SURVIVING BECAUSE OF STATUS

LAND CROCODILE

I almost collapsed when the fact that love was not on my side, and the truth was still tightly sealed. Disappointed, I felt it for the second time. But I try not to fall.

Enough of the first stupidity that almost plunged me into the abyss of destruction. Past pain has shaped my soul much stronger. My plan went smoothly, distancing myself from painful things.

My college has started, it was fun to be a student again. Reminds me of the beauty of college. My friends are not all the same age, some are seniors, some are juniors.

There are only a few people my age. They come from all kinds of backgrounds and groups.

Some of the lectures are financed by the government agencies where they work. There are those at their own cost because the ideals want to become a lecturer. I'm the only one here to go to college because of the GLOBAL GROUP scholarship. The company that turned out to be familiar in front of them.

Their admiration for me was conveyed blatantly.

“great you, only selected people who can go to college bibiyai giant company it” he said full of admiration.

Hah, I sigh there is nothing to be proud of if they know who the owner is, what it has to do with me. I didn't do any greatness.

“turns out you're a great entrepreneur, already beautiful, well, independent again, sholehah. This sister's complete package” the voice of the only student is heard.

Had I told you my life's problems how until I got stranded in this foreign place, maybe they would have cried out lamenting my fate. But it is not necessary, just keep it. Let them know me as a perfect figure like their shadow.

I try to start walking even though it is not too crowded, because it may still be new so not many know. Of those I recruited, it turns out that one man had work experience in a photocpy business. Thank God, everything is going well.

So, I separated one series back, for the photocopy effort, and ATK. At first this effort was crowded.

Two of my employees are still students, so I gave them time off to work after college. And on the second floor I made their mess. How happy they were at that moment. No need to pay money, he said.

One of my employees is a newcomer from Java like me. College while working, to ease the burden of his family.

I saw that he was so determined to get a college degree amid the limited costs. I appreciate this young man, his spirit is amazing.

Rania is healthy. Really healthy. His father was the same condition. Already moved ordinary air space. They make a video call when Rania comes home from school, wants to sleep and when Rania plays, her father accompanies her through online. That's as advanced as technology. Able to scrape millions of miles.

I don't interfere with them, it's a father and son affair, no. Every day my son is excited to tell his father anything. School, playmates. Even piano lessons he loved.

Sometimes I hear their laughter. Sometimes Rania sings, though in an obscure tone, the voice of praise from her father is heard.

I did not enter into their conversation, though I sometimes heard Mas Amir asking what I was doing. I don't think there's anything more to talk about, it's all done. But it's not so with my ex.

Until the night I went into Rania's room, usually if Rania sleeps the video call is over. When I took the HP for the carger, I saw that Amir's face was still there. Turns out the call is still on.

“can we talk to you for a minute?” he said when the rectangular thing was in my grasp.

“I'm sleepy, besides there's nothing we need to talk about anymore no. I've freed you to contact Rania anytime, but not with me. We're done” I said in a firm tone.

“aku miss you” her words just seemed to tear my pride apart. On what basis does he have the right to say that, you sly man. The infusion was still plugged in but his brain started thinking strangely.

“sadly I didn't” I replied cynically. Just wanted to tell the man didn't know himself that my heart was no longer the same. The forgiving shafira is dead. Now I'm the new Syafira who won't work with just his trash

“but your eyes say yes” the sound is calm. cih, crocodile is still crocodile. Even though his condition was being treated, it turned out that his tongue was still shrewdly removing the trembling.

“sadly your guess was wrong Mr. Amir, in my eyes now there is only hatred. So don't throw a tantrum, because otherwise I'll make sure today is the last day you call my daughter.” My answer is full of emotion now.

“Her cup you know my weakness.well I relented this time” he said stop I saw him lay down his body with his left hand as a pillow. While his right hand. Holding HP.

“ahh, I can't wait to get well soon, then pick you up we'll live happily” his smile as if mocking me. I swear I'm sick of seeing it.

“do it, if you want me to be embarrassed. And don't dream of Mr. Amir, until whenever I'll never come back. If you remember what you will do should know yourself that the smell of the carcass of betrayal is so pungent” off my emotions. Eliminate manners, self-esteem or whatever the name suggests.

“stop showing that adorable face in front of me. Otherwise tonight I'll fly to your place. I'll lock you up all day. You know what happened next.”again that smile.

my hatred is getting ingrained for this shameless creature.

“I hate you, hate you so much savage!!!!” I really can't bear to taste it now. The foolish man laughed loudly across the street, as if my wrath was just a joke.

“well, happy rest my wife, do not forget to dream your husband so that your day is pleasant...muuachh?” and he still laughed out loud. I closed it immediately before I slammed Rania's HP.

My chest went up and down hearing his last words. My anger has peaked. That brash bastard, what after his brain coma so sliding, considers me still his wife. Saying sweet-ass in front of me.

Sit on the side of the bed to relieve emotions. Breathe out again, I do it over and over until my heart calms down again

My mistake was giving Rania's number to her, I should have used another number. So that she can't contact me anymore, but what about Rania, this little girl looks really excited. Going to school, piano lessons even playing with complex friends look very happy.

