SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

TRIBULATION NEWS

My pregnancy this time there is no drama of morning sickness, or not good to eat like Rania's pregnancy used to be. All the food can come from his father who cooked.This is the point. I cooked it myself and ate it because I didn't want to eat amir. As a result I vomited, all the food that came out again.shadowed the aroma of raw onions make my stomach turbulent.

Since then Rania's man has been proud to cook for me. His face shone every time I called him. Maybe he was proud to feel needed. Not so sir. I'm sorry, if it wasn't Rania's sister who acted I wouldn't have asked for your help. I am an independent and tough woman.

“this milk and its vitamins” words I hear every morning wake up and at bedtime. I'm tired of hearing that. Really, I'm tired of drinking milk and taking vitamins.

And there again it seems like Rania's sister is in cahoots with her father, I want to stay away from her father instead this child seems to want to always be close, Mas Amir's body scent like opium to me. Actually I want to smell that scent at all times.

Compared to the upside when I was pregnant Rania actually I was nauseous to smell the perfume Mas Amir.

I didn't do anything, rather Rania's father forbade me. If not this then Mas Amir will serve me. And I'm just as happy to hear about my pregnancy.

Congratulations came, from my mother-in-law interspersed with various kinds of advice. And Nisa who is not less excited, pray for my baby girl again like Rania, because yesterday she was less long with Rania he said. Given that I feel guilty bringing Rania away. Without asking for an explanation first.

I'm not as Rania is treated special in the family, Rania is the first grandchild in my family and the family of Amir, of course she will not lack affection. Fortunately my son is not spoiled. I taught her to be independent since childhood. What he can do himself, except Rania can not ask for help.

This morning I got a congratulation from my husband's ally

“welcome you will be a mother for the second time, brother is happy. In accordance with the promise of the brother at that time, if Fira's heart could not accept the presence of his father, brother could not prohibit. After this brother will not interfere in your household affairs again.sorry brother turned out to be wrong brother's estimate. I set Fira free to determine her own way of life, do not forget to pray for guidance of the owner of life. In order for all roads to be easy” that is the sound of a short message that entered on my HP.

Looks like Rania's father told me about my feelings. Good thing, at least after this nothing will stand in my way. Without them I'm sure it would be easier to live. I don't have to worry about the material. I will be a strong mother and father to my son.

“sad breakfast is ready, want to eat in the room or want to go down?” cih, just bother. hearing his voice I don't like really seeing his face I want to anger his innate.

“i'm still healthy don't treat me like a decrepit while getting out of bed.

He came up to me to help me get down.

“don't look for a chance to touch me” snapped me hard. Surprisingly this man was never angry precisely he smiled sweetly. It sucks!!

“carefully go down the stairs just slowly, afraid her sister rania startled” I turned widening my eyes towards her she silently looked down.

“aku who is pregnant why you are excited, you should be grateful I still want to hold your seeds” my sniffling sound. I don't hate this kid, it's a process I couldn't accept until now.

“maaf” how many tens or even hundreds of times I heard this word out of the lips of Rania's father.

“Mas ask mbak tini to come in the morning, because there are clients who want to meet, as well as check the location of the new project, pray that everything goes smoothly.The project can be won, mas, so you can buy a car for Rania”, we look at it for a moment.

A little overwhelmed by her hard work to fulfill my wish.

“drink the milk, mas want to call Rania for breakfast. Later all of you drive to school” I still quietly hear the explanation. What do I care. Report is not up to you.

He walked up the stairs.

I drink apucat juice, it's delicious I don't make it up. This fruit is great for pregnant women, one of which contains high folic acid to prevent birth defects. I drank it up the toilet. It doesn't taste too sweet.

He remembers what I like and don't like. Am I impressed?, of course not. He did it not for me, but for the seed that happened to be in my stomach.

“mas leave first, be careful at home if there is anything directly kabari” he said while tipping my forehead gently. It's not that I like him to do that, it's just that I've rejected him a few times anyway. So it's free.

“mbak titip my wife, if there is anything do not forget to directly notify me. Don't leave out” his message on mbak tini . does he think I'm a snot boy. Which must be guarded in such a way.

“well pak” replied my household assistant.

