Your charms are diverting my love

She's So Beautiful And Simple

But, my brain thought hard, rejected it, and said no. That's impossible for me to do, because I hurt him. I'd hurt her even more if I did things I shouldn't have done to Nadira. How not to hurt him? I'm a man's husband, even though I don't love my wife, and I love Nadira more than Vita, I still can't hurt her. I'd better leave Nadira, and go with Vita, because that's obvious. Obviously it hurts, rather than me having to fuck and stain the woman I love before it is legitimately mine.

“Mas, don't torture me, don't torture this taste. I'd give all this up for you, Mom. I'm willing,” whispered.

Not that I want to do it more. But, I instead let go, and closed Nadira's body which I had partially opened.

“Sorry, I can't. I don't want to hurt you, Nad,” I said by distancing myself from Nadira.

Honestly before Nadira said like that, saying he resigned me to do it, he was willing to give up all, my voltage was still high, my libido really went up. But, when Nadira said like that, that she was willing to give up everything, my desire to spice it up disappeared instantly. No more desire to touch it. I don't know why I can be like that, because I want to take care of her, or because I don't know.

“Doing it or not is the same as hurting me right, Mas?” said it.

“But more not, Nad. Because it will take away what you have been guarding all this time,” I said. “I do touch you, often. But, I don't dare to ruin what you've been guarding all along. It belongs to your future husband, Nad,”.

“Then why do I keep it, my outside is not intact, it has been touched by you often, right? Why not all, why don't you just take it, Dan? So that we quickly unite, and live together,” he thought.

“It's not that easy. I know and I realize I touch your outside a lot, I admit it's wrong, and I shouldn't, but I want to keep the crown you have, Nad. It belongs only to someone who will marry you, Nad. Not mine. I haven't married you yet, even though I'm your lover,” obviously.

“So you won't touch it because you're not sure you're going to marry me?!” pekiknya.

“Nadira ... I beg you, this is not the way, I choose the best way. You know Vita's been my wife all this time I never touched her as deeply as I touched you, Nad. Let alone touching, I kissed her forehead if in front of my parents, and her parents. Otherwise, he's the only one who kisses my hand on the way to work. Just like that every day, for ten months.”

“Don't equate me with Vita! I'm different from him, Dan!” hatchlings.

“It's different, but you're both women! You both have precious crowns that you must guard, Nadira. Sorry if I refuse. I really can't, Nad. Ii'm sorry. I'll find my own way, kinda we can be together without me ruining you deeper!” my firmness.

“For what? You've ruined my outside, Dan! Free and the same!”

“Obviously different Nadira” firmly me again. “You know a frame? If the frame is broken, damaged, and shapeless, what will damage the photo in it? Is that photo gonna rip? Still intact, right? Just exposed to the shred of the glass frame, right? That's what you are now, Nad. I have damaged your frame, but your photo is still intact, because the photo can be owned by the person who has the right to have it, after it is valid later,” I explained. “I'm sorry, Nad. I can't do it more.”

Nadira was silent, stunned to hear my words. He fixed his shirt, after I spoke like that.

“I'm welcome home, fine at home. Calm your mind. Don't think things through. Whatever I will fight for you, Nadira. But not in the way you wanted. Will not be Nadira!” my spoken.

Nadira nodded, I kissed her forehead and I hugged her. I know maybe he's tired of all this. But, I don't want to do that kind of thing, which will harm me and Nadira later.

“Already, calm your mind. Clean up, then sleep. I'm home, it's nine o'clock more,” pamitku.

Nadira nodded then drove me forward when I was going home. He waved his hand as I was about to drive my car.

Along the way, I was still thinking about Nadira's request. I didn't expect Nadira to ask for things I never expected. I should be the man who asked for it, but why did Nadira resign? I was really keget with the request. I became more afraid of Nadira desperate to do as she wanted when close to me.

I do love him, love him so much, but if for that matter, I don't want to do it, even though I love him so much and want to have him completely. Nah! It's hard for me to touch him more than usual. I don't have it yet, there's no way I'm touching it deeper. As for Vita who I have validly touched, I have not touched it at all, let alone touch, just sleep the room apart?

