SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

BANG FATIH'S ANGER

Sitting in the hotel restaurant, in the VIP room that the men ordered in front of me. Bang Fatih, he was silent from the start he entered this room, his hands folded in front of his chest. His eyes were sharp as if he wanted to kill me.

I'm honestly scared. But, he couldn't have hit me, because I knew him. I smiled pretending not to understand.

I took a spoon to taste the menu that was available before I came, a fool with his gaze. Mostly he was angry because he couldn't find me.

“stop pretending to be stupid Syafira...!!!” his voice shocked me, I swear to you all my life, this is the first time he's yelled at me. Spoon slipped out of my hand.

The sound of clanking, spoons clashing with the floor was loud.

“mau up to when you torture the people around you...!!!” again. huh, torture, who? me?..did I not hear wrong..

“Fira hungry bang, earlier inside had not had time to eat” my voice was clear. This is my gun he won't stand. Justjust look.

“you haven't eaten for a few hours, like a dying man, you imagine those who haven't eaten for months waiting for your news. Basic selfish woman” what the fuck.he said I was selfish, well I will serve

“whoever said that brother was selfish, if Fira who brother said so brother is wrong, Fira just left because he could not bear the pain a second time. No one understands Fira. Everyone wants Fira to stay, they just care about their feelings no one cares about the feeling Fira” spilled already tears

Shortness of this chest because it holds back tears that are increasingly uncontrollable. This heartache, even people who have always supported me and shunned me all this time did the same.

Shrugging the tissue box on the table, his face was no longer fierce. But it's still cold. His gaze was expressionless now.

I took a few strands, wiped away the tears that I could no longer contain

n forget the nose fluid that comes with the berloma. I lost my appetite. The delicious menu no longer bothered my taste.

Heartache and disappointment melted into one. Flowing through the swiftness of clear water flowing on my cheeks.

“already crynya, if already brother will tell you, which will make you bear endless guilt” I look into his eyes sharp, there will be no more stories that make me feel guilty, no more, if anyone regrets it, he should have wailed to beg me for forgiveness.

“abang almost killed your husband with his own brother's hand, brother almost did as stupid as you. The person you hate the most almost took his life in the hands of his own brother.he didn't fight back, he said he deserved it” right the man was beaten, what would make me feel guilty. How strange.

“why don't you just kill me, let it be safe a little world is not filled with traitors like he” I replied ketus

“keep talking, where is the meek, affectionate syafira. Or don't-don't your escape teach to sharpen your tongue” bang fatih really emotions I fear. But I don't care.

“if you want his destruction you succeed, the man is fired from the office where he works. His company was destroyed. All the project landers, which he won failed, until he was almost dragged to justice. Because the work is not according to the specified time. My brother wanted to help, he refused. Not wanting to involve my brother. He insisted on wanting to make you proud when you came back that he could run his own company without the help of anyone else” fell silent for a moment.

Bang Fatih was speechless he looked down, his hands outstretched the shirt. He looked up. There was a claustrophobic who wanted him to tepis, or just wanted to dispel the tears that wanted to show themselves.

“until ahirnya he could not survive, stomach acid suffered forced the poor man who left his wife's child had to be hospitalized. Not until there. Two weeks later he heard he was in a coma. The doctor said only a miracle can save him” spilled already tears men in front of me this. He looked down deeply to hide his cries. Am I moved, no. Not happy either. My feelings are normal, but now he's okay.

“Included specialist doctors do not help anything, psychiatrists, neurologists, internal medicine experts, only one that his mother did not do. Come the shaman alone.fear the torment of shirk he said”

“abang had suggested to be taken out of the country but was rejected by your mother-in-law.he was sure that you would contact her, so sure that the woman was in our midst of despair” the story continues.

“where the seductress was when her husband was dying, was she ponya-foya as usual” asked, really, I was curious about the teaser news.

“dia is there, and is pregnant with a second child if you want to know” sentences bang Fatih as if giving a squeeze in my heart, it hurts so much. God..how could that woman be happy in the midst of my struggle away from Mas Amir. So cruel their behavior behind my back.

“basas pelakor, cheap women are still cheap. Want in shape however” my anger spilled when it comes to. That rotten woman.

“be careful with your words fir, if you know what you are doing Andara, you will roar apologizing to her” still in a high tone

“Everyone makes mistakes, but everyone deserves a second chance. He's changed. Go home, let you know the truth, brother is not entitled to your household problems, solve it well do not go ”the situation has begun to humble

“Fira will not go home bang, Fira is comfortable here, the source of the pain is not here” my tone is slow, if I go home in vain already my escape.