“or want to come, mas will gladly take you. I don't know, I'm afraid you're staying at home” his gaze is full of anxiety, it's weird this guy. My stomach just hasn't been seen yet but the treatment is like I'm pregnant.

“no need, if you want to leave, yes just leave” is never pleasant to hear indeed every word that comes out of my lips. But strangely this man was not affected. Back to kissing my forehead. Then hugged me tightly.

“mother Rania departs.” My son said goodbye as he always does every morning. Kissing tanagnku. I kissed her cheeks right and left on her forehead.

“be careful yes, learn the right, do not snack carelessly” a mother's spell for her child every morning.

The two waved, I got up to take Rania to the door

“do not love rest only, later you fatigue” prevent it, want to send home just can not. Well, that benefits me, doesn't it.

“lucky mom gets a father, already, handsome, well established, sholeh, dear family less what else try” it sounds mbak tini. after Rania and her father lost sight. my gaze was directed at mbak tini. It turns out that many fans are also prospective fathers of the two children.

“less faithful mbak” replied me origin

“ck, this mother. that father is the most loyal in the world. Everyone has a past. But if you have regrets and intentions change well why not. For three years left, the faithful father waited. Though I'm sure there are a lot of women out there who are after the father. But he kept his heart in order to wait for mom to come home” is really a true fan this time.

“what are the mistakes you can't forgive?. If it's about the affair with your mother I think not. Struggle bu Andara caring for his father and mother bu fira deserves a thumbs up, sincerely” I look mbak tini.

“Before the father was healthy like now, he had a wheelchair. Kebayang did not bother to take care of people in wheelchairs, while his wife was sick as well. affairs of eating and drinking ordinary medicine. But if the bathroom business is complicated. And you are serving your father without complaining. About six months father wheelchair”

“hah..?” I was surprised why I didn't think there. O Allah, forgive my pride that hated Andara at the beginning of my coming.

It turns out that to that extent you did just to make amends to me. It's only right that you defend him desperately when you insult Andara.

Mistakes that have made him aware and changed much better.How lucky you God chose him to get guidance.

I went into the room. What I'm going to do in this house other than fall. This brother would forbid me from doing anything. Even cutting vegetables is not allowed. Afraid of being scolded, he said. Again Rania's father made an unreasonable order.

Suddenly my gauntlet rang I saw for a moment, her father Rania definitely she would like something weird. Actually lazy to answer. If not answered, it will not stop sounding. All right for my comfort I'll answer.

“assalamualaikum dear, you are packing now half an hour later you are picking up you critically at the hospital” panicked voice across seemed to be infecting me.

I suddenly panicked. Even my chest is pounding. Could the story of Kenzy's birth be repeated?. My mind rages on, I haven't properly thanked him.

Especially after hearing the story of mbak tini, how I want to repay Andara's kindness. May the mother and baby be safe. I pray in my heart.

***

It's still 11 in the afternoon. Hospitals are very crowded, people are busy with their own business. Right in front of the operating room I saw a slashing sight, Kenzy crying in her father's arms. Calling her mother over and over again.

“honey be careful not to run” her voice panicked, I don't care. I can't bear to see Kenzy.

“mas Angga can I carry kenzy?” kenzy's father looked at me in disbelief, I took the boy out of his arms just to help ease his cries.

“how's he doing” voice father Rania

“I was like repeating the incident two years ago, signing the same affidavit. I was devastated this time, completely unable to choose. If only I could replace him. My son can't lose his mother” Angga's face is covered in gray cloud. Appearance messy.

Luckily Kenzy was silent, she seemed to be uneasy no matter what the child was thinking.

“mas take milk kenzy” muchaku slowly. I saw a sleepy Kenzy probably exhausted from crying, from her breath and her swollen eyes I'm sure this kid cried for quite a while.

“ada in the car, briefly I Get mbak” hurry go,

“let the fat mas, later you are tired. Kenzy weighs quite a” Her father Rania took kenzy from my sling.

After a while, the young man came with a bottle of milk and a small bag in his hand, possibly containing kenzy equipment. Her face was anxious, her appearance was messy, pity to see it.

The lights in the operating room changed, the insects rushed towards the door. A female doctor came out. Her stature was high in white, her hair was beautifully smoothed.

“doctors we need blood type AB+” we look at

“my blood type is the same, can I donate it” said I volunteered

“dia pregnant doctor” sound mas Amir. Prevented me.

