The Pain of Loving in Silence

Missed Episode 43

"Like I can never understand you, not because I don't love you, don't love you or don't pay attention to you, but because I haven't been able to find my meaning for you".

At 4:00 am

Hmmmmmmm, I complained that suddenly I felt someone open the door of the room, as if to make sure by opening a little closed eyes that were reluctant to open because of the late drowsiness that dominated.

Instantly the desire disappeared by itself and I was lulled into my beautiful sleep.

My longing for her is so great sometimes I cry not out of sorrow but out of tightness in the chest cavity because I miss her, this longing feels like a haunting nightmare, it's like a haunting nightmare,sometimes I see him standing straight and without a smile in every corner of this room and sometimes I smell his distinctive scent and the one thing I miss is a spoiled slumber in his lap.

Because missing him so much right now was real, he fell asleep beside me, his scent calmed my heart taming my stubbornness and like magic capable of carving a smile on my lips,a moment from the cradle of the beautiful dream I said a sincere prayer that when I opened my eyes this morning everything I had longed for became a reality.

At 6:30pm

Eyes feel heavy but I forced to occasionally wriggle from my sleep and try to gather my intention to wake up immediately, but I felt something strange right up front, there was a warm breath and well....... as soon as my brain cleared up and reacted, I spontaneously opened my eyes and Deg........ My heart stopped beating, the handsome face that was in front of me firmly and full of charisma, immediately I closed my eyes and I opened it again to make sure what I saw was real was not a hallucination, and it was real,he came murmuring me inwardly while smiling shyly making my cheeks flushed like tomatoes.

"Dearly darling, the sauce.......

"pa.. mornin, I replied gugub , how not this great surprise of my beautiful dream, lakak when it came, I was full of nervousness

"all night while you were asleep, he answered briefly while kissing my forehead with my lips, the morning slam of my world, his words in my ears gave me goosebumps.

"Sir ..call me spoiled, as if to ask him many things, he said,

"hmmmm, he answered while turning to lay his body beside me while closing his eyes.

"Darling...ini papa, how are you in mom's belly?he murmured while kissing my stomach.

"hearing that remark, spontaneous made me ask, didn't you know I was pregnant? manya curious.

"hmmmmmm, Frans who gives the news, let me hug you, I miss you, friend me for a moment here.

"sister..my gestational age just entered the third week, said the doctor I have to check the pregnancy often to find out the development of the fetus.

"do the best according to the doctor's advice, later in the afternoon I will invite you to see an obstetrician, this doctor who specifically handles a need during pregnancy.

"Will my sister go to work again? I asked with a voice that held back tears,

"caca.

"whatever it? much

"of course, the answer is short.

Hearing Noldi's words made me very calm and also blushed happily, Lord I want to learn to be the ideal wife for her.

"caca, let's accompany me to rest for a while, after that we will spend all the time together, he said while hugging me and pulling a blanket over his body, I also followed and stayed in his arms,enjoying the scent of his body that brings me back to the dream, the fragrance that I missed, the fragrance that was able to take away all my sadness, I love you my husband.

We were late in a beautiful sleep.