Aretta & Secrets

Abuse (revision)

I heard all the swearing and harsh words from him, but I didn't bother even though I knew what he said wasn't a lie. All I was thinking about right now was how I could be detached from that man for now.

My legs were still trembling as I ran through the double door that led me to the garden. I didn't think about where to run, but it seemed that my subconscious was taking me to the safest place of my version. Fortunately everyone was in class, so no one saw my tear-filled face.

I decided to go to the teacher's room. Fortunately, the teacher's office here has been provided in their respective rooms. I kept walking around looking for the nameplate I knew. I stood for a moment in front of Aidan's room, knowing that my behavior was impolite but I desperately needed his presence right now.

I raised my trembling hand to the door and knocked it slowly. I really wish he was in the office.

The door creaked from within and Aidan appeared. As soon as she saw me crying outside her room, her face turned to panic. I don't blame him because he didn't do anything wrong. It's just circumstances that make me like this.

Aidan grabbed my arm gently and led me into the sofa in his office. The same sofa I used when I passed out in gym class a while ago. I slowly sat down and began to feel safe from being with Aidan. Knowing that made my tears flow even more.

The man did not ask what had happened at first, only accepting my arrival which seemed annoyed. Aidan inched closer to me and wrapped his arms around my back while pulling me closer to him. I put my head on his chest as his hand gently rubbed my head. Some of my hair kids also covered my face because I cried a lot and she slipped it behind the ear gently. When my tears subsided and my breathing began to stabilize, he just started asking.

"Why?" his voice was softly filled with attention. I knew he didn't even take the trouble to hide his worries.

I took a deep breath with my body still trembling slightly. I was worried about telling or not because I didn't want to knock Aidan out. I also don't want to bring any new problems for him. The man has done many things and I do not want to repay his kindness by adding to the problem.

I took another breath and decided to keep it covered.

"sorry. I can't tell you, but I promise I'll talk if I manage to solve this problem. I just need someone to hug me and encourage me and tell me that this is gonna be okay." I spoke very quietly while trying to resist the waves of tears that would burst out.

Aidan pressed his lips when he did not get an answer that was to his liking. He suddenly stood up from the sofa and started pacing back and forth inside his small office. The room was very small because it was filled with a set of work desks and sofas but still could be used by the man to pacing. Aidan's facial expression was mixed. Angry, sad, disappointed, and confused are all there. He then turned to look at me.

"You know I'll be here when you need me. Just like now," he said, stressing his words, "you must promise to come to me if you need help. Do not keep or hold your own all your problems because the impact will be worse than today." I nodded at her explanation and assured her that I would do as she ordered.

Aidan sat down next to me and hugged me again.

"Everything will be fine and I believe you can definitely pass this ordeal" he said slowly, rubbing my shoulder. Even though he didn't know what was happening, his own words had already become comforting and managed to calm me down. Even my tears stopped flowing and my breathing returned to normal.

We were in that room and just sat quietly for almost an hour and that was the same with the completion of today's gym class. As soon as the bell rang I stood up immediately. It was done by Aidan. He chuckled lightly before saying.

"I'm in class, after all," he said, and I muttered in apology after making him just keep quiet without preparing the materials for teaching.

"Aretta!" call again, trying to get my attention. I just lowered my head but kept listening to him, unfortunately Aidan looked unhappy and he raised my face so that our eyes could look at each other.

"Never apologize, Aretta." I smiled a little. I don't know what would happen to me if I didn't know him. I don't want to imagine the hardships that would befall me if that were to happen

The finger of Aidan under my chin raised my head high and made me wonder what he wanted to do, but when he saw how he took his breath it softly made me fall silent. His hands that were still there crept up to my cheekbones to my neck and made me look up. He rubbed slowly and made me slightly jerk when the finger touched another part. It seems that Lord God was clutching my neck tighter than I imagined.

"Aretta listen. I know this is your personal matter, but you have to keep your word." His eyes were looking at me full of supplications that I could not refuse. I have also promised to appreciate my life and mine. This time I really mean it.

The bell rings. Times a sign if the lesson must begin immediately that makes Aidan swear slowly.

"You can stay here for whatever it is. I'll go teach you first." I smiled and thanked him.

Aidan nodded and immediately grabbed the books he would use to teach. The man moved quickly but remained cautious when opening and closing the door. From this room I could hear the sound of his footsteps getting further away. I'm back to feeling alone.

Aidan's room was filled with glass doors. Although not a mirror but the glass can still reflect the silhouette of the body and the appearance of people. I looked at myself and suddenly felt disgusted. I took off my sports clothes to remove the scent left by the Lord there. I replaced it with another official uniform.

It was fortunate that Aidan did not return after leaving so I had time to change. I ignored the bruises left on my stomach that I got from Mama when I was about to change clothes.

Despite having already removed the former Lord God, I still felt dirty when I recalled how he touched me and squeezed my chest. I tried to forget about it while taking out the antiseptic bottle for the hand sanitizer I used to clean up the remains of his fondling that had filled his face, neck, and all the parts of my body he touched.

Everything was clean even I repeated it. Unfortunately, I still can't get rid of the memories of the incident. It's hard to accept, but I don't want to get carried away and think about other things. Since I was ditching, I finally decided to study and hope that the bad memories would also disappear. I focused myself for fear that if I let my guard down those bad memories would come back.

Aidan's departure made the room feel very quiet.  I'm back to feeling alone.