“sorry pregnant women can't donate blood” said the doctor politely.

“my AB+ doctor” well, we have the same blood type. And only now know that you also have the same blood type as us.

“of course, let's come with me we first check if it qualifies as a donor”

“sorry patient doctor decreased” condition

Panic suddenly enveloped us, No exception Angga. The doctor went back into the operating room.

“how is your condition?”a middle-aged woman approached us. With his worried face.

“down ma” sound like holding back crying.

“astaghfirullah,,,”ucap a woman who turns out her mother is proud.

“you ate first, not from this morning you have not eaten. Who wants to treat kenzy if you are sick also” he said gently. I just saw the interaction of the mother and the child.

A mother anywhere, however, her attention will not be lost even to things that seem trivial like this.

“angga does not taste ma, Andara condition there is no certainty” he replied, covering his face with both hands. We sat in the waiting room chair that was available.The mother resigned she held a black plastic containing food parcels.

“Nak amir, thank you for coming. I am confused who wants to call who.the only person closest to Angga ya nak Amir, his brother is still abroad has not been able to go home” he said.

“ini syafira, my wife aunty?” I greet this yellow hooded woman,

“ahirnya aunty can meet, Andara often tell me about nak fira, she wants to be a good and sincere sholehah woman like you, he said. Auntie's happy to have a daughter-in-law like her. Although at first I had opposed the relationship of Andara with Angga. Which mother wants to see her child together with a woman who has a psychiatric illness” takes a long breath her gaze glares far away.

“Anga blinded love reassures us. And it turns out that I also know that if Andara rejects the insects, she does not want to complicate the life of people with her condition. She just asked to remain a volunteer at our hospital” the woman looked down, I listened carefully.

A lot of things I didn't know about Andara after her departure from home.

“ahirnya she wants me also want, but put forward the terms, her marriage was carried out simply, embarrassed to invite the crowd, her past cannot be forgiven he said at that time” she looked at me. I smiled friendly

the door of the operating room opened, Angga quickly approached the doctor who handled Andara.

“sorry, your wife is bleeding heavily. We doctors can't save him, you've gone five minutes ago” Lord, said the doctor's lips as if the lightning during the day, it feels like a whip to us.

Doctor Angga rumbled to his floor he prostrated himself with a cry that could not be contained anymore.Kenzy shouted loudly in the arms of Mas Amir. I couldn't bear to hear this news, regret seeping into my chest. This sad news was not expected.

Andara's mother-in-law no less hysterically called out the Name of Andara with tears flowing. This room became gripping, by our cries. Angga's screams were heartbreaking.

“God...why is my wife's life you took. Why don't you replace it with my life.how do I raise them without his mother” hysterical cries with cries that are quite loud fill the hallways of this hospital.

“istighfar doctor Angga, who is strong, all already there set” the doctor was crouched rubbing the shoulder of the mango

I'm sure anyone who hears it will be slashed. I hold firmly the hand of Angga's mother. The woman walked up to her son who was mash in front of the operating room.

I saw the female doctor wipe away the tears with her hands. This is sad I really feel. My heart is like slashed. That woman after bringing me so much good she just left.

A female nurse pushed the gurney out of the operating room. Angga stood approaching. He hugged the body above him. Our closed rigid body is white. Andara's husband opened the cover slowly. The crying was heard again.

“why do you have to leave me and my dear children. You don't pity Kenzy she cried calling you. How do I explain it to Kenzy. How about he sleeps looking for you.” Angga's rapport is like a person losing his mind. My tears did not stop flowing.

“I've said many times. I don't need any more kids, I need you to stay by my side. How do I live my life after this. Say don't just shut up” those words are able to squeeze my heart.

I really can't hear it. The doctor really lost his mind.

Unknowingly I was crying in her father's arms Rania my tears wouldn't stop. I know Mas amir is crying too. He hugged me and calmed the kenzy in his carrier.

“sorry sir, we must immediately bring him to the funeral room, I am sorry. May the father and family be given fortitude” said the nurse earlier.he pushed the gurney after Angga released his embrace from his wife.

This was his last hug for the woman he loved, the mother of his children.

While babies born prematurely are in a special care room because their age is not enough to be born.