SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

CHAPTER 23. POV AMIR

If anyone asks who is the dumbest man in the world...

I hurt my wife many times, and she forgave me many times.

The tears flowed and I was the cause.

Your existence in my life makes me unable to do anything for my wife.

All the wishes of that woman I have to fulfill no matter how big.

Since his arrival in my life, I have neglected my wife more often

Seeing the wounds in his eyes made me much more tormented

Until finally I was not strong, I hugged him that night, my wife's face confused I don't care. Let this embrace tell you everything that she is the only woman who will never be replaced in my life.

But what, this morning I snapped it in front of Andara. Syafiraku. Tears poured. The wounds I inflicted on him. Calling her a cheap woman.

I am the dumbest man in the world. Seeing her wearing sexy clothes, made her more beautiful. I just realized that my wife's natural beauty is not comparable to anyone even Andara though.

You know my wife if I could talk. Seeing you wear that shirt makes my man's desire go up. Two months I haven't touched you it's been excruciating. Plus your appearance that morning tormented my desires even more.

If there were no Youara I would carry you in the room, eat your body. Make a ownership sign there. If I need that day, I don't have to go to the office. I'll spend the day in the room together, exhausting you to sleep like before there's that woman between us.

But what, it was precisely anger and humiliation that came out of my mouth. And I'm sure your hatred is piling up. You're the greatest woman I've ever had. Even in a state of anger, you still speak slowly not to yell at me.

My stupidity has dragged you into prolonged suffering.

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“I want to tell you everything, after this, you want to hate me I will accept because I deserve to be hated”

I held her hand tightly in front of my mother and sister after we prayed together. I want this guilty feeling to relieve my chest a little. I knew this would hurt him. But it's better anyway, they've seen how Andara was. I want to be honest in front of the people I love.

“I met you 9 months ago, at the lawyer's office. She's with her husband. I take care of my company file Andara's husband is the same. The difference is that he took care of the file fraud report that befell his company which at that time was problematic.

Projects worth hundreds of billions of dollars. His company was declared bankrupt because it was deceived by his own men. While her husband was consulting inside, I met andara and chatted in the waiting room. I told you about my happy life with you, about my beautiful daughter, I told you my purpose to take care of the change in my company status from CV to PT. I don't mean to show off, but it is. I see it's just you and Rania.

Until we exchanged contact.

That was the beginning of the disaster. I unconsciously invited him.

Then guess what he's been calling me continuously. I've been reminded so many times I've been married and had children, she doesn't care. Turns out he still loves me that's his confession.

I'm a normal guy who feels proud of the honesty of his feelings when it. My soul feels flying. I'm lulled but only temporarily.

We often exchanged news, she said that if unhappy with her marriage her husband often insulted her because Andara could not give children. Sometimes he even resorted to violence. He was not at home and wanted to immediately part that's his confession. How happy I am to hear it I think the love for him is still there.

During that time I was in a forbidden relationship. I even helped her get a divorce from her husband.

After being appointed manager in the office I often went out of town to be a classmate

That's not entirely true. I met Andara she and her family changed well, and attention. Even your own mother asked me to go back to her daughter.

That's where I realized, it turns out they only want me because of my success now. How stupid is your husband.

The day after I had my birthday, I got permission to go to Bali for a construction company meeting. Thas right. You're letting. You can't come because Rania hasn't been on vacation. I understand, and I promised myself that one day I would take Rania on vacation to Japan to see cherry blossoms and snow up close. Imagining her cute face smiling happily excited me to work even harder.

Since that incident, I have avoided the woman, never returned her messages, never picked up the phone. Somehow he got to catch me to Bali.

I saw bruises on his forehead, bruises on his right arm, and injuries to him on the back of his hand. She told me in tears that her husband mistreated my ex. Hit without mercy. I believe, a sense of pity suddenly flowed into my chest. The feeling of wanting to protect her just appeared. No more, trust me.

I'm a man who's never been rude to my wife, let's not beat her to a bruise. Just yell at him I can't bear to. I've taken him well from his parents. Before being with me you were united in his house. The pride of both parents. After being with me, do I act rude, of course not. Every anger is natural, I choose to listen silently when you are angry. Women will feel appreciated.

He's taking me to dinner. It turns out he prepared everything. Romantic dinner at the top. He gave me birthday gifts of expensive watches and my favorite perfume. She still remembers my favorite perfume when we were together.

Across the table I was at, I saw Fatih with a woman I thought was her boyfriend or her fiance. I'm surprised not my fear popped. Afraid at times the man you called the brother told you about my meeting with Andara in Bali.

Fatih's gaze was unusual, there was a radiance of hatred there.he didn't even listen to the woman tell her stories. He was busy beating me up and holding you with hate. I understand his feelings

“Until Andara forced to sleep in the hotel room I rented. For fear that her husband might come suddenly, and beat her again. Predictably, what will happen when men and women instead of muhrim are in a closed room, it is certain that only the whispers of shethan are heard. It was the first time I committed adultery and I did it consciously”

“At the time of awakening, there were only regrets I felt. Your face, my mother's disappointed face is clearly drawn in my mind. I cursed my umpteenth foolishness”

“Home from bali she kept calling me to marry me. She threatened me to harm you and Rania, she even knew where Rania went to school, what time she left and came home. He knows your activities too. I had no choice but to follow his will. Many times I have said that I did for your good as well as Rania. For your safety again I followed his will”

Every night, unbeknownst to you I checked your chat, your HP contacts were afraid there was a fatih name there. My suspicions are unwarranted. Even you are still maintaining your honor.proven there is not a single chat with a man I do not know there.You are indeed an extraordinary woman.

