SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

CONSPIRACY

I resigned wherever Rania's father invited me, it was up to me to argue. The man had no effect. I kept all this hatred silent.Why bang Fatih could let me both with this rotten man.Even with his stern separate me with Rania.

“mau eat what”tanyanya I'm still silent. Wall base, silenced still pretentious to care.

“whatever...!!!ketus. Usually if this answer is issued by women, other men understand that he is angry. This, still with a sweet smile towards me. Ordering the same menu two servings, even drinks are made the same.

Honestly, I'm really hungry. Not breakfast this morning. But near her my appetite disappeared instantly. I can't forget his betrayal. This man before me is like a creature who never does anything wrong. Not even once did he discuss the mistakes he made.

I couldn't possibly ask, other than that I wasn't interested anymore, I held my pride up in front of him. Asking questions three years ago would only demean me. As if I still wish on this man.

“sad I want to go back, you don't want to go to the bathroom too?” his voice broke the silence between us. The atmosphere of this restaurant is still quiet. Because it's still morning.

Suddenly my mind floated in the office. Well, I haven't told May that I'm going home in a week.

“want to call who?” he asked after returning from the bathroom, not knowing his shame meddled in my affairs

“it's none of your business” I replied fiercely,

“oooo...” voiceless answer I can see from her rounded lips

“halo may,, I can not go to the office for a week please all in the handle first ya” I said in May across.

“lho, he said two months ma'am, even Mr. Fatih has put a temporary mother replacement here” .

“hahh..?”that's all that came out of my lips. How can my brother know everything. Home, office, and even carelessly he arranged the time of my return. Two months, I agreed to it a week. What's wrong with Fatih. It must have something to do with the person sitting in front of me.

I looked at her, she looked back at me, raising her chin as a sign of her asking me.

“ya already may, thank you” said as I ended the conversation.

“what exactly is it, why are you so defiantly meddling in my affairs, who are you so brave to rule my life” I said angrily, not caring that my voice would invite the attention of other visitors. Foolish, this is already too much can not be allowed

“trust me, this is all for your good. Me and Fatih have thought about it” he said softly. It was a wonder yes, in anger, humiliated denigrated but this man still spoke in a gentle tone. I was suspicious of what was really in his head.

food is on the table according to the portion of the message.

“eat..later we talk again.you need a lot of energy after this” he said still with the same tone.

“of course, since I am not satisfied with you” replied me, there is no softness at all.

I ate ravenously I didn't care about him, his gaze I ignored, whatever. I stirred my drink for a while before sipping it with a straw. again he looked at me strangely. Just let me not care.

“we look for a hotel close to the airport, I've booked a ticket for tomorrow, don't get mad just yet. That's all that's available. Another flight schedule is already full” he said after paying our meal bill.he doesn't need my answer no. So let him do as he pleases.

A nice room. Single bad's. I'll lay down my body for a moment. Comfortable, that's how I feel. After tightening my nerves, I cursed Rania's father. She booked another room, I didn't want one with her.

He gave me his cell phone number, afraid I needed something. How strange. If it is necessary, I just call the hotel instead.

After the prayer, I broke myself. Kangen Rania, just a few hours apart, I already miss my daughter a lot. There's no one I can call, just Rania's number on my phone. Think positive, tomorrow we will meet.

No matter how many hours I slept, a strange feeling suddenly appeared. My body feels hot. But not unusual. My head is heavy, I force my feet to step into the bathroom. After the ashar prayer I want to rest again.maybe I was sapped, for two days my body is suspended in office affairs and graduation preparation.

My body feels strange, my head is getting heavier.Yes Allah. It's been seven in the evening, but my body is shivering more and more, my chest is pounding. I felt something strange about me, something I had to do but I wasn't sure what this feeling was.

my breath was hunting, my heartbeat was getting tighter. Cold sweat was soaking through my body.

Taking the air-conditioning remote, I lower the temperature. But it doesn't affect anything. There's no other choice. I'll get the device to call Rania's dad.

