Aretta & Secrets

Unforgettable

"Aretta," he urged.

I sighed softly and tried to pick a sentence so that what I told did not provoke Papa to emotions. I have never told anyone anything bad that happened to me because I felt that no one would lend a hand to help me. The fear that makes me close myself up until it is difficult to receive kindness from others. But now that doesn't apply because the one who will hear my story is Papa. I'm sure Papa won't close his eyes like everyone else.

"Basically Mama really blew me away because Papa left. From all the stories I heard from Papa just now, I concluded it was because he was jealous of me. Papa spent too much time for me and Mama did not accept. After Papa left Mama kept bothering me. At first it was just a talk that contained the cause of Papa's departure was because of me, but the longer the worse. Mama was not ready for food and until in the end Mama did not get me to eat food at home. Mama told me to make my own food because Mama said, she hated me and she was sick of seeing me who ate from the money she worked. The peak of the time I had entered Junior High, Mama was not reluctant to play physically anymore." I paused for a moment. I guess I'm used to it and can tell it straightforwardly, but in fact that feeling of disappointment still cultivates high in the recesses of my heart. I was still crying when I remembered the bad event and when I switched, I saw my Papa's eyes that had been in tears.

"Oh my God, Aretta." Papa even cried, he was hard to say, "Papa would not want to leave you the same as him if you knew eventually would be like kini Nak. Means all this time he lied to Papa," he growled. I don't like it when I see my Papa getting hurt.

"Aretta's okay Pa," I said trying to calm her down, "Gio always helps Aretta, too," hearing Gio's name mentioned made Papa's attention distracted. He looked at me and put on a face full of anticipation, "Gio never blamed Papa," Papa's sigh sounded. I understand what Papa feels. Gio has already lost his Papa and he only has Mama, if he too becomes a victim somehow mentally of the boy later. That must be what my father thought.

The silence returned, but Papa did not let the situation take over my attention.

"Aretta's. Papa will not leave you again so you have to quickly get out of the house right now. You can come with Papa or you can find your own place to live. Papa will help and will always help you the important thing you have to get out of that hell." I nodded and indeed after Gio spoke of us having to leave the house, I did think about it. If Gio changes his mind, I still have Papa, right?

"Thank you, Pa. But we can talk about this next time. Aretta had to go back to school and Aretta couldn't skip it," I said, and it made Papa stutter a little. It seems he just realized that I'm here with the group.

"Just a second, son," he said, then moved out of his chair. Papa went back to his desk and took a business card and handed it to me, "this is Papa's business card you can call Papa to this number. And..." He also took out a few hundred bills and handed them to me, "maybe it's too late but Papa wants to give you pocket money. From now on if you need anything you can ask Papa. You need to call Papa Aretta right away" he said once again before I actually left.

I nodded then hugged her once more before actually leaving her room. I went back to the lab where I last left Aidan and it turned out that the man was no longer there. At first I hesitated when I thought about if he left me, Aidan never reneged on his promise but it seems that I alone should look for him because after all he is here for an outing class event.

"Aretta's gone, Pa," I said one last time as I hugged Papa tightly. The man replied to me by peeping my head as he had always done before I actually stepped away.

"Yes, Pa," I cried and began to walk away. Who would have thought if at the meeting I would have left him.

All this time I was mad at him because Mama told me that Papa left because he didn't want me. It turned out that it was not Papa who wanted to leave but he was forced to leave. Knowing the truth behind all this weirdness relieved me. Now I can start planning what I will do in the future because I have protectors again.

I decided to go to the toilet, where Aidan and I had been. I looked at my face in the mirror and chuckled softly when I realized that my appearance looked chaotic. My face was full of tear marks that made me look shabby not to mention a few haircuts that were out of place made my appearance look messy.

I washed my face to remove the crying marks and make my face look fresher. And the effort was not in vain because now I am no better.

I finished my business quickly and immediately stared at the clock in my hand. At 14:00 and it is certain that the event from the school is finished. The initial plan was we would only spend until 13:00 because we were also given time to rest but now it is over and of course they are also getting ready to go home.

I went back to the lobby of the building and hoped that Aidan would come to me because he was the only one who knew that I was still here when I separated from the group. I waited for him here for almost twenty minutes but the signs of Aidan's appearance remained undetectable, until a security guard approached.

"Excuse me mbak. What is one of Maru High School's students?" tanyakanya. I nodded quickly.

"Yes Father. Did you see my entourage?" askaku. He's a gatekeeper and he's definitely been here since.

"The Maru High School group came out an hour ago" said the security guard and it made me speechless. It turns out I was abandoned. Butwhy? Was Aidan intentional?

I nodded and thanked him as he walked away from the building. When I got outside the hot sun greeted me and I also did not see the bus that had been parked there.