Your charms are diverting my love

Am I Cheating Only?

This afternoon after my business was done, and there was still quite a lot of time, I took the time to meet my best friend. She is Firda. Friends from Junior High until we both went to college to take S2 in London. However, ever since I got married to Mas Dani, I have rarely met Firda again. Moreover, I am busy with my work now, Firda is also so, so we rarely meet.

I don't know who else to tell if it wasn't with Firda, the person I trusted as long as I was friends with her. Whatever I told him, about the matchmaking with Mas Dani that had been established from my teens I told Firda.

Firda rushed towards my parked car in front of his office. With a bright face, she greeted me. “Hai Mistress Danial ..” He said and immediately hugged me, and then a chipika-cipiki. “Ah kangen ..” Firda hugged me tightly.

“I miss you so much, baby ...” I hugged him so we couldn't breathe.

“Hah .. how many years have we not met? Ceileehh ... who has become a big lady, the more beautiful?” firda Ledek.

“How big is it? My body is still tiny, Firda?”

“Yes that is, it was tiny from the past, but the big one is your position, your position. Who does not know Revita Adriyana? All rich businessmen know you, including my papa. Papa did not expect a shy Revita, but now her name is duaarrr! Exploding the whole universe!” As usual Firda likes to praise, and does not bear to praise him.

“Have I praised? Would you like to stay here, or would you like me to buy?” take me.

“Tracts dong? Let’s go baby girls Invite him excitedly.

That's how Firda is, she's full of clover, she's always been a good friend, a loyal listener, and always gives me encouragement when I'm screwed up.

“When do you want to give me a nephew, huh?” He said by rubbing my stomach.

“Niece? When do you want to know me as a husband?” I turned her around.

“That's right?!”

I laughed seeing her face turn sour because I asked for a lover. Firda is indeed a careless person, he does not want to think about men. Yes really good like that, if I was not betrothed, maybe I would choose a path like Firda, free to do anything, and choose the path I want, not like this, not like this, my life since I knew Papa-in-law, as if constrained, especially when my father and mother-in-law openly asked me as his daughter-in-law. My wiggle room is getting narrower, even my brothers are always watching me, because I have been asked by my father-in-law to be his daughter-in-law.

Firda touched my shoulder and tilted her head by looking at me. “Why? Earlier it seemed like someone was happy when I mockedek who until now did not have a lover? How is the mlemem now? Like a cracker that has been in the wind for a week?”

I let out a rough breath. “Sometimes I think, I want to be like you, free to live life, whatever you want. Even your parents do not curb you, you want what, they always support what you want,” said.

“Hey ... Why is this a gini? Don't tell me you're not happy to be married to Danial?” Firda said full of questions.

“Yes you can value yourself, how the married life is betrothed. Moreover, I am the same he never goes along with his mind, from anything. I'm like this, busy with his parents' company, while he? Busy with activities at school. We are as far away as heaven and earth,” I said.

“You're happy, right?” Firda's getting sick, she wants to know how I am. But, indeed I also want to tell everything, who else would I tell if not with him?

“How do you think?” ask me to talk about a smile.

“Your smile is fake! Don't be tough! With your words like that, I already know the answer,” he said.

“Arif Bachtiar?”

“Hmm .. right, I just met him, in the office,”

“Ngapain? Nemuin you? Crazy people, you are married!”  cerocos him with passion.

“He's the same papa, there's a cooperation with my company. Yes, I had a long chat anyway, it was just like that,” I explained.

“Awas careful, ntar even disturb your household,” he said.

“Not Arif who bothers, but Nadira woman in the past Mas Dani before marrying me.” Firda's eyes rounded, hearing my words.

“I—ini means? Danial is still in touch with his ex? Could he be like that? Whoa never rained my raw bogem he!” Firda immediately climbed up the black, rolling up his sleeves, like a person willing to wrestle. I just nodded with a blank look ahead.