A knock on the door rang out, with a limped step and a trembling body opening the door. His face appeared relaxed as usual.

“you why baby, pain?”tanyanya held a forehead. I nodded, unable to answer.

His hand held my arm. Suddenly I felt this strange feeling growing. I can no longer hold it. Amir took me to bed. Put me to bed, pull the blanket up to the neck. Raise the air conditioning temperature in my room.

“mas,,,” rest assured the sound.it came from my lips. The man turned his head, his face like pity.

“bed, mas want to go to the bathroom” he replied

“forgive me dear, this is all you can do to keep you by my side, sorry once again”. A gentle whisper greeted my ears, as the song of shahdu made me drown further in the act I was not aware of.

I don't know how many hours we've been doing it, my body's running low. It's like my bones are off the body. I'm closed, I can't stand the sleepiness.

“sorry..”After a faint sound was heard, a soft caress I felt on my forehead, sending me deep into my subconscious. I don't remember anything else after that.

***

“wake up dear,,,”greetings gently in the ear, welcome morning. I opened my eyes to adjust to the light. This is not my room, but where. Look at the sound source. Holy jeez!!!

I was surprised to sit away, how the man I hated the most was next to me. Wearing a bathrobe with wet hair.

I pulled the blanket up to the neck, the man chuckled.

“bastards, how can you do this, basic men have no feelings. You have the heart to do that. Basic immoral” I decompose tears, disgust, anger and shame mixed into one.

"not me but you who want it" her reply relaxed.

“quite, don't talk anymore I'm sick of seeing you” I ran to the bathroom, brought a blanket to cover my long body. Stupid. What am I doing, how can this happen. Lord, put where my face is. I hate him and I forced him to do it.

Banging my head against the bathroom padlock repeatedly, hurts. I don't care, I hate myself.

“later you hurt your head, take a shower before I lose my mind” the man went into the bathroom. I forgot to lock it.

“don't forget to shower obligatory” he continued. I throw everything that my hands can reach. I'm sick of it, but I'm ashamed. These tears are flowing uncontrollably.

I lowered my face, not daring to stare at the room. Wearing a bathrobe, I looked out the window. The view of the famous bridge of the city looks very beautiful. Underneath the calm river, several boats walked slowly. I drink slowly the warm milk I made earlier, I don't care where the man is. I had no face to show my face in front of him.

“what do you think,,,”that question is right in my ear, soft. A burly hand coiled in the stomach. I let go, I hate myself.

“we've sinned z**a” the tears are rushing,

“we never divorced” turned my body to face him. The tears that flowed through my cheeks. I don't have the strength to fight him now.

“I've signed the letter” my gaze down. Even to lift my face is not capable.

“I never signed anything, I told you I would never divorce you”he said hugging me so tightly. Is there a shameless woman like me who gives up on a man who is hated.

“your mistake can not I forgive, I do not want the pain repeated” my answer weak without energy.

“I know, I'm sorry. But I can't explain it now. You're a woman who won't listen to any explanation from me, I'm not angry you have the right to do that. That's why your brother, your mother. And my mom told me to pick you up. We straighten this misunderstanding” I look at him confused. Didn't he marry Andara again. Now the woman is pregnant especially the misunderstood one.

“be prepared, we will go home now” he said.

The phone's ringing. His voice came from the amir.

“how , already tame yet??”video call from bang fatih I memorized his voice.

“already,,, thanks for the idea bang” hah..so this is all his idea bang fatih, brash. Turns out they were conspiring.

“already bang, I close first. afraid to rampage again him, see his face tuh” camera pointed to my face.

“don't be proud, I can't forgive you. For what you and bang Fatih did to me. Tell me you gave me the medicine in my food. Say!!!” I said furious after his call.

Damn, the man nodded. I expected it. I felt a sense of unease in my body after eating the restaurant menu earlier, because After that I did not eat anything.