Your charms are diverting my love

Restui Them

I've reached my house. I go inside, and I'll wait for Mas Dani's mom and dad, as well as my mom and dad. I don't want to hide any more of this, let everyone know of my suffering during my marriage to Mas Dani.

“Vita ... Whose home is this?” ask mama.

“Whose house is this? Then what are you gonna say, son?” ask papa.

“He used mom and dad's show too? Who's home, Vita?” ask mother.

“In the meantime, this ko design suits your dreams huh, Vit? Is this your house, son?” ask Dad.

“Come in first, later Vita explain,” I replied.

I invited them to sit in the family room. I'm sure when I explain everything to them, they'll be angry and disappointed. But, I have to tell them everything, without me covering it up. It's about time, when else would I not tell you now?

“What do you want to say, Vita?” ask mama curious.

“Ma, Pa, Mom, Dad .. ma—forgive the failed Vita,” I said with my head down.

“Fuck? Failed how Vita?” ask papa.

“I want a divorce with Mas Dani,” I said softly with sobbing.

“Divorce? This is why you suddenly want to divorce Danial? Did he hurt you?” ask papa.

“Yes, since the beginning of our marriage it has not been okay. I just went through my marriage with Mas Dani, without love, and without a husband and wife relationship. That's why I can't give you grandchildren yet, because I'm still a virgin. I'm a virgin, I haven't been touched by Mas Dani, because Mas Dani doesn't love me. Even on our first night, Mas Dani said marriage was just a formality, because he didn't love me. And, during marriage, we slept apart,” I said with a sobbing that got louder.

“Gosh Dani ...” said papa with a face full of disappointment.

“Why are you hiding all in, Vita? Why didn't you tell your mom, or your mom's story?” say Mama.

“It feels inappropriate that I indulge in my household problems, Ma,” said Vita.

“Vita .. forgive mom, Nak.” She hugged me tightly, as if she knew I needed strength. Mother's embrace really made me feel calm.

“Why Dani to heart say like that in front of you?” ask papa.

“Mas Dani still loves the woman of her past, Pa,” I replied.

“Who? Her boyfriend at High School? What's-her-name? Nadira?”

“Iyaa, Ma.” My answer.

“Gosh .... Dani, Dani .. when mama had said well with Nadira so she stayed away from Dani, but why until now?”

“Restui their relationship, Ma, Pa. Let me file for divorce,” I said. “In fact Mas Dani when in Anyer has filed for divorce. But, Mas Dani revoked it again yesterday, because he wanted to think again maybe? But, I do not want to, continue to live with people who do not love me,” I said.

“Means Dani's already looking at you?” ask dad.

“Mama can't approve them, Vit! Mama can't! Mama just wants you to be your daughter-in-law! Not another woman!”

“But they've done beyond limits, Ma. There's no way I'm forcing Mas Dani to love me, whereas he still loves the other woman in his heart. Mama please understand me. I don't want to torment my mind. I'm his wife, not me as Mas Dani's wife who was touched, but Mas Dani touched another woman! I don't want ma,” I said.

“You said Dani touched another woman?”

“Yes, they've done it that far, though not yet deep, Ma. Don't let their relationship get any worse, Ma, Pa. Restui them. Vita please, don't force Vita to be Mas Dani's wife again. Vita nyerah, Vita is no longer able to accompany a husband who does not love Vita. Vita is tired of convincing Mas Dani to love Vita, Vita is tired of loving Mas Dani alone. The existing inner is tormented.”

“But why are you silent? Why do you look okay, Vita?” ask mother.

“Vita does not want to disappoint mom and dad, also mom and papa.” My answer.

“Already, calm your heart first. Mom and Dad will talk to Dani. Mama doesn't want you to split Dani, but if it's the best, what can you do, Vit? Mama already loves you, mama already consider you her own son. Mama doesn't want you to go, mama doesn't want Dani to marry another woman. Not willing, Vit?” my mom sniffled and hugged me.

“Mama should be able to accept it. Poor Mas Dani too if you stay with me, because he loves his girlfriend very much. If we're together, who are they still in touch behind my back, Ma? Moreover, they are one profession, and teach in the same school?” my clear.

“Has right she insists on being a teacher, because she is both a teacher.” Papa.

“You calm yourself first. You need to be alone, you need space to think again, Vit. Papa's gonna talk to Dani.” Papa.

“Please papa and mama talk well with Mas Dani, but do not force Vita to return with Mas Dani again, Vita still wants to separate with Mas Dani,”.

“Mama knows how you feel, sorry mom forced you to marry Dani. Mama said back home, mama will talk to Dani,” said Mama. “Come, Pa, we're going to Dani's house,” take mom to papa.

“Ma, Pa, don't tell me I'm here. I want to calm my mind first,” my door.

“Yes, mama will not tell you who is here,” replied mama.

Mom and Dad came home from my house. I'm sure mama will be very angry with Mas Dani, they must be disappointed with Mas Dani.

“Bu, if I split with Mas Dani, I agree, right?” ask my mother.

“Whatever's best for you, mom will agree to it, son. I'm sorry, I should be sensitive to the problems that have befallen you. Forgive me,” said mother.

“Mother is not wrong, neither is father. There are so many out there getting married because they are betrothed, and everything is fine, because they finally accept each other and love each other. I initially believed it, but almost a year, it still feels the same, Mom, Dad. Dani went to see the woman. Vita is no longer able,” I said.

“Already, you better rest. It's a family matter, so solve it in a family way, solve your problem with Dani, there's gotta be the best way, Vit. Either best split or not. Calm your mind first, I made you tea huh? To be more calm,” said mother.

Mom went back and made me some tea, just me with my dad sitting side by side. He hugged me, he was crying and hugging me. “I'm sorry dad, son. Forgive me,” said father sobbing.

“Daddy is not wrong, pray Vita so that Vita can go through this test, Well,” my door.

“Iya, Son.”

I was still hugging my father, I thought back to when I was leaving Mas Dani's house. Mas Dani asked me not to go, but when I left, he didn't come after me at all, or how. Just said don't go, but his hand still clasps Nadira's hand. Is that how you love Nadira, Mom?