Despite having already removed the former Lord God, I still felt dirty when I recalled how he touched me and squeezed my chest. I tried to forget about it while taking out the antiseptic bottle for the hand sanitizer I used to clean up the remains of his fondling that had filled his face, neck, and all the parts of my body he touched.

Everything was clean even I repeated it a few times. Unfortunately, I still can't get rid of the memories of the incident. It's hard to accept, but I don't want to get carried away and think about other things.

Since I was ditching, I finally decided to study and hope that the bad memories would also disappear. I focused myself for fear that if I let my guard down those bad memories would come back. I was still not calm despite being in this room. I'm still afraid that Lord God will suddenly come to attack

After saying goodbye, until now Aidan has not returned. I had a look at his calendar that read meetings with some teachers and staff. I'm going to try to re-learn but my hands are turning red which makes me stop learning. I waited in silence and when the bell rang the sign of Rest, I immediately packed up and hurried away from Aidan's room.

The crowd of students and schoolgirls seemed to overflow filled the corridors and stairs, let alone the atmosphere of the canteen. It is also very crowded and crowded. I really hope that many of these students keep me protected and not caught on Mr. God's radar. I just slipped out and went home

I'm almost at the exit but watch out I'm still activating. After making sure no one was aware, I immediately came out

I flinched when I turned around and found those black eyes looking at me sharply The sharpness of his face was filled with anger and he clenched his hands. Those black eyes looked at me as if I should be exterminated but I I decided to leave before he managed to catch me.

I ran and kept running away from him. That guy was scary.

I don't know how long I ran until I stopped at the stop. The umpteenth stop because I had deliberately missed the stop before for fear of getting caught. I decided to take the city bus and when I got in, the driver looked at me. Maybe he thought the clock was not the time for school students to wander around, but when he looked at my face the driver let out a slow sigh and allowed me to enter.

The bus ride was fun. But when the driver passed the road ganged up I felt pain and it rested on me why I could ride this vehicle.

My consciousness made me look around. Inside

here I see and pay attention to people as

the pretext of eliminating the incident earlier. People I don't know and know. It was strange when we didn't know each other but we traveled together and didn't try to communicate in the least.

I turned my head again and found the old woman with her cane struggling to keep her shopping bag between her legs. Then the seedy-looking boy I assumed he was ditching just like me. I also saw the young mother carrying her baby, wrapped in a worn-out blanket in her arms. The mother could still smile warmly at her son. Then I switched again and found a girl who grimaced every time through the hollow road. We all shared the same trip, but we just held everything by ourselves. I sighed when I heard the BIP sound indicating that the bus would stop at the next stop.

The bus slowly stopped at the edge of the stop and I was with him

someone else is down. The boy and I thanked him and walked in the opposite direction. I paused for a moment and thought about whether I knew the boy or not because we stopped at the same stop.

I stepped into the house because now my residence was very close to the stop. I am grateful that this place is easily accessible by public transportation even though Gio still asked me to continue to be escorted by him, I entered and climbed the stairs to our residence. The first floor was decided to be used as a business venue.

As soon as I entered I found no one and only loneliness was welcomed. It seems Ana and Gio have already gone to campus.

I decided to go to the bathroom immediately. I took off all the clothes I was wearing and after that I rubbed my body until my skin felt red and poignant using soap. I didn't want to feel the former Lord God in my body so I also let the water flow through my body. For almost two hours I cleaned myself and turned off the shower after being content to cry over my stupidity. The flow of warm water that came out made my body emit steam that billowed and made the bathroom filled with steam. I moved towards the room as soon as I finished and put on the casual clothes and loose Hoodie that Gio gave as a welcome gift of moving to a new home.

Now I feel cleaner after cleaning myself. I also immediately rushed to sit at my study table to continue the lessons I had missed.So I really did not go to class and just stayed in the room Aidan. And it was only two hours of lessons and after that I decided to go home. I was so focused on studying the material that I didn't hear a ringing from my phone. When I got tired I could hear it again. I immediately grabbed my butut phone and found the messages sent by Rafa, Rendi, and also Aidan. Maybe it was because we didn't meet at all so the girl asked me where I was. I answered if I came home because I suddenly felt unwell

The message from Rendi also contained the same question so

I didn't answer him because Rafa would have told him. I opened the last message I got from Aidan.

He said you're home? If you need anything, don't

forgot to call me.

I smiled happily but quickly sent a reply for her.

Yes, I went straight home. Thanks for the offer. See you later tonight.I reminded him again about the planned discussion that will be discussed together with Gio and Ana. We are already determined to start that store business together and it will be realized as soon as possible. I put my cell phone back down and went back to my studies. I studied for the next few hours, although it was difficult but I still did it because I didn't want to be left behind. The activity made me flutter until I heard Gio's voice, The man has gone home while sticking his head to my bedroom door and greeting me. He asked about the activities at the school that I answered well. The guy can't know if I'm ditching and almost got in trouble. "Again studying?" ask when I see me again, good. Lo

must be diligent in order to go to college after saying that he left and left me to continue his activities. I chuckled at her behavior and looked back at the book. Slightly hissing and when I turned my hand was a little scuffed because it had been holding the pen for a long time. I put the thing down and moved in search of pain medication and took it.

Working with books is not a bad thing but I can no longer because this hand has asked to give up. I put my body on the bed and looked at the clock that was showing at three in the afternoon. I decided to take a nap before Aidan came. Today was tough and luckily I got through it. But unfortunately that night, no one woke me up because neither Gio, Ana, nor Aidan wanted to nod. They let me rest until morning greet.