Your charms are diverting my love

This Heart is Not a Toy

I finished a meeting with several division heads to discuss the project that we will hold in Anyer later. Actually, I just wanted to go straight home from the store, I was no longer in the mood to return to the office, but my work was still a lot, and had fixed the deadline. So when will I do it again, if I postpone it just because of a trivial problem with Mas Dani.

I didn't expect, Mas Dani told Nadira that he was trying to get a divorce. When I talk about it, it's like he's diverting the conversation. But, if it has to end, yes, what can I do? There is no point in continuing either, as our marriage took place without love. It was the afternoon before I met Mr. Adam, I also discussed the divorce, and I was ready if he wanted to divorce me whenever he wanted to.

I'm still in the meeting room, sorting out some paperwork, which is still piling up, and I haven't done it yet. Tantri is busy, so I don't feel good about bothering her. Maybe I'll leave some of my work to Mas Dani. Count him practicing, so he can quickly and I can get away from this company.

Honestly, I feel sorry for my mom and dad if I let go of all this. Who do mom and dad want to rely on? Mas Dani's? Yes he can, but he also while teaching, in the office only half a day. Though the schedule in the office is more crowded, especially papa companies are growing rapidly like this. Investors are also competing to cooperate with papa companies. There is no day without work in the office. If we are free, we try to find our own time. Taking time for quality time alone, it is also a consequence that yesterday's work will be stacked with the work of tomorrow.

While Mas Dani can only be half a day, he does have to have a working partner, but there is no way I, the time is separated I have to stay here? It's not fair as it seems. I was dumped by my husband, but I have to stay here to help my ex-husband? It's delicious then?

I came out of the meeting room. Just about to enter my room, Tantri called out to me. “Iya what's wrong?” my answer.

“Waiting for Mr. Dani in his room, Mom,” he replied.

“Indeed to be back here?” my many.

“Ya already, already half an hour ago instead,” he replied.

I went straight into Mas Dani's room. I don't know if he called me, maybe just apologized, or asked about work.

“What's up, Mas? Tantri said I was told to go to your room?” my many.

“It's okay, I just want to ask this, it's true or not,” replied Mas Dani. But, from the movements I know, Mas Dani wanted to discuss the incident while in the shop soto.

“It's true anyway,” I said while continuing to research Mas Dani's work. In just two days, he I can count on like that. He really studied apparently. “I ask you please, Mas? Please work on this document, thirty minutes can be, right? I wait in my room when it's done,” my door to Mas Dani. I want to test it again. Let it be, let him be quick, because I too will be divorced from him.

“Iya can, Vit,” she replied.

“Yes already, no one is asked anymore, right? No more need? I went to my room, huh?” pamittu.

“Iya, Vit,” answer.

I immediately set foot to leave Mas Dani's room. I'm sure Mas Dani wanted to talk about this when there was an unpleasant incident at the soto shop, but he must have thought, if it had to be professional.

“Vit, wait.” Dani stopped my steps.

“I'm sorry for that one, Vit,” he said.

“Oh that problem? Don't think about what you have to think about how you can prove to your father and mother if you can replace papa, and can replace me as well. Remember mas, our marriage will not be long, you have to think about this carefully,” I explained.

“I—iya, Vit,” answer.

“When do I get the lawsuit, Mas?” my many.

“Vit, I haven't thought of that yet, I want to focus on this first.”

I smile. I undo my intention to get out of Mas Dani's room, approach his desk again, I wonder with him, why so plin-plan as a man? She told Nadira that she was going to divorce soon, but after I asked, she said she hasn't thought about it? Which one is right?

“Mas said not to think about it? So what did you tell Nadira? You'll take care of it soon, won't you?” my many.

“Ya .. yes ... it's because I don't want him to be angry all the time, Vit! You know, if we split up, it would involve a lot of people, the business would also be long? I also have to take care of it to Dinas again, take care of it here and there, and others. While I'm here studying, Vit?”

“You know, with you talking like that to Nadira, it will even increase his hopes for you to immediately split with me, Mas! Don't play with his feelings, Mas? I'm a girl too, I know how she feels!”

“Lantas how did you feel when I divorced you, Vita? Will you be ordinary? Are you gonna be okay? Or is it not okay? I also think about how you feel, how our parents feel, when we part, Vit! Much I I think about, my work at school, in the office, you, Nadira, our parents!” cetus full of worries.

“It starts with you, Mom! So yes, this is your problem. If you think about your mom and dad's feelings, you will obey them, you will not continue your dark relationship with Nadira. As for how I feel, whether I'm okay or not okay after getting divorced, that's my business! It's none of your business!” my firmness.

It's a little difficult to talk about my breakup with Mas Dani. I'm not gonna be okay, Mom. But I'll try to be okay in front of everyone. I'll be the drama queen again, I'll try to look good in everyone's eyes.

“You don't need to worry or worry, Mas. During the divorce process, we still live in one house. I will also continue to teach you about the company until you can I get off on my own. When we're done, we're just thinking about how to tell our parents. It is impossible for our parents to prevent us from separating, because we both have proof of divorce. So, they're not gonna force us together. And after that, you are free. Free to want anything, want to marry Nadira, or marry anyone,” I said.

Dani just kept quiet, maybe he was digesting my words. I'm straight out of Mas Dani's room. I don't want to talk about anything that breaks my heart.

I thought being with him like this would change his heart, change his will. Turns out he's still the same, wants a divorce from me. What else can I do but say? Preventing him from filing for divorce is also very impossible? Because of Mas Dani's desire. He was in the office, because he wanted to prove to his father that he could, and one more thing, the next goal was to divorce me and marry Nadira.

Why if you want to split up you make me more comfortable, Mas? You are being very gentle and considerate of me. What was your purpose in doing the last night thing, hugging me, watching me, and accompanying me to sleep? Then this morning, you kissed my forehead, long enough, and I felt a different vibe from you. And, at the soto shop, you were so attentive, seeing that I had trouble eating because my hair was broken, you neatened my sign with a hairpin, and I still wear it today. You think my heart's a toy, Mom? You made me soar, and then you just threw it away? If not love, do not pay attention, Mom! Do not do anything that has to do with your feelings.

My heart is too easy to accept your gentle treatment, moreover I have fallen in love with you. Given a little attention my heart warms, let alone give such attention earlier?