The Pain of Loving in Silence

Episode 7 Home school

    Following my decision to take home school, I started it today for the next two years until the national exam was conducted. By following this learning system I can manage my study time with my will, of course at a fairly expensive cost. The cost of my life is entirely paid from the monthly money my parents gave me from my allowance.

" Sister Noldi gave me an unlimited credit card but I didn't use it, because I wasn't entitled to any of it.

"I'm not like other rich kids who use money as they please without understanding how much they have to give up for making money, not just taking the time, but even smiling.

"Every day I was home schooling from 10 am to night at exactly 9.00 pm, not without any reason all so that my study was completed quickly, so that I could meet my family's expectations.

"the first day is over as well.

" i felt hungry, rushed me to go to the kitchen to take food, since I had eaten.

"hfffffff was full of my mumbling in the heart.

Oya ... according to his orders, I am forbidden to wait for Brother Noldi.

Believing in disbelief, I am getting used to my current life.

"I began to limit all the activities I did outside, and only study time filled my day.

"The second day of our marriage was the last day I saw and heard Noldi's voice, whether she was where she was at the moment.

May his days be happy.

"Miss.call Cia from the back simultaneously ripping me from my lonely nuances with all my thoughts.

" he ...there is Cia, I replied

"So sir sent a message that he was going to Qatar to see his father and mother, no need to wait for him.

"Alright, I answered briefly and passed.

I went to my room and for a moment I thought that I wanted to change my mood by decorating my room.

But this room isn't mine, so I'm afraid to touch and even move things that aren't mine.

"Cia .. I want you to clean the room to the east of this house.

"All right, miss, but why did you clean the room?

"i want to make it my room.

" As long as you're not home, I want to have my own room.

" anything I need to prepare, Miss, continued Cia...

Slowly as time passed I continued to enjoy my life in loneliness,

Slowly but surely this is the last year I was in second grade High School well of course still with home schooling system.

This third year I will go through it as well as last year with a home schooling system.

"Ahhhhhhh tired of feeling. Oh, time goes by, I miss my parents, I want to see them soon.

" Miss...

" he is Cia, the room has been tidied up let me help the lady to pack so that she can move immediately.

"alright Cia, I answered briefly.

" It was actually very difficult for me to leave this room but I had to get used to not wishing and asking for more than what I was getting right now.

"Like love that can accept and understand, that's how I taught my heart not to be hurt by love.

" although there is a great feeling in this heart for him but what can I do.

time like I want to enjoy it with loneliness, I can't even deny I'm starting to forget how to smile.

like the wind that blows in his mind and I that enjoy life.

　

" Cia ..please tomorrow at noon you buy some of the items that I have written on this list.

"well miss...

"and don't forget to set this one week my home school schedule starts at 8:00 am and ends at 8:00pm.

"well miss..

"now ... Go and rest.

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AHHHHHHHH

so tired, I rushed to take a shower and sleep.