I should be able to hold back. I don't want to hurt myself or anyone else. I have sinned in doing so with Nadira. But, I don't want to add sin to my life anymore. I've done a lot of harm to Vita, I've always hurt her, but she's been so kind to me. Moreover, he is legitimate to me.

I went down the road to go home. I see there are still many street vendors peddling their wares on the sidewalk sidewalk. It's a rame, and a lot of buyers. There is also a full angkringan, crowded with people there. At first glance I saw a woman similar to Vita sitting on the lesehan satay ayam madura. Yes it was Vita with her friend named Firda, then with a man I know, and another woman I know as well. He's Tantri, and the man next to Vita, that's Arif. They were still gathered there, but it was nine o'clock.

I lowered the speed of my car, and pulled my car over, and then I went down to him. I don't know why I don't like to see Vita close to Arif. I walked over to Vita who was chatting with them.

“Vita?” call me.

“Mas Dani? How are you here?” tanyakanya.

“Home home to meet ...”

“Where was it, have you met the papa?” Vita said Firda. Maybe it's because there's a Tantri, so he doesn't want Tantri to know. If Arif, maybe Arif already knows my household problems, after all he is close, and Arif always seems to show attention to Vita.

“Pak Dani, already eaten. If you haven't ordered yet. It's not just any chicken satay, sir. Come here join, let me not be beautiful alone here,” Arif invite familiar to me.

“Wooh, I ate earlier, at my mom's house. Later again Mr. Arif,” I replied politely, because he also politely offered me, memksi he pleasantries.

“Wah a pity, even though it's good to the satellite,” said Arif.

“Yes, unfortunately I have eaten, Mr. Arif,” I replied. “Ehm .. Have you finished yet? If I can Vita I take you home?” my many.

“It's over, I'm done, but for a minute, I want to wrap satay first, yes?” answer Vita.

“So we don't have to send you, Vit?” ask Firda.

“That's it, don't do it. I'm the same Mas Dani,” replied Vita. “For a while mas, wait a minute, I want to order satay again, make it at home,” he said to me.

“Iya, I wait, Vit,” I replied.

“You want to eat again, Vita?” ask Firda.

“Yups, I want you again,” replied Vita.

“Wah ... smells we want to get niece, Fir,” said Arif with a face that shows happy.

“Where is she pregnant, the person she is not yet ...”

“Not finished your period you mean? I just finished my period yesterday, didn't you see me praying maghrib, did you? How about there just finished menstruation a few days directly pregnant?” cut Vita like she's covering from Arif, if she hasn't touched me. I'm sure Firda would like to say that Vita hasn't touched me.

“It's already night, you want to eat again, are you not afraid of your weight added, Vit?” my many.

“No, no fear,” replied Vita.

“No formula he gained weight, want to eat anything and any time he body from SMA so mulu, make envy people know!” firda. “Padahat keep eating patterns not? How is this still like it from before? Oh I know you're too impassive times huh, Vit?”

“Only when say!” hatch Vita. “Mas here sit first while waiting for satay that I ordered to take home,” said Vita to me.

I finally sat down next to Vita. Just this time I was sitting in the street vendor's limb. With Nadira I never. Well-dressed Vita, Firda, Arif, and Tantri, they did not bother eating in a place like this. They have a high position in the office.

When Vita's satay order was finished, Vita and I went straight home. Vita sat next to me. Her cherry face that had been seen when with her friends turned into melancholy. He was quiet before I asked him to talk.

“You often eat in such a place, Vit?” my many.

“Iya often. That sate ayam madura our subscription,” replied Vita.

“Oh ...” says.

“You should try it, Mas. Here I buy it. You must not have eaten, right?” said it.

He knew I hadn't eaten. He seems to know so much about me? But I never knew about him.

“Ya has not eaten yet. Nadira was angry, did not want to be invited out, so I came home quickly, eh see you again eat diemperan?” my answer.

“Yes already, this I will buy for you, later eat, yes? You have to try it, surely it will be addictive,” he said by sharing his smile.

Does Arif like him? She is so sweet when she smiles. She is graceful, her appearance is modest, although a CEO she always shows low self-esteem in front of her staff and employees in the office. That's what I saw, when Vita took me around the company, so I could figure out the place, and the part inside the company.