Finally, I was lured by Firda to tell me about my problems during the eight months I was Mas Dani's wife. I told you everything I went through during my marriage to Mas Dani. Telling me how the nights that I went through after marriage, were empty only I felt, no happiness at all. I could look happy and happy when I was outside, and in front of both of our parents.

“Ya Lord .. You have a heart made of what, Vit? You can still hold on all this time? Eight months, Vit? You weren't treated well by Danial? Not even touched this whole time? Crazy people, like what the hell is Nadira? Can people like you, as beautiful as you, as smart as you, be ignored?” Firda was boiling, hearing my story about my life after marriage.

“I haven't touched him it doesn't matter, Fir. You know for yourself I'm a man who hates betrayal. Yes, although Mas Dani can not accept me, has not been able to touch me, even he can not love me, I do not mind for that, because I understand, he needs to adjust to his new life. However, if you've been on the phone, chat, with other women, every day, I'm not strong, Fir. I surrendered. He doesn't appreciate me in front of him, I'm in every day. He couldn't appreciate it, even he blatantly said he wouldn't touch me, for not loving me. That's what he said after the ijab qobul was finished. And it turns out that at night he called on the balcony of the room, like he was calming a crying person. I know it must be Nadira. For God's sake, I can't stand all this, Fir.”

That speech escaped my lips. I told Firda all about my household problems that I shouldn't have bungled like this. But, if I hold it myself, I might go crazy. Moreover, I was dizzy taking care of work, and there was no place to discuss, a place to go home comfortable, and no backrest when I was tired of facing some clients who wanted to, many, not to face my two in-laws who always ask for grandchildren.

“I give up, Fir. I don't think there's a price in front of Mas Dani. I was invisible, no matter what good I did, never seen. Does he not see, now his company is advancing because of whose hard work? Yes papa always beside me, but everyone knows him I, after I have control of the company,”. “I also wanted to meet Nadira, eager to talk to her to stay away from my husband, rather than them getting reckless. Do you know how teachers are now? On cheating all the Fir. Again hear the news of the teacher cheating, the teacher was raided in the hotel is cheating? Aye, right? Teachers are now far from being role models for their students, except for teachers who truly devote themselves to pioneering great generations. You know what teacher is? Digugu and Emulated! How can they be guided and imitated by his students, if his behavior is like that?” my continue.

“Do not think things through, Vit. Have you been positive aboutking dong? Mas Dani is so yes probably because he still can not adjust to his new life. And, you don't have to use to meet who earlier? Nadira, huh? No need, Vit! Just wasting your time. Better yet, you're behind Mas Dani? Is she what you layanin are? Are you the clothes that you wear? Try her cueki, don't take care of her.” Firda's advice is true, I have to go back to mengueki Mas Dani, but where can I fuck with him? His husband? But, he did not consider me a wife, why did I megurusi him, and assume he existed?

“I can't , Fir,”.

“Yes hard if you gini? Don't be your husband, Vit? You're the CEO? Your time is so submissive anyway? Show me your wife, dong?”

“Although my position is higher than her, still I am a wife, Fir? My position is under my husband.”

“Then what do you want?” ask Firda.

“Don't know, if Mas Dani keeps doing that, okay, what can I do? Maybe I left everything? I regretted accepting the match with her, and left Arif who understood me so much. Did I just cheat with Arif? Ah no, no! I don't want to drop my pride.”

I heard Firda snorting in annoyance at my increasingly indecisive speech. Firda shook her head, like she couldn't believe me until she spoke like that. “Don't do that, don't cheat back by cheating. You have to be able to take Mas Dani from Nadira, you are strong, Vit. You're his wife. You also have a stake in a company that also belongs to Danial. Face all this, be patient, and you prove, you're better than Nadira. You are the Queen, Honey ... Don’t give up, Okay ..?”

Yes, I am the queen. I rule over all, but why do I rule over all, but the king of my own kingdom does not consider me to be his queen? And I can't control his heart.