The Pain of Loving in Silence

Episode 34 Aging

"An unusual morning, when I woke up a sweet smile on my lips saw a heavy hand tightly coiled in my stomach, my love and my world, lying with me, his sleep was very deep,I don't know when I last saw this beautiful and peaceful face, I didn't feel my tears dripping and thought about what my life would be like without him.

"Dearly darling....., as the saying unfurled my daydreams, it turned out that the owner of my heart was awake and smiling sweetly as he moved and leaned on my shoulder.

"morning, my neighbor wiped my tears.

"is there a tear on your cheek this morning? he raised the plow towards his face.

"sister?

"he, she answered

""if I ask for something, will you give it to me?ask me with a face that is trying hard.

"of course baby, while hugging me, baby what do you want?

"i just want to be together, and wherever you go I want to go.why can't I give you all that?ask me seriously.

"hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, taking a long sigh noldi let go of a hug and led me to stand right in the window of the room.

"honey .....many things in this world that we may have but can not always be in our grasp, But believe all that there is a purpose and purpose, while hugging tightly.

"hearing noldi's words made my heart cut, it hurt so much to hear it straight away, I know my happiness today is a dream that will soon end, without realizing my tears are flowing again, I know my happiness today is a dream that will soon be over,while biting my lips I tried to control my inner tightness, I took off the hug slowly and went to the bathroom to clean myself .

"honey....the voice of brother noldi called me, but by still biting my lips I continued to shy regardless.

        The rush of this shower water flush blends real with the swiftness of my cries, until this chest tightens unbearable vibration makes all this like a nightmare, he said,until this moment I had not been able to fully make excuses for him to remain by his side, I did not understand this destiny of my love, nor did my heart just want it, she said, I have never regretted making her my life partner but maybe this is my reward for having it by imposing my will,although this marriage is my wish and the man I am with is the man I want to be but why to have it is so difficult.

There are a lot of questions in this mind.

Tok...tok...tok..hopefully.kok really long,

"soon I started my activities and went to get out of the bathroom .

Passing in front of the bathroom, I couldn't help but look at her, so I passed by without welcoming her words.

Rushing I was wearing clothes when noldi broke into the bathroom, I was just trying to fortify myself by not expecting to rely on her too much.

This stomach was very hungry, rushing to the lower floor of the house to cook, although not very able to cook but I just wanted to do my duty.

"while passing bring omlet dishes to the table, we sarpan first, I said briefly as I passed.

"owhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, dear the voice sounded while stepping following me.

The atmosphere of this morning's breakfast, decorated only with the sound of interlocking spoons and forks and the sound of chewing, there is no obrolah at all.

When the breakfast was over I quickly cleaned the cutlery.

"sayangk.

"well, my brother without expression.

When I want to drop off coffee, why do my tears want to drip so much that I put the coffee in my hand on the table, and wipe the rough tears that almost dripped, while trying to calm my mind.

I took the coffee and drove it, too,but when I wanted to step onto the balcony I heard the voice of the conversation and it was certain it was a phone call and I decided to stay not far from the door to the balcony and listen to their conversation.

"hello..hello francs, said noldi.

"hello.........

"what's wrong?ask noldi in a serious tone.

"boss, this transaction was initiated by several gangsters from several countries? are we going to take part or are we going to forget about it?

"hmmmmmmmm, there was a long breath of noldi, without hesitation ........Of course our group should be there to take over the transaction, please arrange everything we need, try to bring our water troops to move quickly ,sink the gun carrier and tow it to our base, then order our air forces to stand guard against possible attacks from other fleets,and also the fleet on the ground is also deployed to keep an eye on the gangster troops that roam there, and must remember not to this mission detected by the other gangster forces that will cause battle.

"alright, ready to go, but who will take command of the mission this time?ask frans

"frans.....I'm the one who will take over this mission, tonight I will go to the base to make sure everything is ready for the mission.

"alright boss..........

"and also frans don't forget.....teo should not know this, because you know his sister she is the woman I married, of course there will be new problems that arise, of course,you know what our lives are like outside.

Like being struck by lightning, my heart was very shocked, when I knew that noldi would leave again, and what made me sad was the speech that called me the woman he married, he said,which unconsciously means my presence in his life only as a woman who married because of friendship with business partners.

"trying hard, I entered without permission and also the end of the phone, this brother coffee, while putting it on the table and slightly developing a smile on my lips even though I had to, then left without waiting for him to answer me.