I took a deep breath. Like eating simalakama fruit. Forward must be backward also nails.

It's okay for me to sacrifice for Rania. Whatever you're gonna do to make my son grow up healthy. With the affection of both parents even though separated. Devolving myself to relieve fatigue after one day of living my solid routine.

“delay said father, tomorrow father can already go home” voice my little daughter. Looks very happy, thank God if it is healed, it means the burden of his mother is reduced. I had to wait for Amir at the hospital.

“uhuk....” I patted my chest, hot creeping due to choking on my breakfast, I took water, I swallowed in haste to relieve the pain in the throat.

“mother forgot to read the prayer yes.. until that cough, slowly mother” he said again. oh, what are you talking about my son. Didn't you know that your father is now hallucinating.

I just nodded at his words. Not wanting to see Rania sad anymore because of her father's promise. Because I'm sure the man won't keep it.

There's no right for my husband to take Rania, he's my son. I was pregnant, gave birth to care for and raised her. I will fight for Rania no matter what happens.

The sound of HP ringing sounded loudly throughout the house, the maximum volume installed by Rania. He hurriedly dashed into the TV room picking up the HP that was ringing nonstop. Shouting as if calling the owner.

“assalamualaikum dad, wow dad is handsome” greet my son open the conversation. I'm going to finish my breakfast. Their conversation didn't catch my attention at all. Moreover, hearing the voice of Rania's interlocutor, increased my hatred considering how the man demeaned me last night.

“waalaikumsalam dear, Rania is also beautiful. no school koq ng wear school uniform” askanya from across. Rania sat next to me with a video call still going on. I'd have been so nervous if I hadn't thought about Rania, I would have left the dining room. I don't want to hear my ex's voice.

“dad forgot yes, today is Rania week off.hahaha.” my son laughed out loud laughing at his father's stupidity.

“oiya, dad forgot” .

“when is dad home?” ask my son again.I just fell silent while enjoying the breakfast men u only a little leftover

“today is home, said the doctor father is healthy. Rania happy not?”that sura my ex looks a happy twinkle from my son

“ fun dong, just let me pick up Rania, right?” ask my son enthusiastically. I do not want to hear this talk. well I rushed to wash my former breakfast dishes earlier.

“mother said dear” ask father Rania

“plate wash out eat”.answered my daughter plain.

“can I talk to mommy?” what kind of question is that

“can, mother,,,”raniI gave her phone to me, I swear this creature that I hate the most now wants to talk.well, what does she want.

“hai dear, look I'm fresh, already handsome again. do you miss me?”rightly. Crocodiles do not know themselves narcissistic.

“you want to talk anything directly, I do not have time to serve you” if the same person is missing is already my friendly nature.

“iya,,, am I ready to pick up?, your husband is already very healthy and even eager to pick you up” do not forget his ignorant face teases me, I am not tempted, disgusted yes.

“don't do that, just take care of your family don't have to interfere in my life. There is no relationship between us anymore. And remember from now on don't call me your wife, come to the psychiatrist, afraid the doctor is wrong to give you medicine when you coma” my tone is full of anger.

A bastard like him would tease me. I'm sorry, my heart's dead for just accepting a prank.

“wickedly my wife's lips, I realized I was really conscious so there was no need to go to a psychiatrist. And I did it with pleasure. When are you ready to be picked up. Just say no need to be ashamed.” Again and again he said it out of his mouth.

“You have just healed father amir, the term God is giving a second chance to do good, or rather improve yourself. So don't look like you forgot the sad event you just missed” is over my patience. There is no end to this man testing my emotions

“oke, well then I will improve myself, better as the princess wishes. Then get ready and I'll pick you up. I love u dear” want to vomit the taste, my stomach turbulent want to remove the contents.

“you are like a crocodile that strayed ashore. Please keep your pride in front of women. So you don't look cheap” my answer is accompanied by a cynical smile.

“from the past I always wanted to look cheap in front of my wife, that's one way to make her happy. Let me in front of the woman out there I look proud. Because that's my goal” the answer makes me more upset.

“stop calling me wife of Mr. Amir, again you use that word, remember my threat is not kidding, will I block your number now also” my voice yells not strong resist the overflow of anger in the chest.

“mom, do not shout, the voice is also soft interlocutor has heard” rania voice warned me. He sat next to me, I forgot even because I was already burning with anger.This is a word I often say to him when rania gets angry and yells at me or his nanny.

“heard dear, Rania is looking at her bundle of emotions, it is not good for her soul development, give her a good example ya” said the crocodile from across. His face was holding back laughter. Okay, he feels like he's winning now.

“that's also because you are fishing” I press the sound so as not to look angry in front of Rania.

I hung up the phone immediately worried that the rant was getting out of control.

“mom if you hang up don't forget greetings first, it's not polite” said my daughter.

“oiya, you forgot earlier in a hurry. Sorry ya” I rubbed his head soft.

“don't repeat again yes..” my daughter's answer. I just nodded.

Well, son, from now on as much as possible you will no longer talk to your father.

It seems like from now on I have to eat a lot of cucumber, for my blood pressure to be normal, talking to your husband only increases my blood pressure.

Note: who whose heart is represented. wants to swear with dirty words for the father of amir.