Should I forgive

Insecure

A few months later .....

Today is Nadiya's last chemotherapy. His skin had become dry and somewhat dull. Her hair also fell out from chemotherapy. Nadiya was illfil because of his condition. His weight also dropped a lot. So that Nadiya who was originally slim became very thin.

There is a sense of insecurity in Nadiya. Nadiya felt her face become no longer beautiful. Also his thin body with dull skin. But Nadiya's husband continued to provide support so that Nadiya's confidence recovered.

Today, Ardy took Nadia to the Psychology doctor to recover her psychic Nadiya due to chemotherapy. Nadiya did not refuse, because she did need to recover her psychic condition. Somehow Nadiya became rarely out of the house and for months just at home since doing chemo.

Her husband became worried, because Nadiya who was once carefree, now became quiet and sometimes moody for no reason.

Nadiya stood in front of the mirror, and saw her face in the mirror. His face was flat and he was also reluctant to smile at the glass in front of him. The clothes that had been fitting to be worn by him, now became loose and uncomfortable. Finally Nadiya wore a loose t-shirt, loose pants and wore a hat to go see a doctor.

"At least this shirt will cover her very thin body." He complained while talking to himself in front of the glass.

Ardy entered his room and looked at himself with a smile.

"Let off now?" Tanya Ardy who saw Nadiya was ready.

"Yes pa."

Ardy and Nadiya then see a doctor. The return from the doctor Nadiya's face is brighter than ever. And already wanted to eat out with Ardy. They usually refuse for a lot of reasons. And choose to eat at home. Ardy becomes saddened to see his wife's change in attitude since chemotherapy.

"What's the meal ma?" Said Ardy.

"Yes very good Pa. It's been a long time since you've eaten out, it feels like your mama's feeling better now."

"Eat a lot ma. Be healthy and recover as before."

"Yes pa."

"Especially mama said she wanted a pregnancy program?"

"Yes pa. It's been a long time since the house feels lonely, mama misses the cry of the baby."

"Just pray, ma. May what you miss come true."

"Amen. Now we go home, pa."

"Yes ma."

"Home home through the front of Dara's house ya pa. She said Dara just bought a new house that's really fancy."

"Yes ma. Papa also heard that now Dara's husband is a leader in the Alexander Company.

"Yes. Luckily Joan just got in as Manager."

"Yes ma. It was Dara's house. This is the most expensive house in this complex. Papa saw the price on the brochure."

"Well, good at the house?"

"Ngga. Mama just wants to see. Tomorrow if you want to play."

Ardy didn't stop the car. Nadiya did not want to stop by and was just curious. Finally Ardy continued his journey and went home.

Sarah looks back and forth next to her car. Ardypun. Nadiya asked why Sarah was pacing? Sarah said the car wouldn't turn on. Because it has not been taken to the shop for a long time. He had to attend the event and it was too late.

"Oh that?" Said Ardy. "I also want to go to the office to retrieve the missing file. Do you want to be together?" Ardy looked at Nadiya.

Nadiya. Finally Nadiya got off and then Sarah got in Ardy's car.

Dara was cleaning up some clothes from the suitcase to be moved to her new closet.

"Mr......" 3-year-old Kiara immediately ran to hug Dara.

"Yes dear. Here's the same mama. Mama is very kangen. Same with Oma?"

Kiarapun. Then Dara kissed her only daughter and told her aunt to clean up her things.

"Daddy........" Kiara immediately ran towards her papa when she saw her father had just come from outside.

"Yes dear. Here papa gendong." This is one of Joan's strengths. He loved his daughter very much. Even when he came home from work, although tired he still took the time to play with his daughter. It was that sight that kept Dara alive, even though her husband shared the love. But for the sake of her daughter, Dara put aside her personal ego.

"Papa bring this gift to your dear papa's daughter." Joan pulled out a parcel containing a doll and a beautiful white horse.

Kiara immediately took the city, but could not open it. Joan then helped him open the box, and took out the doll and the white horse. They were also engrossed in playing together, and occasionally heard Kiara laughing chuckling, as Joan told a funny story.

Dara prepared dinner for her husband. Now they are rich. Many domestic assistants served him. But still if to eat her husband Dara prepared it himself.

"Feed Pa first." Dara said as she stepped closer to them.

"Yes ma. Just a minute. This is another great story."

"Yuk Kiara is with mom. Papa let's eat first. Kiara ate ya too."

Dara carries Kiara. Kiara was crying because she still wanted to play with her papa.

"Ohh cup! cups! cups! It's been. Don't cry yeah. Later papa continue the story if papa has eaten huh?" Kiara finally shut up and complied.

Today was the day Joan was with Dara for four days. And every Monday-Wednesday Joan is with Karina. Dara began to try to get used to the situation and circumstances that occurred. In addition to being helpless over her husband's wishes, Dara also does not want Kiara to be a victim.

As long as Joan could divide her time fairly, Dara tried to accept the situation. Because if he chooses a divorce, for the sake of his heart and ego is hurt, the first thing that will be fussed is child custody. Dara will definitely lose.

Joan will definitely take Kiara from her in all sorts of ways. Money was no problem for Joan. He can hire the best lawyer in town to get Kiara. And if until that happens, Dara not only loses Joan, she will also lose Kiara. Eventually Dara chooses to come to terms with her ego and her feelings.

All that he did for Kiara's future. One day if Kiara is an adult then she will know. But right now, in her growing up, all she wants is a warm family. The family where there is Papa and Mama in one roof and one room.

A whole family will make his soul and emotions grow better. My heart may be sad, hurt, disappointed and many other negative emotions, but in front of Kiara my smile will be a strength for her, to grow like a normal family.

I don't want Kiara to be a shy girl, seeing her mother's grief. Let what happens only happen to the fate of his mother. The rest I just want Kiara to always smile happily. Dara daydreamed while talking to her instincts as a mother. A mother who sacrifices anything for the happiness of her daughter. Ego, sadness, disappointment and feeling betrayed what it means for the happiness of his daughter.