The Pain of Loving in Silence

Episode 6 Reality

"To be with him at this time for me is enough, I must not demand much from him, it will only make him further away and will go away from me, he said, I could restrain myself at all costs even though the pain was as excruciating as it was torn apart".

There may not be anyone as stupid as me in this world, who risked his life for the sake of his desire to stay with a loved one even though the possibility of reciprocation of his love does not exist.

" Let me feel it, I murmured in my heart.

"Bagy morning.., I said.

...Morning caca, he said

"Please don't call me affectionate, he continued in a cold tone full of emphasis.

"alright, brother, call me.

" today I will send a personal assistant to take care of you, he will drive you around this house while introducing each side of this house, so that you are easy to live here.

" well, I say it short.

" today I will be very busy, and will be home late at night so don't wait for me.

" well, my brother.

"He passed and left without a word and a kiss.

"i have to get used to my murmuring in my heart.

"i enjoyed my breakfast alone in the quiet.

"I love him with all my soul and body, though it hurts when our presence is not considered.

" i have to get used to all this because everything happened because of my request.

Like yesterday I spent my day with my personal assistant, all my needs are taken care of by him. For me the loneliness will be my loyal friend.

Dad, Mom I miss you guys so much, my whine.

It didn't feel like the afternoon was coming, to kill the quiet I was doing swimming practice, because my biggest dream was to become an international swimming athlete. I spent three hours in the pool honing my devotional speed.

Kingk.kringk.

"hello kak ....

" how's sister doing ?

"well sis,sahutku..

"yes take good care of yourself brother did not have time to see you, Father and Mother asked me to immediately follow them because the company needs the help of brother, finish your school well, brother will pick you up later.

"alright, my brother.

"See you, he replied. tut.tut the voice disappeared behind the phone.

For another 2 years, I'm here and I want to give her memories, for her that I love until I leave her here with the taste that I have.

At night, as he said, I did not have to wait for him to come home.

 I headed to my room after finishing my dinner in silence.

"in addition to swimming, I also love to write. I write whatever I experience in the diary.

For me the diary I wrote was my best friend who would listen to all my stories, whatever I poured in my diary was all about my love journey from day to day.

uahhhhhhhhhhh...

drowsiness approached me, I hurried to save my book and went to sleep immediately.

 Before deep in my sleep, I turned to my side right where I missed someone beside me.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

I have to get used to it, if there is something you have to bear by loving it it means you just need to fight, Nothing is in vain even though sometimes what you struggle for the end result is different.

Slamat sleeps I say to my teddy bear.

" It was as if being lulled into a dream that I fell asleep without realizing all the circumstances and just hoping that everything would be okay by the time I started to open my eyes in the morning.