Your charms are diverting my love

The most beautiful memories

I'm getting ready for dinner with Mas Dani. But now I don't know where Mas Dani is, out of the room it's been over an hour. Maybe being on the phone with his girlfriend, from yesterday until tonight Mas Dani is focused on his work. I admit he deserves to be the Managing Director, replacing my role later when I'm done with Mas Dani.

I've been neat, and pretty enough in my opinion, because I've never been this excited to dance. How not the spirit, Mas Dani asked me to make a beautiful dance? Yeah okay I'll do what Mas Dani wants. I wear a maroon dress, short-sleeved, with a V neck model. Fortunately I brought this dress, somehow I just put the shirt in the suitcase, and I brought this party dress that I had never worn. I polish my face with a thin and natural make up. I really do not like the menor, sometimes I just want to expire powder, because I only wear thin.

I'm done dancing, but Mas Dani hasn't returned to the room yet. I don't know where he is, maybe he's still talking to Nadira until he forgets that he wants to have dinner with me. I opened the drawer, because I wanted to take the charger, and I saw Mas Dani's phone in the drawer, with it on, and Nadira's name on the screen. Nadira called Mas Dani. Mas Dani seems to deliberately set silent mode on his phone, because it only turns on when there is an incoming call from Nadira. Just light up without shakes, and ringtones. I just let him keep calling Mas Dani.

I was quite surprised after Nadira finished calling Mas Dani, it turned out that missed calls from Nadira up to hundreds of times, and there are messages also maybe up to hundreds of times as well. Maybe Mas Dani didn't tell him from yesterday, so it was natural that he contacted Mas Dani hundreds of times. I pretended not to know, I switched to sitting on the Sofa, waiting for Mas Dani by opening the incoming email, and checking the development of papa's company.

Twenty minutes of waiting for Mas Dani after he finished and made me worry about him. He left without his cell phone. I want to call him how, so I know where he is? I'm starting to worry that he's been leaving me too long. Mas Dani where I don't know, his phone was just left behind.

I heard the knocking of the door, I went straight to the door, saw from the peephole that was on the door, who was coming. I was so glad I saw who was coming. Dani came, and I opened the door.

“Mas ... Where the hell is it? Almost two hours?” ask me anxiously.

“Let's go out for a minute, buy this. This is for you.” I was surprised Mas Dani gave me a big bouquet of white roses.

“I—ini for me?” I was nervous with eyes that might have condensed, because I felt my eyes sore, wanting to drop tears. I was moved, again, because it was the first time someone as cold, as haughty, as Mas Dani gave flowers to me, smiling and without compulsion he gave them to me.

“Kok even cry? Wh why? Don't cry, have dandan beautiful, later your powder fade.” He said by wiping my tears that had escaped the corner of the eye, and wet the cheeks.

“Ah .. I am confused, shocked, moved, and do not know my current feelings. Seeing mas suddenly like this,” I said.

“Not crying, let's have dinner. Surely you are hungry because wait for me later,” invite him.

“Ah yes for a moment, I put this flower, just want to see my makeup just messy,” I replied.

Mas Dani followed me into the room who wanted to put flowers. I intended to take my phone as well, but Mas Dani asked me to leave his phone, arguing tonight, not wanting anyone to interfere.

“Mas sure don't bring hape?”

“Yakin, from this morning I put it in the drawer,” he replied.

“If Nadira calls?”

“And I told you I have a job, Vit?” answer Mas Dani.

“If she's angry?”

“Ish you're a nag, huh? Come on hunt, I'm hungry too. From there got stuck buying this. Though not too far from the flower shop,” said Mas Dani.

I'll do it, maybe he really wants to be with me. Let alone. Toh Mas Dani is still my husband, although based on religious law, he is no longer my husband, because it has turned me on.

“The road is so fast for you, Vit? Not afraid of kesleo what use high right brisk walk?” said Mas Dani with a voice that was a bit breathless, it seemed difficult to keep up with my path that was indeed too fast. Maybe because I'm used to the fast road using high heels so the same way Mas Dani just I was fast.

“Sorry, I'm used to maybe,”.

Mas Dani grabbed my hand, he grabbed my hand, we walked side by side down the hallway of the hotel. I thought Mas Dani would take me to a restaurant outside of the resort we rented, it turned out that Mas Dani prepared a beachside dinner so romantically in my opinion. Yeah romantic, because I didn't expect Mas Dani to prepare like this.

“Come sit, why even dumbass?” ask Mas Dani.

“Bungung alone, mas again possessed by demons what, huh? How can this be?” my answer.

