SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

THREE YEARS AGO

It turns out that life without resentment and hatred is very light, everything that happens in my life is lived casually without burden.

the desire to torment the life of her father Rania I was far away.no use will only add to the rigors of my heart.

making peace with the past is the goal of my life right now.

"mom's coming with me there's a surprise" her father Rania's voice came home from work this afternoon.

he pulled my hand strong, now I don't hate hearing his voice anymore.

we walked out, a beautiful new car parked in the garage. latest output car maroon colored famous products from Japan.

I was surprised, I closed my face which opened in disbelief.how could she get her so fast.

"Thank you", I unknowingly jumped up and hugged Rania's father.he held me tightly kissed the tip of my head long ago.

" is her sister Rania not surprised you jumped this way".he asked right in my ears. somehow the voice of her father's ban Rania more sound melodious ahir-ahir this. not as thick as before.

I shook my head. walked closer to the car, opened the door trying all the available features, quite sophisticated as well.it cost more than my husband's car.

oops, now I can call him my husband, even in my heart.

make no mistake, for the matter of our bed is still alone.I in my room she's the room of her sister candidate Rania.

"have you seen it, like it?" I sat in the front seat of the steering wheel. Mas Amir was just his head coming in. I saw him pressing various buttons there.

I came out, satisfied to see the inside of this new car.

" it is thanks to your prayers that you won a big tender, beating hundreds of competitors who have far more names than our company. "he said proudly. deserves to go home more often than usual.

holding my hand to enter, closing the door and not forgetting to lock.we walked up the stairs.

all the clothes are still in my room so we just split up if the business of sleeping alone. somehow this one business I am not ready.

Today Rania was brought nisa, invited to go for a walk she said.I felt lonely from earlier not listening to her babble.

rania's father was done, she rushed downstairs. As usual she was going to cook dinner for us. Only this time I came downstairs intending to help her. it is not good to be served continuously.

"where you going?" tanyakanya.

"help, tired of doing nothing in this house" I replied

"no need, you can do it yourself. You just sit here" prevent it when I want to stand up from the bed.

"let me go down, at least I will eat down. lest I get tired of going up and down to send my food. "it's an excellent offer.

Can't bear to see him come home from work, still have to cook for dinner.

I'm like a queen in my own house. It's not what I want. I'm not used to it. But it wants a baby in my stomach.

if my mother's father knew I was scolded, it should be the wife who serves the husband.

my gestational age is still going to 3 months. Maybe when I grow up I can cook without having to be nauseous after eating the results of my cooking.

"do you feel burdened with all this" I asked, he was in the kitchen busy with cooking utensils. I sat sweetly at the dining table which was only three meters away.

"burdened for what" he asked, looking at me at the next glance, he focused again on his work.

"everything, serving me serves Rania, works" I replied again.he saw me long ago.a sweet smile rose from his lips.

"does your husband look like that" I shook my head. I'm not lying is the truth.he did it all with pleasure.

"i want to do my best for you, make amends for all the mistakes of the past. From that incident I came to know that my life was ruined without you. therefore I do not want to waste this second chance.

"do you mind telling me 3 years during my visit?" I asked, I really wonder how he got into a coma.

"there is nothing interesting about my life.a weak man who has to fight for his life because of the loss of his loved ones" he replied.from his face there was a pent-up wound

after a while, tell a story.

"finished overtime, permit a one-week leave in approval. happy it feels ahirnya mas can be with you. without thinking long the company, meet Edo" exposed. he took a deep breath

"i saw all the files you've signed. I haven't had a bad thought.

until finally Edo story that the money requested by his company is already transferred to the Andara account because after the deadline requested the company has not sent another account.

coming home your mother has not found you, it's broken my heart.I can't blame Edo because he ignored my message.he doesn't know our household problems.

back home I went into the room, my body was limp. saw all the files you left behind including the divorce papers you had signed. I felt my life was destroyed instantly. don't know where I'm gonna find you.

my body is at work but my mind is floating around trying to guess where your life is going.

until I was sick and did not remember anything. Until finally heard the voice of Rania calling. as if waking up from sleep mas looking for Rania. the desire to embrace her is very strong.

I'd like to apologize for resting at your feet if it could take you home.

when things have improved mas come to our house.I see Andara taking care of father and mother who even my existence forgets because of my condition. I sat down before them to apologize for neglecting my duties as a husband.

but my father told me to marry again not to look for your existence, he as a parent disappointed your departure without asking for an explanation first" until this part I was surprised. so disappointed the father for the stupidity of his son to tell his son-in-law to marry again.

" i refuse. For you cannot be replaced with any woman.I will wait even if everyone is against"

"because my heart has no place for another woman, from the past until now you and Rania ruled there"

"after that, I took half my clothes to my mother's house, I stayed there until you came"

tini said this man is loyal.

I am still faithful to hear his story

"rightly I know your feeling, through GPS tracking on HP Rania. I want to fly there immediately after you. bring you guys home. But your brother prevents me. let you finish the S2 first. and I am improving the condition of the company that was damaged because of that incident.

no company wants to cooperate with our company. because mas is considered a failure in the household.plus the letter of dismissal from the BUMN office where mas work.

your brother volunteered to help but refused, if it works because of his help you won't be proud of me"

even to that extent this man thought about the feelings of people who did not think about him.

"my hard work is sweet, finally the company can rise again after two years of your departure"

"that night was the first time we spoke via video call.I saw in your eyes that love is still there but covered with hatred so great.mas happy even very happy. my wife still keeps that taste even a little".

"what I fear is that it does not exist.we will talk like two strangers. turns out my guess is wrong. Even to your friends you still say we are husband and wife even though indirectly.

mas was not late to attend the graduation when it was. flowers that the florist gave at that time from me. had raised doubts whether to appear in front of you or not.

what you fear is that you are not angry with me. We are talking like friends as usual, then I will give up because I believe that feeling has completely disappeared from your heart. but the fact that you're still angry about the incident makes me even more convinced that your heart is still for me"

instead of telling us our misunderstandings.I'm more busy seducing you. mas do not want when we discuss the proof of the transfer you will run away.

Ahirnya bang fatih found a crazy idea in the hotel. initially mas refused.fearing you hate me more. turned out to be true my guess. you hate me even more and threaten to abort the baby and tell the fatih bang he's as disappointed as I am.

" eat first the story is over" gave a plate containing rice complete with side dishes

"hah" I was flabbergasted.I looked at his tired face, his body thinner than the last time we parted.

"want you for a bribe?" I shook my head, not that I didn't like it, but because I knew he hadn't eaten either.

"we ate together" I said, wiping my head with a smile.

we ate in silence. preoccupied with each other's thoughts.My husband's cooking tasted the same as mine, delicious.

I'll try cooking from tomorrow.I hope Rania's sister doesn't act up.