed.

He chuckled as he looked at me who was feeling uncomfortable.

"Why is your expression like that. It's your birthday, so you have to be happy." I looked at him sharply.

"Not to be said in school either. If you think that's how you're gonna be suspicious."

Aidan just shrugged his shoulders no matter what. The man was not very good at reading the atmosphere.

"So how old are you now? 16 years?" tanyakanya.

My gaze sharpened even more, "17 yes," protested as I crossed my arms in front of my chest. He laughed out loud. So he pranked me. Her scattered laughter made her face turn red. He also pointed at my face which was staring at him with an annoyed expression.

"Why so serious, anyway. I'm just kidding." I just rolled my eyes lazily hearing his explanation.

I shook my head. I don't need a gift because last night I got two really amazing gifts.

"I'm not kidding. If you want something to say."

"No need. You just have to come."

"It's hard to stay talking. Then you can't refuse if I bring a gift later." I had wanted to open my face to refuse, but he immediately said, "i'm going first because I still have to get close" he said and ran straight away before I could say goodbye. I was still watching Aidan as he sprinted down the aisle to head for the meeting room.

I don't want to lean too much on people. Basically I was raised by a mother figure who forced me to live to be a person who must be able to survive alone. I live in solitude without anyone willing to extend their hand to me. I've also been used to being ridiculed, insulted for years and because of all of those things I was able to grow into a strong figure. I am not used to depending on others.

But things slowly changed when I got to know Aidan. When I faced him the sense of being protected was present. I felt weak and needed him to be my support. Even more shamefully, I became in need of words of spirit that I had never before wanted.

But it didn't always go the way I wanted because of our status differences. He's a teacher and I'm a student. The gap made me have to be self-conscious not to rely too much on him because surely what he did was just an obligation that must be done by the teacher to his students. I don't want to be too hopeful and think that he's been treating me special all this time. Who am I? I don't want to be greedy until I want something that shouldn't be for me.

I breathed heavily as I regained consciousness. I looked around to make sure that Mr. God was not there. Thankfully the figure was no longer visible and I immediately heaved a sigh of relief. I walked back down the corridor and decided to go to the garden where I usually contemplate and spend my rest hours. I found Rafa and Rendi there. The two men were sitting on a bench, side by side. I followed and sat on the other bench. After briefly greeting the two, I immediately took out my lunch and decided to focus only on eating.

'Focus' isn't exactly the right word. I groaned loudly, then turned my attention to the two of them.

"Please, don't bribe in front of me can not?" I protested dramatically to the two men, "gue can still be patient if you hug but not with that one."

Rendi grinned mischievously and then kissed Rafa's cheek which further irritated me.

"With you protesting like this, I became more sure to find you guys. If you have a guy we can double date and you don't need to be jealous anymore." He exclaimed happily and increasingly pulled Rafa closer in order to be able to hug him.

Rafa started to protest but only to ask for a chance so he could talk to me.

"What Rendi's talking about is true, Aretta. I'm gonna help you find a guy who's a good fit for you and I already know who that guy is." Rafa smirked at me while squinting seductively, "lo should know that because she really likes you."

I groaned loudly, disagreeing with him. Did I ask to find a girlfriend? I just asked them to know themselves so as not to be too fond of affection in front of me.

"Gue doesn't need it and I don't find a guy anymore. I'm fine with myself. Anyway, what I want is you don't bulge me in front, not that I'm asking for a guy,"my sentence finished coinciding with the bell ringing. Today there are additional classes and I have to follow them because many classes I still do not understand because I have to escape from the Lord God.

"Thanks God," I muttered dramatically and it made the two lovebirds laugh amusedly. I rushed out of the yard and threw away my lunch trash. I still looked at the two of them annoyed that they did not respect me who was a true single.

Actually I am happy with the interaction of the two, just don't show it too often in front of me. Then I feel sorry for letting them date.

The three of us walked together. This time the class will also be attended by Rafa, but when he arrived in front of the room the two returned to make out and sling cuddle. Because I was already caught off guard, I left them and entered the classroom myself.

Classes went well but still with distractions. This time I had to listen also to the complaints of Rafa who was far apart with Rendi. As soon as the class was over, I immediately rushed off leaving him because I wanted to keep my ears from getting hot because whining was not beneficial from him. I covered the locker to pick up the books and homework I had to do tonight. It's my brithday, but homework isn't done either.

Finished with what I should be looking for, I immediately closed the locker door. When I looked down I found a paper that seemed to have been torn. I bowed my body to pick up and read. I just thought it was a reading from a torn note but when I was about to throw it away, you saw another piece of writing carved using a red marker.

I looked at him carefully and the writing was still in readable condition. I was trembling in my place. The written word was not a threat, it was just that the meaning behind it was extremely frightening.

I crumpled the paper and threw it heartlessly into the trash. I also tried to forget what was written, but those words indirectly flowed into my head like the lyrics of a song I remembered.

You'll be mine, Aretta.