Your charms are diverting my love

Seizing My Husband's Heart

Dani held my hand. And put it on his stomach. She was still leaning on my arm, and touching the ring on my ring finger that she pinned the first moment after saying her sacred promise.

“Vit, I'm sorry, huh? I've done you a lot of wrong, but you're still very nice to me. Even when I fell this way because of other women, you can still be beside me,” said Mas Dani.

“Iya, I understand. Love can't be forced, Mom. How else would you like? Yes, right?” my answer.

“If Nadira is right go, Vit?” ask Mas Dani.

“Yes I don't know, it's a business with him? Finish it well, Mom. Don't use emotions,”.

If Nadira leaves, will you go? How you gonna do it again? It was already the best for her, rather than snatching people's husbands? Not necessarily they will be happy if married? Not necessarily Nadira can be a good wife and daughter-in-law? Especially the way they got married by getting rid of me? Clearly wrong. But how else?  They love each other?

“Vit, do you love me?” ask Mas Dani.

“Why ask that again? Already know last night what the answer is, right?” my answer.

“Are you the choice of mom and dad, Vit? Until every time what I'm going to do with Nadira, it's always your shadow that appears?”

“What do you mean, Mas?” my many.

“Doing the wrong thing I should not do to Nadira,” he replied. “You always saved me, Vit.”

“Maybe, when you will do it, I remember the sin of my mother and papa, who have been lying,” said.

“Can we fix this wedding, Vit?”

Fix marriage? I'm very happy to hear it, but I know, at most this is just a momentary emotion Mas Dani, because yesterday heard the news that Nadira will be betrothed. Did I just accept Mas Dani's request? It could be that if I do, Mas Dani will change, he can love me, and make me the only woman in his heart. But, if only emotions for a moment? I'll be hurt again for sure.

“If you want to fix it can you be consequent with your request, Mas? I mean, if Nadira doesn't go, are you still going to want to fix our marriage? Aren't you going to change your mind?” I said to confirm Mas Dani's request.

I don't want, when I do, she starts learning to accept me and love me, she falters again with her stance. I know this Mas Dani wavers easily, he's a plan once the man, still like a child who is unstable.

“It's impossible that Nadira didn't leave, Vit. Because his transfer letter from Dinas has gone down, and he next month has started teaching at a new school close to his home. And, after that he will marry a man who is betrothed by both parents,” said Mas Dani.

“Vit, I realize, all this time I was wrong. I have a woman beside me who is so perfect, I have a woman who understands my daily life, understands everything about me, but I do not know you from the past, only know you are Vita, he said, you're the woman I've been betrothed to, I don't know what you look like, but you know so much about me. There is no woman like you, Vit,” said Mas Dani.

“I do that, trying to understand you, because you are my husband, my price field, even though you balk at me, and do not love me, what can I do? I am your wife, and my duty is to honor you, keep your good name, and be devoted to you,”.

“There is no woman like you, Vit. Which I am angry with, but you can still hold your cry in front of me, which I ignore, but you still be kind to me, maybe besides you, my actions have been complained to your parents, he said, or my parents. Maybe even on Arif, the person you may have liked in the past, but you prefer to keep it yourself, and maybe only the story on Firda, it was not with my lawsuit,” said Mas Dani.

“For what recounts the disgrace of our marriage, Mas? If it is like that, yes I can only live it, Mas. If I complain, it's the same that I broke our parents' hearts, and if I get to tell Arif, there will be new problems. I am a woman who has a husband, when I tell other men about my marriage, it means I invite a third person in our marriage, Mas. Firda is all I have for my grief, and I'm sure he feels the pain I feel. He's the only friend I trust, Mas,”.

“I think you are a weak, crybaby, and a madman. You are a rare woman in this world. When the storm hits you, you can still stand strong, you can smile, and everyone believes you are okay. Though I know, that night when I gave you the talaq letter, you were devastated, but the next morning, you were so ordinary, appearing in public like no problem, you could smile, you could smile, and convince everyone that you're okay.”

“What if I'm sad, I have to show my sadness in everyone's forehead? Do I have to mourn my fate in front of everyone? It's not like that, is it, Mas? I don't want people to know the hurt of my heart, I don't want what's going on with me. I have my own private room, and I have one room for me to share my manhood, which is only with Firda, from the time he was my confiding friend, since I knew him until now, he said, and he really kept my trust well, that's why I trusted him, trusted him so much.”

“Vit, let's fix everything, I'll talk to my lawyer, and we'll meet with the clergy, for a consultation about the talaq I've said,” pinta Mas Dani.

“You sure of that? Already steady and not waver?” my many.

“Yes, I'm sure, Vit.”

“Mas, never play wedding. If you're sure you're gonna drop your lawsuit, I hope you're not doing anything you've done before. I hope you can forget all your past, or finish your past first, then you think about continuing this marriage, because I don't want you to waver again, I want you to convince your heart first, I want you to, to love me. I stick to my stance, I don't want you to touch, if you don't love me yet. I don't want to, I do it just out of lust, not out of love. Although love and lust are different. Sometimes out of lust, love grows. But, I don't want to be like that, I want you to love me first, then we continue our marriage. You get it, right?”

Let it be, I stick to my stance. I don't want to be touched, even if he's my husband, but if there's no love for what touch? Is it nice to be touched without love, and only use lust?

“Yes, I will learn to love you, steadying my heart for you. I'll drop my lawsuit from today, Vit. Help me, so I can love you,” pinta Mas Dani.

“Yes, I'll help you, Mas. I have to remember, I want you to love me first, then we do that, and before that, we go to the religious leaders, to talk about the talaq that you have said,”.

“Thank you, Vit, you gave me a chance,” said Mas Dani.

“May mas not waste this opportunity I gave you,”.

Dani kissed my hand, then hugged me. I know his heart is broken. And this is my chance to win my husband's heart and love.