Your charms are diverting my love

A Woman whose Heart Is Hard to Guess

Vita ... Vita .. You made me like this. I was really the first time I ever looked at Vita's face that close. She's beautiful, sweet, her nose is sharp, her cheeks are smooth, absolutely perfect. My heart why is it still like this? He's gone, Dan. You can't do this, remember your purpose. And, you don't love her!

I continue my work. It's not that hard if I understand everything. But still I am still very confused, I was first given a task like this. Usually I make reports from the Education Department, and reports of all sorts related to schools. Now even make reports like this.

I still feel the smell of Vita perfume on my shirt. The vanilla fragrance is still stuck on my shirt, making me a little relaxed to get back to work, plus the coffee fragrance that Vita made. Yeah, I got to be excited about doing all this. Although my goal is to keep Nadira, I don't care. Because somehow I can't love Vita. So I can't hold Vita for long either. I've been trying to love Vita for eight months, but I just can't love her.

It's been twenty minutes I've been working on everything, but there are still some unfinished ones, because I don't understand. I was waiting for Vita to come, but she hadn't come to my room yet. Let's just say I saw what Vita was doing. I corrected her work, I likened her answer to the key to the answer, and I don't think, everything Vita did was wrong. I went back and forth again to correct, for fear that I had even the wrong correction, but it turned out to be true everything that Vita was doing. He's really smart, this much with thirty minutes, a hundred, nothing wrong at all.

I haven't opened my phone yet either. Has not told Nadira, if starting today I become a director at papa company. I picked up my phone, I was in silent mode. And after I opened it, there were a lot of messages coming in and missed calls from Nadia. There were dozens of missed calls and messages from Nadira.

“Mas, where are you going anyway? Nervous home, not picked up? You today strange know!”

“Oh yes, I know you today started working in your papa company, huh? Who will be close to your wife continue dong? Good, not only learn the company, but learn to fall in love also with your wife!”

“Mas, later tonight so, right?”

“Mas, we have not been together for a long time, since you want to learn the company. I know what you're like for, but not like this, Mas. Not how. Our relationship cannot continue, Mom! Our world is different, you are married. As hard as we can keep and continue this relationship, I'm sure it will be for nothing. My parents asked me when I got married? I can't possibly answer I'm waiting for you to part with your wife, right?”

I read one message from Nadira. Indeed, I have lately been too busy with work in school, coupled with my passion for learning, because I want to get away from Vita. I wanted to let go, because I knew he was tormented in this bond. I don't love him, I just love Nadira. Whether Vita loves me or not, it's none of my business. I fought all this for Nadira, and Vita agreed.

“You're patient yes, dear. Give me some time, I'll finish this. It's for you, Nadira. I'm now given papa's mandate to be a director here. Papa didn't stop me from leaving at what time, the important thing is that I finish my job at school, we can still meet. Come home from work, I'll go to you, we'll get out, we'll walk. I miss you, Nad.”

I knew he must be mad at me, because I was busy myself. Usually coming home from school we walk together first, have lunch together, I take him to his house, and there also I was long, waiting for the afternoon, sometimes doing assignments from school, school, let's have a nice evening call with Nadira, or if there's time we walk together again.

Nadira is not home with her parents. He chose to buy housing close to his teaching location. After being transferred to a teaching assignment, and having a school with me, Nadira bought a house that was closer to the school. His parents' house is in a different district. So I'm free at Nadira's house, at any hour, and all this time Nadira's parents don't know about our relationship. How would Nadira and I tell Nadira's parents? If I was from High School already betrothed to Vita?

“I have to wait until when, Mom? Try when, Mom? I've been waiting for the uncertain to date. From High School I'm still loyal to you, even though your mama told me that you've been betrothed to Vita. You have always said you want to rebel, want to resist hard, but where? You can't fight it, can you? As of now there is no clarity, Mas!”

I stare at my phone screen after reading a message from Nadira. Yeah, I hung him too long. I can't be firm. How can I be assertive, if mom and dad still match me with Vita. I can refuse as long as I want to work at papa's company. I refused it, because I didn't like it.  Now I just realized, if I had obeyed papa I might have been with Nadira.

“I can not fight, because I have refused papa to plunge in the same world as papa, Nad. Please understand this situation, Nad,” reply me.

“Until what, Mas? Then why not follow the footsteps of your father to become a businessman? Can we be together?”

“It is not that easy, I chose college with you, and until now still together, because I do not want to be far from you, Nad!”

“Now what? Gini, right? No clarity?! We shouldn't be together, Mas!”

“Nad, don't look like this dong, Nad. I beg ... Are you patient, Nad? Give me time to convince papa.”

I'm really confused. Yes, I should have obeyed papa a long time ago, so I avoided an arranged marriage with Vita. I don't know what else to do, but I have to stay like this, prove to papa that if I can, I can be what you and your mom want me to be, and I'd be easy to part with Vita, if I had mastered all. I will also be clarifying my relationship with Nadira soon.

I put my phone down. Free to argue with Nadira via chat or phone. Later I go to his house too he will melt again if I am beside him. I get it, he's angry because I'm busy, I haven't been to his house since yesterday, and we rarely go out together.

“Ehem .. sorry to interrupt,”.

“Eh, Mr Dani? How are you here, Vit?” ask Arif.

“Oh Yes, Rif. Mas Dani has replaced papa here, so Mas Dani is studying here, I was actually guiding him earlier, but you came here to discuss a new project, so I forgot, I forgot,” reply Vita.

“Oh, so?” arif. “Then welcome to join, Mr. Dani.” Arif cheered on me, I just smiled.

“Iya, this is learning,” I said.

“Ya already, Vit. Later continue only. Oh yes later tonight so with Firda too?” ask Arif to Vita.

“So dong, this is a project that must gool anyway, Rif,” replied Vita spirit.

“You are always excited if this is the case,” said Arif smiled proudly at Vita. “Ya I've already announced my return, Vit, Mr. Dani,”.

“Iya, Ref. Careful,” replied Vit.

“Oh yes,” I replied briefly.

Arif came home, and I saw Vita whose eyes were still fixed on Arif who was getting away.

“Arif is gone, don't keep looking! It's worth you up to half an hour less behind my room, it turns out the same ex! Uh her ex or boyfriend?” my spoken. And, for some reason I'm so annoyed that Vita is friendly and pretentious to smile with Arif.

“I work professionally, Mr Danial! Not like you and your boyfriend! Work but friendly!” hatch Vita. “Log in to the room, I check your work!” her word.

Damnit damnit! He's so mean. Okay, he's a professional, but I know you guys still seem to love each other. I don't know, I'm gonna be a sewot I'll see?! I followed Vita into my room, I wanted to ask her what she would do tonight with Arif.

“You want to go out tonight with Arif?” my many.

“Iya, why?” he answered casually by checking my work.

“You what?”

“Kepo!” it's the one that pisses me off. “Since when do you take care of where I'm going and what do you want?” continued.

“Yes is okay. I'll go to Nadira's house tonight, go home from here I go straight to rumonly,” I told Vita.

“Then what's the deal with me? I don't usually want to go there, do I? Tell me if there's a papa I can find an excuse? Relax it's normal, Mom. I've always been looking for reasons to lie, cover you who are still with Nadira!” the answer is relaxed but straightforward.

She's a really hard woman to guess, I don't even know how she feels right now.