“Not to be confused. This I have specially prepared for you, special on your birthday,” said Mas Dani.

“Thank you, Mas,” I said with amazement.

I sat opposite Mas Dani. He also looks handsome, and his makeup looks neat like never before. The waiter brought food that Mas Dani might have ordered. I'm enjoying this historic night. Yes, historic, because tonight will no longer be possible in my life. Romantic dinner, and flowers from the man I loved after becoming my husband.

“How's the cooking, good?” ask Mas Dani.

“Enak, this is so delicious,” I replied. “Different from this morning,”.

“Can be special for you,” he said.

“It looks like from earlier special mulu yes, Mas?” my spoken.

“Kan today, your special day, Vit?”

I just smiled with my head down. “Unfortunately only last night,” said I'm clean.

“How many nights do you want?” ask Mas Dani.

“Eh, how do you hear?” I was embarrassed to hear my words.

“You said it a bit loud, so I heard. How many nights do you want to specialise?”

“Ah has not been discussed about this, Mas,” I said embarrassed.

Mas Dani occasionally feeds me, to taste his ordered food. Indeed, the food that Mas Dani ordered is different menu. I also feed Mas Dani, to taste my food.

Finish eating Mas Dani invites me to dance.

“Dansa?” I want to make sure again.

“Ya, dance. Want to dance with me, Vit?”

“Ehm ... Can you?” my many.

“Slight.” The answer. “Ayo.” Dani stuck out her hand, and I wanted to dance with her. Classical music accompanies us to dance.

Every now and then I look at the very handsome face of Mas Dani tonight. Her face was clean, her nose was sharp, her lips were so beautiful. God truly created the man that was in front of me.

Maybe if tonight I haven't bagged the lawsuit, I'll pour out all my heart, that I love you, Mas Dani. But, I realize I'm just a wife. I'm not the woman Mas Dani wants, not the woman Mas Dani loves. I am only his wife, but there is no me in his heart.

“Iya, how, Vit?” ask Mas Dani.

“Thank you so much for tonight. At least, before we parted I had the most beautiful memories with my husband, even though I was still intact, and you haven't touched. I'm happy tonight. Seeing the figure of Mas Dani who from the beginning married me he was arrogant, cold, angry, and other attitudes, which sometimes scared me myself to meet you face to face. Tonight, maybe I'm doing this just for a memento with me. Yes, just limited to hanging good memories as my birthday gift, and parting gift,” I said with tears in my eyes. “One more time thank you, Mas.” I broke down the smile by swallowing my saliva, because my throat was dry withstanding the crying.

“Yes, equally, Vita. I'm sorry, Vit. Love cannot be forced. I just don't want to touch you without love. I try to learn, and keep learning, but I still can't. Yes, maybe tonight is a very rare night in my life. I dare to take you like this, close to you, but again, my feelings have not been able to love you, Vit. So why do we stay together? In fact, it will add wounds in our hearts,” said Mas Dani.

Why continue a relationship without love? Maybe tonight Mas Dani just wants to make me happy, at the end of our time to be together. Maybe after tonight, we'll be busy with our business again.  Mas Dani was busy with Nadira, and I was busy to forget Mas Dani, removing the traces of Mas Dani that were already in my heart.

“What did you say, Mas. Why are we together, if there is no love? Survival will be free. So it's better to just split up. Let me explain to my parents later, maybe to your parents. The one I asked for, I wanted to make my dad and mom proud. Mas can judge papa and mama to take care of his company, right? I want you to accept that. Mas already let them down because our marriage failed, please don't disappoint them in that,”.

“Iya, Vit. I promise, I will try my best to be able to handle papa's company. I also know, with me divorcing you, they will definitely be disappointed. So, I will try, to make papa and mama proud because I want to hold his company, and maybe if my early retirement is not accepted, I will leave my profession to become a teacher,” said Mas Dani.

“And another one I asked for, Mas.” My words stopped, I took a heavy breath, I actually did not want him with Nadira, I just wanted Mas Dani to be my only one.

“What do you ask for again, Vit?”

“I ask, don't do anything with Nadira before we completely part ways. Please, don't enslave yourself for love, Mom. Don't make a disgrace in your life, Mas. He is a teacher, he is a teacher. A teacher was bullied and imitated by his student. Mas do not want it, if one day the students mas there is something like that? Please guard yourself from the temptations that make you regret later on. Love can mislead everything, can it? Moreover, the love of the world, and the love of fellow men. Sometimes because of love, the wrong is right, and the right is wrong. What is not good so good can also be,” I said.

