Your charms are diverting my love

Not your Heart's Choice

I can not believe, as deep as Mas Dani's relationship with Nadira, even they have planned to marry sirri? Oh I can't imagine if mom and dad knew. But let them know. If indeed I am destined to be Mas Dani's companion until later me and Mas Dani age, I believe Mas Dani can release Nadira. Maybe now Mas Dani still can not love me, but someday I am sure Mas Dani will unite me. There is nothing immediately happy like a fairy tale, Cinderella also experienced some trials before meeting her prince.

Tonight, I really couldn't sleep because I thought about the words of one of Mas Dani's friends who talked about series marriage. It is very sad to see them, I am sure that people who live like that are only for a moment's satisfaction. Like the word he just hitchhiked to throw away his wishes, after that at home he had a place to channel his desires again. Crazy is this world. All those who should be role models, but even deviate, it is ironic to see it.

Mas Dani is a teacher, and he says Mas Dani is an exemplary teacher, even with Nadira, but they really have exceeded the limits of his actions. Did Mas Dani and Nadira ever do that? Vita ... don't think about it, Dani does love Nadira, but rest assured she won't be like that. Mas Dani and Nadira do love each other, but I'm sure, they know the limits of dating.

I went to the kitchen, wanted to grab a drink, and took a chocolate-dried soes cake in the kitchen cabinet that I had stored yesterday. I really couldn't sleep, rather than just daydreaming in the room, his mind was also not calm, I went to the kitchen alone, made hot chocolate, and dried up soes.

My phone rang, I saw Arif's name on my phone screen. I was confused, answered or did not call from him. I am married, is it worth ten o'clock at night to receive a call from another man? If he calls me on a job, tomorrow will be, right? I'm silent on her call, but Arif won't give up, three times he still calls me. I had to answer the phone from him.

“Iya, Rif, what's up?”

“Sorry to interrupt your break, Vit.”

“What's up, Rif? Is there an office problem? If anything please talk later tomorrow at the office, Rif.”

“Vit, are you happy?”

I fell silent, as Arif asked like that. Can he ask anything outside of the office?

“Hallo, Vit? Is it still there?” arif asked which made me nervous to answer.

“Ah .. Yes ma—masih? Ta—tadi what did you ask, Rif?” my many.

“You are happy, Vit?”

I took a heavy breath, I exhaled slowly, I'm sure Arif asked like this because he saw my eyes puffy, while earlier accompanying him observation in the company.

“What are you asking, Rif? Obviously I'm happy, time is not?”

“No Vit, I can't believe it. You may hide all your sorrows in front of others, but not in front of me. I'm sure you're suffering because of your marriage, Vit. Your marriage is unhealthy, Vit.”

“Listen carefully to the honorable Mr. Arif. On what basis do you judge my marriage is not okay? On what basis, huh? Want me happy or not, that's my business!”

“Because I don't want to hurt your husband who doesn't love you, Vit!”

“Know what you are about my husband? Whether he loves me or not is none of your business! I should not have picked up your phone. I thought I was going to talk about work, You should realize, you called somebody's wife! Good night!”

I was furious with Arif who was so considerate. I shouldn't have given my personal phone number to just anyone, even though Arif was my colleague, I should have just given him my office phone number.

I nodded my head, there was a problem, but I told Arif, please leave personal matters aside.

“Vita, haven't slept?”

Mas Dani's baritone voice surprised me, I quickly wiped my tears, “not yet, Mas. What is here? Since when?” I did not dare to look at Mas Dani.

“Newly. Why not sleep, already night snacking?”

“Just finished the office work, so yes gini hungry, snack first, want to eat already at this hour is not good to eat rice,” I replied while occasionally seeing the rest of the tears dripping on the cheeks.

“It looks like you were calling someone?” ask Mas Dani.

“Ehm .. i—it, it's my client,” I replied nervously.

“Oh so?”

“I—iya, Mas. What do you want? Want to make coffee?” askaku offered me coffee.

“Gak, this hour of coffee later that there can not sleep, Vit. This will take water only,” replied Mas Dani. “For dry soes yes, Vit?” her door.

“Oh yes, this please take, Mas.” I thrust out a jar filled with chocolate-dried soes cake. I still lowered my head, not daring to look at Mas Dani, because my eyes were puffy.

“Vit?”

“Ya, how?”

“You cry?”

“No, I'm tired, Mom. I'm going to room.”

I immediately moved from my seat. I don't want to talk to Mas Dani too long, especially about feelings.

“Vita wait!”

My feet stopped as I stepped out of the kitchen. “Where, Mas?”

“Don't think about what my friend said this afternoon, Vit. Honestly, I don't have Naiatan marrying Nadira religiously. I do love him, but until anytime will not be with him.”

“That problem forget it, Mom. I'm tired.” Answer's short. I don't want to talk about Nadira anymore. My heart is tired, almost giving up when I can't make you fall in love with me at all.

We both have a past, Mom. I've loved other men out there too, though I know I'm your future wife, I'm your mother's choice of megabdi for you. But I gave up when I remembered Nadira's name. I give up, because she is the woman you love, while I? Who am I? I am your parents' choice. Not your heart's choice.