Feeling safe, the affair becomes more. And I betrayed your loyalty. But honestly my heart is starting to get uncomfortable with him. I knew this was wrong, the fear of sin kept haunting me. But this woman's influence keeps me from picking.

My mother was angry she was the first person I told her about my plans to marry Andara. He defends you. I came to my mother's house, only the abuse and anger of my mother I received. Even my own brother doesn't think I'm his brother.

Look baby, it turns out you've taken everyone's heart. Even my own family, you deserve it. Your heart is kind, loving and patient. They have taken their love for me.

Again I have no choice. At the urging of Andara. Finally, ten days before we got married I contracted a house for Andara in preparation for our wedding, a week I ignored you. Departure morning work reason home morning excuses overtime

Departing early because you asked accompanied by breakfast back home my office to rented Andara until the morning I just returned to our home.. You never asked me where I was. So trusting of you to a son of a bitch like me.

I thought love was just my ego and my ambition and my fear, I was entangled and could not escape, only the regret I felt. I can give you what you ask for but not with my heart. You are the ruler there. All my love is only you and Rania.

The reason I married her is because you have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder).The disorder she had started her teenage years. As a result of all his wishes being fulfilled.

The illness forced me to obey her wishes. Otherwise he would be angry.

her anger can be fatal, she can hurt herself or anyone including you and Rania I'm afraid anything will happen to you.

Wrong parenting pattern of small which is the cause. That's why your mother herself asked me or rather begged me to marry her. I am the only man who can change you, he said at the time.

I'm sick of it, I feel framed. I was angry but it was too late.

Shortly after my marriage contract with Andara her mother took off her hand she handed Andara completely to me. While giving me medicine in a bottle like you took in Andara's room. Just in case you are afraid, he said.

I hate myself, stupidly I have no authority as a man. I should have refused from the beginning. But am I getting entangled deeper.

If you want to swear me now, then I deserve it.” I look at my wife's face that starts to look down. There's a clear liquid flowing in his smooth cheek. My story at length turned out to leave a wound in the heart.

“I'm sorry once again.and or maybe my apologies are meaningless.

I've never been jealous of you, whatever she's doing out there, how she's dressed, what time she comes home I don't want to know. And I don't care.

But not with you what you do out there always makes me jealous, bad thoughts haunt me. To have another man look at you I just can't accept.

That's why I didn't give you a driving license. I want to be the man you can count on. I'm willing to take you anywhere, no matter how busy I try to always be there for you and Rania. How great this love is for you.

It's just that this stupid guy doesn't know how to make you happy. I cannot express this feeling of love. Whatever I do will keep hurting you”

The face of this woman I was proud of was getting bowed in, my mother rubbed her head slowly.

“do not arrive there, a day after you officially divorced her husband. That guy came to my office. The construction company I built thanks to your support. He thanked me for freeing him from that horrible woman, she said. Until here I understand more and more, how people who love Andara go one by one even their own birth mother gives up”

Riko, your ex-husband also told me how his father and mother had been injured in the head because they were hit by a throw-in urn at their home. Even from the story I came to know that bruises and wounds in his hands when he came to Bali following me were just his wits, all the wounds he made himself so that I could believe. And he managed to suit me”

Regrets are always late. The broken me was just waiting for my wife's decision after she listened to my story. Whatever it is I'll take pain though. I end my story with a heartless heart.

“we will face this together, mas believe in the same fira, we will always be together no matter what happens. Just love can strengthen.Soever Andara, she only needs people who really care about her” that my wife's voice is sincere.

I bought in disbelief, I thought she would leave me and ask for a break, but apparently no, this woman is what her heart is made of. Oh Allah.how will I treat him later. Even my story of betrayal didn't affect his perception of me.

I hugged my woman tightly, we cried together. Even my mother and sister Nisa were crying. How my wife's parents educated her until she got this tough.

“Hani...” sounds coming from that room disperse our daydreams. I'm honestly sick of hearing that. Wife stands. I pulled his wrist strong.

“let him, I already don't care” I said while holding back anger

“he has no one here, only us. You could've let her alone with her leg hurt so. I hate it but I'm not a bad woman” I don't believe her words. God.how lucky the depraved man is in.i get a good woman like her.

“beware fir, mother koq still afraid yes,” said my mother slowly, naturally she was anxious. Considering how the woman went berserk

“fira will be fine bu” he said slowly after he passed the room alone without fear. Amazingly my wife loves that she got a jerk husband like me.

“mas......!!!!” my wife's scream from the room shocked us all. I fear that nothing will happen to my wife, O Allah protect her from the cruel woman.

Note: do not blaspheme Syafira yes.the woman is indeed soft-hearted. He's not stupid either. Because an intelligent woman is a woman who is able to hold her anger when she can just vent it. Her tenderness has also made her in-laws and in-laws love more than her love for Amir, her own family.