The Pain of Loving in Silence

Episode 21 Hot nights part 2

" if you fall in love then , everything you see is beautiful, even bitterness even if it is real you will continue to deny it,but when you fall in love it begins to bring a variety of flavors in the kiss, then there your soul will be raging, because when you turn it all has no meaning anymore"

" caca....let's talk about all the circumstances that you might not understand and accept, of all the ways I have towards you and also, of all the ways I have towards you, let's discuss our marriage yesterday which was your crazy idea because of your meaningless ambition.

Hearing such words of brother Noldi, made all my joints seem unable to sustain anymore, as soon as the pain of my heart churned, and all the anger, sadness, pain, hatred that I felt for years ,which makes me like a human being who just lives without knowing the direction and purpose, I want to burn him to know how much I suffer with all this, I always felt like a barrier to both my family and my loved ones.

" ohhhhh, for all that, I don't think we need to talk about it anymore, it's all just the ambition of an easy child who is unstable and just a game for adults. Right now I want to live free in my way, I may have a father, a mother and a brother but where they are when I need their support, money, standing, influence, to me it's all for nothing, even they did not ask me for anything other than material. Right now if you want to discuss the story of the past, sorry I am not a naive anymore, leave me forever......................,I beg you

" caca... are you really not feeding me anymore? ask me, did that jerk jhon brainwash you? has he bought you too? ask without caring about my feelings...

" hahahaha.... You think whatever he did with me all this time was because of the money? but yeah.whatever you think answered yourself, move away while turning my face towards the window.

Hearing the answer I gave so bold, noldi's patience was uncontrollable.

" caca, while walking towards me,..take my hand and hold it hard regardless of my pain, ah.... whichever part of you is identified********* that,haaaa...... while ferociously tracing my body with his lips, which immediately frightened me because the face and eyes of brother Noldi was very creepy like wanting to finish me off.

" sister... cried out, while enduring the pain of my wrist,..let me go....I hate you......., while crying and continuing to moan in pain due to the wildness of noldi.

" caca..should have, I did all this long ago, while still playing his hand on all parts of my body, you know how tormented I am by that, you know how frustrated I am to see you so close to me but not to touch you, you know what it feels like to be tormented like that.

" heard all the words of brother Noldi earlier, made me not screech anymore and he let go of his hand and hugged me, I weakly and a sense of tightness in the chest for a moment subjugated to the words, he said, it seemed like there was a wind blowing in the recesses of my heart that made a small vibration that was not rhythmic.my lips were frozen silent, immediately noldi led me to the edge of the bed to lean, in a state of surprise.

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silent atmosphere..............

" caca.............

" i fell silent and nodded according as if I had forgotten about the pain I had been feeling all along,

" caca...... sorry all this time I can not understand you well, but believe me I keep thinking of you, even though you are not with me but I always watch over you, it's just that you turned out to be smarter to run away from me, pulling my hand and sitting on my side.

" sister......what brother knows the pain I feel, while sobbing, I keep telling him to vent my feelings, do you know what it feels like to miss, miss, sick of loneliness, sick of being unwanted, when I heard it all,,, brother noldi smothered my mouth with his lips,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Somehow the other side of noldi that I do not know all this time appeared, he who is usually cold, suddenly this wild.what is his male instinct? honestly, he's been kissed intimately, and this is his first time.

" caca.....sorry I know..you are very hurt, but right now I am here ..reply the pain to me so that you can prevent, while releasing that kiss.

" sister....from the beginning I know the name of interest, all that I feel with brother, so crazy me, so I, I made my sister bathe even everything that I had sister seen, because what.

" caca......would you like to live with me forever? the sudden question made my tears flow unbearably, it felt so claustrophobic.

" sister, the taste I have for you will never change but for now, all the flavors are frozen.Sorry, sobbing.

" caca.

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