The Pain of Loving in Silence

Episode #64 How to

"if only time can be replayed, many situations will be repeated so that there are no regrets there.

Looking pensive looking caca staring out the window of his room, when the drizzling rain adds to the quiet mood where the heart is sad because of the loss. What can I do? I haven't had a chance to grasp your tiny fingers, but fate has separated us. Mom's fault is to go to that place, but if you don't catch up with me, I don't know what's going to happen. Forgive my children's mother.

"caca, what are you thinking? 'the sound of defending your silence from the direction of the room door made Caca wipe her tears then turned towards the voice and it turned out that it was Mr. Frans.

Caca: brother, since when did you stand there?, asked Caca as if he wanted to tickle from the situation at that time.

Frans: brother just came in and found my sister was pensive in her daydreams, can you know what my sister is thinking?, you know what she is thinking?, Frans asked while rubbing the shoulder as if giving comfort to tell a story.

Brother, can I just disappear from this world? I can't stand all this, it hurts a lot.

Frans: my sister, all this has happened, and we cannot stop it, but you must continue your life, rest well in order to recover soon, your table exams will be held soon, and it will be held through online only, everything has father and Theo set.

Caca: well brother, and thank you for taking care of the caca so far brother.

Frans: it doesn't matter who my sister is, if not who we are anymore.

Caca: brother can I join in studying business with my sister in the company of my sister? I'm so tired of not doing anything.

Frans: if you want to join brother, if you want to, actually there is no problem only you know your own business field is quite dangerous and if you join it could be your husband does not allow and it will make it difficult for you to talk.

Caca: brother, I don't want to know about Noldi does he care about me so far? Even up to this second he wasn't trying to get me, maybe for him I was trash.

Frans: my brother who dares to consider you trash, does not exist and will never exist. Caca brother can set up a company in your name and you can manage it as a leader there, you choose what business field you want to go in.

Caca: I'm not grateful for the offer, but if you object to my request, then I'm not forcing you. I just want to learn not be pitied, so I beg you let me rest first.

Frans: caca not so mean sister, but all this sister already considering it.

Caca: okay brother.

"Frans left the room at his sister's request, heavily stepping to the west where he had made an appointment with Theo. It looks like Theo has been waiting there while looking riled up not knowing what he has in mind.

Frans: what are you thinking so good, Frans asked while standing next to Theo.

Theo: brother I was thinking with the fate of our beloved sister, what if this event had an impact on the development of emotions and also affect relationships in the household?

Theo: father and mother are also thinking the same thing as brother, so what is the decision of brother at this time?

Frans: let's all go as usual, we just need to follow the path we took because at this time his heart is very broken and no longer wants to listen to anyone. It is better for now to let the caca calm down first then we speak well and with a cold heart.

Theo: well brother, but what if that time never comes.

Frans: just be calm that time will come, and all we need to do now is watch all around us and about Noldi let him run everything as usual.

Theo: okay brother.

"What the two brothers had in mind about his sister, but it is clear that at this time they want to make room for Caca to decide anything in his life ahead because they realize all these situations are fully related to his sister's household.

Deep in the room she kept thinking about her husband and also thinking about her two prospective children who had currently gone away from her.

Caca: I shouldn't have troubled Frans by whining. From now on I will be an independent, strong and self-concerned caca no need to beg for attention from anyone, if for my brother Noldi and my baby have no meaning then let's live life according to their own will, is not it easy for him to get women, maybe I am not enough for him then fine, alright, I'll take that.

"Taking a swipe of her tears can be seen staring at her phone and trying to contact someone there, and well on the screen of the phone was named Randa assistant to Mr. Noldi, Noldi, when Caca called the number there was an answer and there was a conversation there.

 Caca:Kringkkkk... Kringkkk.......... Kri ggkkkkkk

Jelly: Hello, ma'am, how can I help you?

Caca: Randa what about your master? Has he improved?

Randa: ma'am, from yesterday the master has improved and has started to act like his bias, but has not asked where the mother is, where,that's because you think you're currently traveling to the country of Pemaksam to complete the mother's education exam. It seems like master has not known everything that has happened.

Caca: Randa alright then, for your master I am nothing and if your master's mind is so, then let it be. Right now I'm fine and tomorrow morning I have to do something, so keep working as usual with your master.

Randa: good ma'am, titutttttttttt

"And the conversation ended there.

" I love God so much until this moment but why does this love hurt me, honestly from my heart this moment is still true but is this a test of my love. I miss him so much but even the slightest bit he reveals if he loves me I never heard from his mouth, so is all this just one-sided love or does she have another woman so my presence has no meaning to her.If it's all true why she let me wander around her, it just makes me hope without end. Maybe this is the sign that I should realize that this is actually a signal from him to disappear from his life, well if it's true I promise he won't find me this weak one, he said, but he will

Found me in a different state than the caca he knew and wasted. If I've lost both my baby candidates why don't they get out of my life, too.