“you need to solve your problem Fira, after that brother will support whatever your decision. Go home, even from the last time we talked, not once did you ask the news of father and mother” he meant my father and mother. I flinched, they how are they. Suddenly this miss came in.

“they are the ones who are the most hurt by your departure, you are a mere child of puppets. Their pride, can't you keep their feelings in their old days” instantly tears welled up. Remembering how my mom asked me to survive. And so, for the sake of those who are not in favor of making me choose this path.

“don't force Fira to go home, it will never happen” I replied again

“how about your obligation as a wife, you've ignored it for three years” he said again.

“i am a widow, and I have no obligations to anyone” I said firmly, rightly not.

“why brother forced me home, brother does not know what it feels like to be polygamous, bang sick, fira crying himself no one knows. Even that man has never been fair to Fira” I replied as I held back the nearly spilled tears.

“no man loves you more than your husband so come home” insistent on this man in front of me. It's as if he knows everything better than me. And wait, since when did they get along.

“ada, brother loves Fira more than anyone else

“my feelings for you are different Fira, don't be confused with your husband's feelings”

“former husband more precisely”cutku quickly before bang fatih continue his words.

“but fira loves brother, dear same brother. Even if Fira had to remarry the brother of the right person” is actually the thought that haunts me ahir-ahir this. I can not afford to remarry with new people. so with this man I know him well.

“don't brag syafira, it will never happen and it will never happen” he said firmly.

“what's wrong. Don't we have the same feeling” said I don't want to lose, even if at this time I don't really love this man. I'm sure as time goes by that love will grow by itself.

“don't until it happens, because otherwise you will experience the pain you once felt. We can't get married, you're my sister Fira. My feelings just want to protect you no more” he said with a sharp look at me

“what does abang” mean wonder

“before you marry that amir boy knows that I love you, all the HP and Walpaper on my daptop it's you, your husband knows.

"Before Amir proposed to you brother asked my father and mother to propose to you, because brother is sure that the same brother feelings you do not play games. My mother and father refused.

Finally I know from them that we are relatives. When little brother drinking milk from mother” explanation bang amir like lightning struck right about my head. What the fuck.

“when I did not want to appear before you, I could not see your happiness with other men. It's not easy to get rid of that feeling. Until one day before your wedding your brother asked your husband's promise not to hurt you, if until that happens your brother would take you by force, he agreed to it. In front of my brother, he promised. After that brother went away, did not want to show his face in front of you”

Limp is already this body, why is it as if this happiness is not on my side. Though one of my goals was to marry the Fatih bang to hurt Mas amir.

Oh, why didn't anyone tell me this before. Lord, how can I repay my heartache to my husband.

“come home, brother guarantee no one will hurt you” his words are soft

“can now fira mukul brother?” after knowing my relationship with her, I don't know what I feel. happy, haru, but now I want to embrace her shed this heartache together.

“do it, but after that go home, everyone is waiting for you” that's the answer.

I got up, I clenched my hands firmly, thrusting my fists into his left chest.

I hit it three times. The man did not flinch. Not even in pain at all. Cih, how could he bear, I would have already expended all my strength.

“satisfied yet?, eat it. Your energy is less strong, it looks like you are malnourished living here”

“what is the reason for fira to go home?” ask me in a weak voice.

“because mom and dad have been living in your house since you left, he waited anxiously” said, as if there were a knife cut through my heart when talking about my parents, there was an invisible poignancy. But it feels really deep.

“they live in the fira occupied by Mas Amir means?” many reassuring. Bang fatih nodded.

“abang can't take you now, but it's your husband who will pick you up in two months, after you graduate. Don't disappear again. Brother will find you even if hiding in the ant” hole his gaze softens. A smile rises from his lips.

“Fira will be home one week after Fira will be back here again. There's no reason Fira lingered there” resigned that's what I'm doing now.

To complete my longing for both my parents. I'll do it. It's only temporary. All right, just soften it for a second. After that I will really settle in this city.

Note: The extent to which a man marries a woman may be due to a blood or sexual relationship between the two, or due to a feud..

*bang fatih as a child drink breast milk from the biological mother syafira.so they can not get married because it is considered blood. later the detailed story is in the next chapter how it could happen

who want to join the fira mudik yuk packing, there is a story what after three years*.

Sorry yes, the author edited two chapters very long. To the faithful waiting for thank you, warm greetings from the author.