Your charms are diverting my love

Goodbye

I better go. Than I hang out with people who don't love me at all. Yes I have to finish everything. I don't want my efforts to convince Mas Dani's heart to end up with something painful. I'll only get the pain, but not for Mas Dani's heart. I better go, I leave everything, I want to be free of all this.

After finishing the kitchen, I rushed straight to my room, but my steps stopped when I saw Nadira standing at the kitchen door.

“Vita, can we talk?” ask Nadira.

“Ya, can. Please just sit here,” I replied. I let Nadira sit on the dining table chair. “You said what?” my many.

“I'm sorry for that, Vit. You know my relationship with Mas Dani, right? You also certainly know how I feel when I hear Mas Dani is sick, and I really miss him,” Nadira said.

“Then?” ask again.

“I'm sorry I overdone, Vit.”

“Not every day is always excessive up to the neck and chest of Mas Dani full of traces of your kiss? Ownership sign from you,” I said.

Let me, let me talk as I am. Let him know who he's talking to. Let him know that what he's doing is wrong.

“I—iya, we often do it, Vit.” Nadira said with a sob.

“Have arrived inside? Or just touch each other, Nad?” ask me with a tight chest.

“Not yet, not yet inside. But, every day we are so, we satisfy each other even without doing it deeper,” explained Nadira.

“Since when? From you High School? Or when?”

“Since our lecture,” replied Nadira.

My chest is tight, since college they have done the act of the curse, although not to the inside. A kiss with a boyfriend has approached Zina, what about those who have done it like husband and wife? I really need to let go. They have done it since they were in college, there is no way Mas Dani can forget Nadira quickly. Did you say you want to learn to love me today has changed again? Will Nadira come back to Nadira? What if Mas Dani and I are in love? If Nadira appears most likely Mas Dani will return to Nadira?

I took off the two gift rings from Mas Dani. I gave up, but I didn't lose. I gave up because I didn't want to risk it if Mas Dani and I were together, Mas Dani's past came up again. I can't stand it, especially Mas Dani and Nadira have combined love almost every day. There was no way those good memories would simply disappear.

“This I leave to you, because you deserve to wear it, not me. I will take care of my divorce, so that Mas Dani can quickly marry you. You guys talk good with mom and dad, and your parents, Nad.”

“Vit, don't do this?”

“If this is not the case, you and Mas Dania will continue to commit adultery, Nad! With a legitimate me he won't touch me at all, he just wants and can touch you! Hold the ring, I don't deserve to wear it, Nad. Congratulations on fighting, fighting for the husband of the man!”

I held my tears. I ran straight to the room. I don't want to, I don't want to continue with Mas Dani anymore. I'm sure I can. I already love Mas Dani, but as much as I love Mas Dani, just look at my mind will be tormented, because Mas Dani does not love me sincerely.

I packed all my clothes, I put them in my suitcase. I convinced myself to leave Mas Dani. I don't want to survive in such a complicated relationship. The relationship that really makes me mean nothing. I am a wife, but I am not loved by my husband. My husband prefers to maintain a relationship with his past lover. Is it worth it to defend my husband? Taking her heart would be very difficult.

Moreover, I heard Nadira say in front of her friends that she loves Mas Dani very much, and their love is not approved by Mas Dani's family. I know how they feel about parting. Nadira will live with a man she does not love, and Mas Dani is the same.  Even though they both learned to love each other, I am sure that one day if they are reunited, their relationship will be established again, secretly. Moreover, Mas Dani plin-plan once the person.

I'm approaching Mas Dani. I looked at his face that was still a little pale, because he was not well at all. I rubbed his cheek, and I hugged him. “Sorry, Mom. I gotta go. I should have realized that love cannot be forced. Continue your relationship with Nadira. I talk to my mom and dad about this. I can't continue our marriage. The ring is inappropriate for me to wear, Mas.”

“Vit, don't put it this way, we're talking about fine.”

“We've talked about it well from afar. It's the path we chose to go our separate ways, isn't it, Mas? Yes, it is time. And, I know how strong your love and Nadira.” is

I let go of my embrace to Mas Dani. I took my suitcase and I stepped on my foot to get out of Mas Dani's house. “I go, Mas,” I say.

“Vita ... Vita .. wait for Vita, we'll talk about it. Don't do this, Vit!”

I guess all Mas Dani's guests have gone home, it turns out that in the living room there are still them, and there is Nadira too.

“Lapasin, Mom! I need time, I need to be alone, and I need to forget this one-year thing. One year of living with you.”

“What are you talking about, Vit? We're talking about it, Vit. I beg you not to gini, Vita?”

“Vit, you don't go, let me go,” Nadira said.

“If you leave, what will guarantee that Mas Dani will not come back to you? Can you guarantee Mas Dani forgets you forever, forgets all the memories with you since High School? If you can guarantee that I will survive,”. “But, I don't think so. Let me just go forget everything, because there is no way Mas Dani will love me and give his heart completely to me. If you consider me greedy, yes I am greedy, because I as a wife, only I can have the heart of a whole husband!”

“I better go. I am still whole, only my heart may not be whole, it is broken because I love myself. But my body is still intact, untouched by my husband. I've never opened a part of my body for my husband to enjoy. If I go, I just need to arrange my broken, broken heart and erase my alone love. For me it's easy, rather than forgetting the person who once touched our bodies. Are you going to forget Nadira easily, Mom? And you too, Nadira, will you easily forget Mas Dani? The answer is no. You have been in touch from High School, from college you often do it even though it has not yet reached the inside. Will you easily forget the person who touched your body with love? I don't think I can.”

“What are you talking about, Vit?”

“Indeed the reality is so, right, Mas? You only talk in your mouth. You said you'd learn to love me, but in your sleep you called Nadira. I've suffered enough inwardly all this time, Mas. Suffering because I already love you, because I must be able to accept you, I must be able to serve you, dedicate my life to people who do not love me at all, even you hate me!”

“You continue your relationship, talk well with your mom and dad, and Nadira's parents. Just get here, Mom. I'm goin. I'm leaving the office, Mas?”

I pull my suitcase, and I'm out, I'm gone. Really going to go. I was relieved to be able to talk like that in front of Mas Dani and Nadira. I talk to my mom and dad, and mom and dad. They should know, because I am still entrusted with the trust to take care of papa's company.

“Vita ... wait don't go!” Dani pulled my hand and stopped my steps.

“Bu Vita, Mr. Dani, Miss Nadira, you guys get this done. Don't be like this, each other wants to go. Talk carefully first, how a good way out,” said Mr. Irsya.

“Sorry, Mas Dani and I have agreed since Mas Dani started working in the office.  I will teach Mas Dani about the company, because Mas Dani will prove to mom and dad that he can, and after that I will leave everything to Mas Dani, and then Dani will divorce me. So what to talk about again, sir? It's clear, Mas Dani's goal was to know about the company so that he trusted papa, then he let me go, and married Nadira?” my clear. “I've left. After all Mas Dani can already about the company?” pamittu.

I called them to my house. Yeah, home. I already have my own home, but I don't live in it. There's only a maid to take care of it. I'll talk to them about it. Mama and papa should also be able to bless Mas Dani and Nadira.

“Goodbye Mas Dani.”