Aretta & Secrets

Future Plan

I looked around the area. There are no public transportation and there are only online motorcycle drivers that of course I can not order because I do not have a smartphone.

I can't believe that Aidan left me here. He said he would wait but in fact he left me.

Fear suddenly gnawed at me. I just met Papa but what if everyone leaves like Aidan. Papa's? The gio? A rafa? and Rendi? That fear made me shiver. Was I born to not be able to find people who love me?

And in the end I came back only able to make myself as a person who can survive alone. Because I'm afraid this happiness is just for a moment and everything will just disappear like steam. Maybe my destiny is like that and I have to be alone at all times.

I started walking without knowing where to go. I don't know the area here and I don't know which direction I should go so I can go back. Why is my life so bad? Why should I be left behind?

Aidan, the figure I know, and he knows the area, but he's reneging on a promise. If he's here and we're lost, he can take me back. Remembering that even got my emotions hooked. I was angry, upset, and frustrated.

I tried asking people around how to get back to SAMA Maru and they were all on the shakes because they were not very familiar with the school either. In the end I just followed the instinct to keep going and walking. Until the scorching sun sank and the sky turned dark. And the end of his long journey finally made me find a sign that led me to return home. I followed the sign and forgot the fact that Papa gave me the money.

My trip ended at a store near my house. I stood under the garden lights with a tired breath. When leaving earlier I only spent 45 minutes but when I came home I had to spend 5 hours. I have no regrets because I chose to walk because thanks to that I became able to think more and what surprised him more was, that is, I walked without a single sweat even though the distance I traveled was very far.

I was still walking through an area that almost a few people have now returned to the contest because the weather was very unlikely for them to remain outside. It seems that in this area it was raining because the rest of the rain water is still a puddle and the weather was very cold.

The footsteps took me past Daia cafe. It was as if it was calling me and asking me to stop by. What do you think this cafe is open 24 hours, because every time I pass this place in unnatural hours, Daia cafe is still open.

I brought my body inside and found an empty place so I could rest my body. I no longer had the strength to stand in front of the counter and order, in the end I prefer to head to the empty sofa and scatter myself there. This time I can breathe a sigh of relief because in the end I can rest my legs which had asked me to find a place to rest.

As soon as I sat down a waitress came and handed me the menu book. Of course it's not Rafa because if it was him I would definitely go after him because he didn't intend to look for me even though he knew I wasn't in place. I chose the menu reluctantly but the hunger predominated that made me have to choose to order heavy meals.

After the waiter left and I decided to close my eyes for a moment to enjoy the silence that filled Daia cafe.

I then opened my eyes when the silence was gone and stared at the whole room. In front of me was a couple sharing a drink and next to him was a man sitting alone with a gaze focused only on his phone.

The couple seemed rather happy, although I could not see their faces but happiness was radiating around them.

My daydream was over when the waitress placed my order on the table. I am alone and I am not waiting for anyone so I immediately finish my food because today the energy spent is very much. Although this was the second time I ate a heavy meal but I did not feel guilty because I really needed the intake.

I'm still thinking about what to do in the future. Foolish with those who will leave me, for now the most important thing is that I have to get out of the house and find freedom for myself. I'm not a hypocrite, I really want this freedom and when Papa reaches out his hand to help of course I do. At least even though I don't have an identifier there is a Papa who can be used as a guarantor.

Thinking I'd be a new version of Aretta made the smiles on my lips all the more they were. I promised myself that this new version of Aretta should lead a better and happier life. I have to be open, cheerful, friendly and healthy. No more strict diets, no more self-torturing sports. All of that has to be wiped out so that I can enjoy my best version of life.

I may still eat healthy food and exercise but not as desperately as I used to. For the opportunity that comes this time, I will make everything go according to what I want.

I can't wait to announce the arrival of a new version of Aretta. Aretta who this time will live according to her own wishes without caring about bad talk from others. And the first thing I have to do is go home and clean up. After that I will start to make a plan that will succeed my dreams in the future.

My stomach was filled and my eyes were tired, and I finally decided to walk again. This time my steps seemed more excited because I would soon meet with my comfortable mattress and bed. The darkness of the night did not dampen my spirit to become a new figure.

As soon as I got home I cleaned up and then went into the room to make a plan, but there was still one thing I had to finish before the new version of Aretta was created. It's about Mama. I really need to get away from that woman.