Dani was silent looking at me. Closer and closer. I didn't keep my face away, just let our eyebrows stick together. And, I saw Mas Dani crying, somehow she cried after I spoke like that.

“Why?” my many.

“I'm sorry, Vit. All this time I've always hurt you. Right you say, because right love can be wrong. Yes I was wrong, I did it with Nadira, who was not who I was, and I touched her, although not to the depth, I knew it was wrong. But, because my love is so passionate, we do that, until Nadira put everything in order for me to touch,” he said.

“Then you touched it?” I asked, and Mas Dani just shook his head.

“No Vit, because ...”

“Because what?”

“I remember you. You saved me that night, somehow all I remember and I saw was your face that night. Until Nadira was angry, until now he was angry with me because I rejected him,” said Mas Dani.

“Why can you remember me?” my many.

“I don't know, your shadow was suddenly present that night.”

I smiled, looked at Mas Dani, and wiped his tears. “It turns out I became your savior when you were willing to do something bad. Thankfully, nothing happened. Patience, wait until later when we are done in court. Do not complicate your life just because of the momentary pleasure, Mas,” said I.

“You are indeed the best woman, Vit. Women who can take good care of yourself, women who are rarely in this world,” said Mas Dani.

“Don't be too complimentary, Mas. It's yuh, it's night,” I said.

“Before a while, I want to give you a gift,” he said and he reached into his pants pocket. “This is for you.” Mas Dani gave a red box, like a ring box but bigger. I don't know what the box contains.

“I—ini what, Mas?” my many.

“Just open,” answer.

I opened it slowly. A necklace with my name's initial pendant, which Mas Dani gave me.

“Sorry that's all I can give you, Vit. I can't give you a diamond-encrusted pendant, I haven't been able to,” he said.

“Mas, this is for me?”

“Iya, for you. Who else if not for you?” answer Mas Dani.

“This is wrong, Mas? You love my necklace?” ask again, make sure. Although it is certain, because the necklace has the initials V.

“Ya for you, Vit. Who else is that your initials?” answer Mas Dani.

“Still yes, Mas?” my spoken.

“Iya, sorry Just can say that,” he said.

“It's okay, I wear it, yes?”

“This is what I'm using.” I turned my body, turned my back to Mas Dani, and Mas Dani put the necklace on me.

“Good necklace, thank you, Mas,” I said by staring at Mas Dani's face.

“Ya, equally.” He answered me, then lifted my chin and brought his face closer to mine. I knew he was going to kiss my lips, but I avoided him, and I kissed Mas Dani's cheek.

“Do not like that. Don't leave anything I can never forget in my entire life. Maybe even something like this I will find it difficult to forget when separated later, especially with a mas kiss my lips? Can I forget something I've just felt in my life? While this simple thing you gave me, I've only ever felt it. Do not add memories that will be difficult to forget, Mas,”.

“You talk like that, do you love me, Vit?” ask Mas Dani.

I just fell silent, staring at Mas Dani's face. Want me to answer yes, but how can I answer honestly, while Mas Dani does not love me? I cannot beg for his love. Soon this relationship will end.

“Vit, why not answer? Do you love me, Vita?” ask Mas Dani.

“Love. Maybe people can love because they are used to being together. However, loving but not being loved, is a simple art of painting wounds. Yeah, maybe it's just a wound I'll get, if I love you. There is no reply, and already from the beginning, you always say, you do not love me,” I replied. “Let's go back to the room, it's night. I'm tired, so sleepy,” take me.

“Iya, let's go back to the room,” Mas Dani replied.

I turned my body around, and I left Mas Dani. I don't want to, I'm too late tonight with Mas Dani. I walked ahead of him. The fragrance of Mas Dani's perfume still sticks to my dress, scented, soothing. I walk by occasionally wiping my tears. Tonight is over, and this marriage with Mas Dani is coming to an end.

Thank you for tonight, a night that will probably be a wonderful and historic memory of my life. The night I was with the man I loved so much. Getting flowers, having a romantic dinner, dancing with him, and this necklace, a gift from Mas Dani, maybe these are the memories from him before we actually parted ways.

After tonight is over, I will live my life as usual again. Watching Mas Dani return with Nadira. And, for that honeymoon ticket, whether I'm leaving or not. I'm confused myself. If I go to Paris. I'm afraid, taku increasingly can't forget Mas Dani, afraid to get too close to him, without being stuck, and make me crumble because of him. Making me drift away from his cradle and caress that he might do because he was forced to. No. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to do it with people who don't love me. Especially obviously he's been stalking me.